A letter from June 1st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, you should be an adult by now. i dont really know if u can read this, i'll probably die bcs of suicide, or this corona virus bcs the government decided that we need to go to school even though the pandemic is getting worse everyday. today the black people are getting so much pain and horrible things, i hope in the future some changes has been made. it's been five years i think i couldve attend a concert of bts? pls they r like my life saver. i hope i can finally find someone to understand my pain, or i can finally go to see a therapist.. it's been 8 years of depression, i hope today you can get the helped you needed since 17 years ago. i hope the little happiness i ve been trying to make today can make me survive and keep living, bcs i know u r a really good and genuine person. u cant leave this world bcs of the bad things, stay bcs of the bad things. pls i really hope i can read this for 5 years later with bubu and boba on my lap sleeping. i hope your heart and mind can finally be at peace.