A letter from June 1st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, if your reading this hi future Suraya, hope your doing well babe. Hope you’re still close with your family and fulfilling all your life goals. Hope your mental health is in a good an stable place. Im sorry for all the **** you went through when you were younger but I hope is built you up to be the sophisticated,independent,strong,successful young women I aspire to be at this age. I hope you haven’t hurt yourself or try to effect your health with drugs and substances to take away your pain. I hope you found someone you love and to spend the rest of your life with if not don't give up, your soulmate is out there, Im sorry for everything you saw with your parents and the boys who broke your heart, All boys are not the same and make sure because of what you've seen, never set an example of the husband you shouldn't have for your kids. I especially hope your still planning to adopt kids or foster and do charity work around struggling and hurting countries.Don't ever think your not capable of loving or being loved your amazing and caring. I hope your still selfish, as bad as it sounds, remember your not loving for anyone but yourself. Remember never to let anyone put you down or tell you, you cant do something, you can doing anything you want when you put ur mind to it and ur head down. Your a clever girl who’s always making mistakes but learn from them don't ever let yourself live with any type of regret. I really hope you’ve got yourself a good set of friends, ones you want the best for you, are real with you, support you no matter what, there for you when you need them. Most importantly I hope ur still striving to be the best person you can be, love people the way you always want to be loved don’t let people get to you. You always said your going to be a rich girl and i hope your on your way to the top because I have faith you can get there. I hope your still on the path of midwifery and studying to be the best of the best. I hope you’ve passed driving and got a car. Before i stop writing because frankly I'm getting tired, just remember your ins and outs are both beautiful your an intelligent girl and can do anything you want remember to stay a good respectful loving caring person and never stop for anyone do anything and everything you want ,travel everywhere you want to go and hopefully your helping people on the way,hope our family's well and your always hanging around with them make sure stress isn't getting to your or depression or your anxiety and if it is you'll get through it because you can come past everything because i'm the strongest person i know