A letter from May 29th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hey. I hope you're okay. im 15 years old right now. so when you get this you will be 20. so during these 5 years I want you to do this. I want you to know your worth, because right now im having trouble knowing the real me. Im not proud of who I am today. im stubborn, lazy, selfish, and just empty. you fall in love too easily. I want you to have a boyfriend because im having boy problems right now. like I just had my first kiss and I hated it. when Bryce kissed me I wanted to love it but I hated i. I wish I never met him when he did even though it sucked when he left me but im over it. I still have dreams about him, almost every night its so creepy. other than that, you better have met the love of your life. u also better be in college because you need money. you need to succeed because 15 years of fighting sucks. it really ******* sucks so please do something with it. don't waste 15 years of ******* tears. also are you still friends with ben? I hope so haha. and have u met Ian Somerhalder? if so how was it? was it the best day of ur life? have u ever gotten tiktok famous? or gotten ur tiktok viral? also did mom get full custody? I hope so. I really ******* hope so because dad is an ***.. if mom got full custody, are u and dad still talking? is he ok? and nana.. is she okay too? what about Hannah, our dog. how's she doing?she just got surgery 2 days ago so rn she's hanging on. and Shane... how's he? is he alive? he's hanging on by a thread right now so I hope he found happiness. how's college? how many friends do you have? how many break ups have you been through? what's it like being 20? whats the worst thing you've been through? mine right now is this whole moving situation. I don't know whats happening next and im scared. also, how's mom? does she have a piloet? does she like the car? have u lost weight? whats your biggest goal right now? how much money do you make? are you loved? are you worth the life you're living right now? Is fighting easy? I hope so. you better be alive to read this. I hope you're okay. goodbye, see you in 5 years.