A letter from May 31st, 2020

May 31, 2020, @ 8:20pm. Dear older Jean, Kapag natanggap mo 'tong liham na 'to, 5 taon na ang nakalilipas. Ginawa ko itong liham na ito para ipaalala kung ano bang mga naganap ngayong araw na ito. You are still in a long-distance relationship with John/Berto. 5 months narin kayo and will be 6 on June 8. Eto yung mga naganap ngayong araw: 1. Nag-aaral ka nga pala ulit. You're taking BSIT and online schooling ka. The classes are starting to get real. But I know you can do it. Sabi ng quotation na nakasabit sa corkboard mo, "If I can dream it, I can do it." Sa corkboard mo nga pala may mga nakastick na, pictures niyo ni mama way back 2012, Certificate of Appreciation given on Oct. 4, 2020 signed by your favorite supervisor, Mr. Keith Dalton. Nandun rin yung photobooth pictures niyo ni Gechelle Binas, Instax photos niyo nila Ate Ayumi Maiter and Gechelle and Monica Rivera and Sabrina. Sa baba ng mga ito, andun ang mga graduation pictures ni John Robertson B. Dela Cruz. <3 Mayroon ding mga cross. :) 2. May pandemic ngayon, it's getting crazier each day. It's summertime but still has to wear a mask to prevent catching the COVID-19 (Corona Virus 2019)! Praying for the world to heal... 3. You just finished the TV series- Modern Love and you're actually listening to the opening song, Setting Sail. It's an awesome TV series and I recommend you to watch it again especially on your age now. ;p 4. You and Berto fought. It was crazy. Muntik na kayong magbreak. Pakiram*** mong you're breaking him and he's losing himself because of you. You feel that you break all the things and people you touch and get along with. Reason ng away niyo? He laughed at you for no reason. You kinda get offended so you asked him why. He said nothing and he was just happy. Yet since you are super sensitive, you kept asking why and if you were laughable. You made things a big deal. It almost breaks you two apart. I'm glad his love for you is bigger than his pride. Please don't ever break up with him and marry this guy. You will have a beautiful life with him. It won't be easy but it will be worth it. He loves you more than you know and hopefully, you fix yourself for you and so you could love him right, how you want to love him, and he wants to be loved. In 5 years, you will be 29. I hope you and Berto have met already. Sana stable ka na, Jean. Sana hindi ka nakadepende sa mga magulang mo. Pero sana rin may pamilya ka na or kahit engaged nalang muna. Hehe. Mag 30 ka na, oh. Paano ka magka-4 kids nyan if 'di ka pa kasal! Hmp! Pero in all seriousness, I hope you're happy. I hope you had fun today on your 29th birthday. I hope the world is healing and doing great. I hope may mga accomplishments ka na. Show me your ring if you're married or engaged already!! Get it, girl! I am gonna do my quiz now. HAPPY HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY, OLDER JEAN!! I hope you had a blast! Love lots, Younger you.