A letter from May 28th, 2020

Hey wassup man, I hope you're doing good. It's pretty hot in the house right now cause the AC tube got frozen again so that's fun... but life has been going pretty good recently, Xavier bought a Mercedes Sports AMG (but returned it cause the check engine light turned on and stalled on him so he just decided to give it back, 100% money back), I found my house in Minecraft after going on an expedition for spruce wood, I also got the job at Chipotle! If you've followed the plan that I currently have at the moment, you should be in the Navy right now traveling the world and saving money to buy parents' house. I wish I had advice to give you but there's nothing that I know now that you don't already know. I've recently been trying to find myself. I won't go into too much detail because this is a school assignment after all but I've made some decisions and done some things I wasn't proud of. I'm also pretty hung up on finding a girlfriend but I'm trying to snap out of it and focus on myself and my future. I'll try to do my part to make things easier for you. If you are where you wanna be then I believe a thank you is in order LOL. If not, then I'm sorry I have failed you. I have a good feeling you will be though so fingers crossed. Leo and Goliath are steady vibin and always chillin, I hope they are still alive. And if they aren't, I'm sorry for your loss man, You and I both know how much we love those dogs. Besides all that tho, I wanna let you know where my mind is at right now. Life is strange dude. Not in a good way nor a bad way. It's strange in just how unpredictable it is. and how thoughts hit you at random moments. I often think about that time where I stayed after school and I was walking home from Dekaney pretty late since the after school bus took the long way. I was listening to soul music and I was really in my head, in a good way. I felt like everything was gonna be alright. I got off the bus and was listening to the Over the Gardern wall soundtrack, that short cartoon set in an autumn forest. I sat on that big concrete pipe by that little lake or resiviour by Dekaney and was just thinking about everything. It was that feeling that we love. The feeling we had when we would walk to Meyer elementary to see our girlfriend at the time. The feeling you had when you would be the last bus stop on the after school bus after talking to Amee then passing her neighborhood and parting ways for the day. I honestly cant describe the feeling but I will certainly try. We felt alone and small compared to the seemingly infinite sized world. and It wasn't a super sad loneliness, neither was it super happy. But I was alone with you, and you were alone with me. I was alone together with myself. It seemed like all past experiences,feelings, thoughts, and emotions had met at that single point in time and space. The deaths of our grandmas, trying to convince Milly not to commit suicide, Breaking up with Ashley, Xavier telling you he was losing faith in God and that he wanted to commit suicide, My 17th birthday with the boys: Esai Guajardo, Jaden Amaya, and Robert Santana, all the previous walks from Dekaney to home or from Bammel to home, the sound of those birds, "woo woooo woo woooo" I think they were doves or something I dunno bruh, And aaalllllll the times us and the boys would go outside. It was Me, JT, Robert, Jono, David, Kort, Shamal, Xavier, Dorian. Don't ever forget those names. There's so many more memories man I really just hope you remember them and that feeling cause it's OUR feeling. We knew the future was coming but also seemed like everything was in it's place already and that you had already lived a lifetime. Foolish young Alexis, you're only 17 for crying outloud. I mean, when you get this, you'll still be a kid, you're only 22 buddy so simmer down. Anyways man, I don't wanna keep you cause I know you probably got sum naval stuff to do or whatever you're doing. Just wanna say I love you man and I really hope all is well for you. It's Jessica's birthday and Imma tell you what I told her, Keep it pushing bro. You're on your way. Peace and Love, You P.S. Don't forget that I've always wanted a Bull Terrier and to name him Cortez so please make that dream a reality!