A letter from May 31st, 2020

Dear Future Neu, Are you happier now? Are you still friends with them? Aine? Syaki? Elisa? Angie? Zetsu? Did you ever get to meet up? Did you do all those things you wanted to do once you got a job? Go to japan... Volunteer.. Get a dog... Did you ever... end up helping the world become a better place? I know we're really ambitious and thats why I'mreally curious. We planned all these things but because I know what you're like, we tend to just vibe with the flow until things take place... But I wish I knew for certain where things would go. Say... Is it better now for you? Did you manage to move out and life your life away from this toxic environment? I hope you met better people..I hope that you're doing wayy better then you are now... Did you ever defeat depression? I've always wanted to know that at least... It's tiring everyday and I contemplate suicide anytime I can... Some days I feel like I never want to wake up and I don't even know if this letter will reach you.. What if... we never defeated depression? What if we lost... But I'm writing this in hopes it does reach you! I just wanted you to know that I'm always rooting for you! If we did become something amazing or better by the time you read this, I wanted to say thank you. Thank you for taking me so far <3 Thank you for not giving up on us and thank you for everything you did I'm sorry if I did something stupid along the way or if I messed everything up on our journey.. I really do wish you'd give me hints sometimes but if only life was that easy... Here comes the real question though... Did you.. Well... Are you two married now? You know.. You and.. Poker? I know it was rough and we fought a lot but he was always trying his best and he was always a nice guy but sometimes I just dont see us together but some days I just can't ever get him off my mind you know? haha Did you actually go to that place, that uni and lived together with him, raising puppies and going to uni together? Did you really have that sweet romantic couple life in uni like you always wanted? Man I really wish I could have gotten an answer to all of these questions. Not knowing sucks... Kinda makes me feel all sad now... but regardless, I hope this reaches you. I dont know what to write anymore so I'll end this letter here... I know 100% you'll forget you ever wrote this because you're dumb and forgetful but thats all the more reason I wanted to send it anyways <3 From, past you.