A letter from June 6th, 2020

Dear Adalyn Maye in 2025, My first hope is that you are alive and healthy. My second hope is that you are happy as hell. I am currently 17 living in mom & dad's house. I am sitting on my bed reminiscing and thinking about many different things. Klara is going through the absolute worst anxiety right now and she has her first meeting with a counselor tomorrow. I hope that in 2025 she is much happier and is no longer fighting anxiety. I am also hoping that it does not tear her down and break her. My mother is currently my bestfriend and I hope that in 5 years, she is your best friend still. I fear greatly that I will lose her or dad and pray every night that I do not lose them. I hope that you are still strong in your faith and continuing to go to church with your boyfriend/fiancé/husband. If you are not, get there soon because you know how much God can change your life first-hand. I would like to say "You are currently engaged to Dawson Blades." But I'm not sure that I want that. I love him to ***** and we are currently going on 6 months technically but also 2 years if we say from the beginning. I love him endlessly but things are hard and I don't know if he is the man that I will be with in 5 years but oh am I excited to see when I read this. I don't know if I want to live the lifestyle that he has to live for his job nor do I know if I want to live a long distance from my family. What I do know is that I do not want to imagine marrying or living this life with someone else. Maybe when you read this you will be a strong independent ***** who can say "Yeah, I ended it and I'm finally happy and free." Or maybe you'll still be with him and very happy. Or maybe you'll be with a brand new man. Only time will tell. Senior year starts in less than two months and we are still dealing with COVID guidelines. I would do anything to live my senior year as normal but I know that will not be possible. Even if I can be AT school, it won't be normal so RIP Southwestern High School I loved you endlessly. If I had to guess right now, I would say that you are currently working in a salon/working in your OWN salon. I hope that you are doing hair because that is your passion and that is what you have always wanted to do with your life. I hope that you are still thriving with that side hustle: Ada Mae Boutique. I am currently hard at work on that business so I hope you are continuing it to this day. I tell myself to never grow up but I want to sometimes. Thinking about being 5 years older than I am right now terrifies me though. I know how to do zero life things on my own. If you are with D, he can teach you all of the ways. I really just hope you are happy. SO happy. No matter what you are doing with your life I hope you are content and loving life. I am hoping that Ellie is still in your life although the chances are slim. In this day, Ellie and I are not exactly friends. We do not talk and we do not socialize. She chose Nate. I hope you have forgiven him in 5 years for all of the **** that he has put you through. I hope that he never even crosses your mind anymore. When you read this in 5 years, write yourself another one of these for 5 years later to show yourself how you felt in this day. I will now go to sleep upset with my boyfriend and sad because I miss my foreign, Noortje. And I swear if you aren't still on talking terms with her, text her right now and tell her you miss her. Also, If you didn't go to see her in Amster*** and Paris summer of 2021, shame on you, you're boring. Goodnight now. Stay happy, stay healthy, and go to the gym. PS If you aren't with Dawson but you're with another guy who's name starts with D, bless your soul.