A letter from June 4th, 2020

Hi future self I am very much uncomfortable by the energy we've created in this room. Like???? Why dude?? Why do you have to overthink so much, You JUST ******* HURT YOUR OWN ******* FEELINGS EVERYTIME??? and like hold it on now bcos you can't cry here, you don't have space to do that What I thought was about you know, how I changed how I made myself into what I am And it was so hurtful to me. It was really. I don't care what anyone thinks about them,bcos they do hurt me. I would have been a totally different person, but look what they've made me do. Just ******* look at it. What am I even? Why? Are there any ******* good things about me? I read that negative self talk is like self bullying, well then we've been here for ******* years. And you know what, I will take this message from here and copy paste it for my future self, look what depressed **** you are, ******* *****.