A letter from May 28th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I know live been very hard . but you make it this far. congrats I don't know how future going to be. but I hope you're doing well just in case you don't remember how's life been for me 5 years ago. it been terrible but I'm still his surviving through this. I know this could be very nonsense. I met some friends and they are very good friends, I don't know if this friendship going to stay, when this is going to be sent to you. I just want you to know. I don't really know of your life is going bad or good I don't know. but I hope you doing good. if you sad or depressed, just remember "everything's going to be fine, take a deep breath, and remember everything bad not going to stay forever you will soon find someone that will help you, maybe it will be your soulmate maybe your best friends. and like Billie eilish used to say [don't be so sad, it's such a waste of time] everything might be bad but you gotta survive one day you will see everything you did, everything you went through, everything that hurt you will give you that experience that going to help you a lot, it will make you realize how is such an amazing person you are and how strong have you been. so don't give up. try your hardest maybe it will fail but you will gain more experience in life I might be a 15 years old teenager not knowing what the world going to be. you will get through it. and if you found the one you love, treat them well because they going to stay with you for your whole life, through the bad, through the good, who knows what's going to happen. we have to wait and see. I don't know if you still friends with these people. but from me right now they are the one who protecting me, who appreciate me and accept me just the way I am. just try to contact them Atleast... they are: -John(naito) +639515973874 -baki(askel) [bff] -etc...(pkmn) I don't know if you remember the what is happening right now for me. lately I've been in a lot of trouble but I'm trying to fix it. I'm failing in class. and I might get expelled or felt the entrance test. but after all of that I'm still be smiling and be that happy girl that Everyone see. even though I'm depressed. everything's been going downhill but I will try my best I won't give up. I might have suicidal thoughts however those thoughts just thoughts. I've been trying to move on. get things off my mind and maybe there's something new. maybe I will meet someone my friends online in real life. I don't know if it's going to happen but this friendship I hope going to stay forever. no toxic no unhealthy friendship, just a healthy friendship that bring happy love joy to both side. the smile has been very tiring this whole year been tiring. I have lost my emotion for a while I don't know how long is this going to go on. but just now I always tell myself everything's going to be fine someone will help me with this I just have to try and I will get it. my goals, my dream, my hopes, my friends, just knowing everything's going to be fine is relieved. I believe that my life will get better. I'm going to try my hardest, my best to create that word that I've been thinking about. my parents been annoying. my sister brother just the same being greedy. and I'm just try my hardest to be nice. and my social life, I have some friends I don't know if they're fake or not, but I will be kind to everyone. I know this sound dumb but everything nice you did not get paid by someone. maybe not the person you help happy that will be the person that will stay by your side. when you at your worst. keeping friends is hard however is something going to give you the lesson of your life. who to trust, who to like, who to you love. soon you will realize all this year went by but you're still there still that one person maybe you change but nothing gonna change the past. the past might be heart might be tough might be horrible. but their pass let them go they will let you see how much of an important person you are in this world. you deserve to have a life, you deserve to be happy, no one deserve to be unhappy or in pain. just know that everything going to change in 5 years maybe the Earth will be dying this year always start for few months but it's been a crazy year so far. the coronavirus, the quarantine, school be shut down everyone just get trapped and stuck inside a house. student getting problems cuz the virus. a lot of people insane cuz in the house for too long. the whole world just a mess right now. I don't know if this all going to end. but I hope you still there alive and get this email.... The good things i got? I met great friends, learning more English. having a good time with people i love and appreciate. and the bad things i got?... i messed up my sleeping schedule. i'm failing in class. might get expelled. and more things going to happen. Well, i guess that's all for now. i hope you will do well and keep one doing this.... send another one to your future maybe you will need it i the future. love you alot *me* l O V E Jessica/Crystal/Amira/Chau ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️