A letter from May 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, How's life? You still doing alright? I hope you're happy now. I hope you've found somebody amazing. I hope that you don't feel numb anymore. I hope you're doing better than me. I just hope that you're happier. Honestly, I hope that when you see this, you maybe even cry a bit (not that I want you to be sad). If you actually see this, I hope the voices in your head are gone. I hope that you can smile without it being fake. I hope that you are doing well in school. I do want to know though... are you still singing? Are you in love? Are you truly happy? Do you regret anything? Do you laugh when you see this? Or maybe will you cry? I just want too know if you are doing ok? Do you still have friends, or has everyone left? Are you still being treated poorly, or are you treated like every other normal teenager? I just want you to know, that even when things get really tough, just know that things will get better. That everything happens for a reason. Even when the world shuts you out and leaves you in the dark, just remember that it'll all be fine in the end and that it's all worth the waiting. You will be able to smile. I'm curious though, will you even see this? Do these things actually work? And if they do, well, how's the "end of the world"? Are you surviving? Is everything back to normal? Is there even a normal anymore? Heh... I know that when you read this, you'll probably think that I'm just being dumb and stupid, but I do mean every word that I've said. You'll probably be giggling and showing this off to all of your friends (and if they do read this, Hello!) but I do only hope that you take this seriously. For the rest of this letter, I'll most likely be talking about happier topics. So... do you have a boyfriend yet? Are you and Darcy still best friends? Do you still talk to Krysti (if you don't you better start talking to her)? A little bit of advise (if you don't have a boyfriend but you do like someone) if you really like somebody, and I mean REALLY like them, be forward and tell them how you feel no matter how embarrassing it is, trust me on this one. I made the mistake of NOT doing that, and I regret it SOOO much! Please just be confident and outgoing! It will be better for the long run. Even if things aren't great, believe in yourself with all you have. Because in the end, it might as well be me, myself and I, right? Oh I almost forgot to ask! Have you gotten rid of you toxic "friends"? Is you have then, YAY CONGRATS!! But if you haven't.... YOU BETTER DO THAT IMMEDIATELY!! Haha, please just enjoy every second while it lasts, because you just never know, it could just be your last. Have fun! Go to parties! Hook up with guys! Live on the edge! Just live life to the fullest! Oh and make sure you be yourself! You are a beautiful, amazing, wonderful, fabulous and gorgeous so make sure to show it off a bit! Have fun with life and never look back! Show the whole god **** world who you are and be proud of it! I want you to try a lot of things too! Try writing a song. Try dating girls. Try being popular. Try designing clothes. Try cutting your own hair. Try dying your hair. Try everything you can! Make a stupid bucket list. Write in a journal. DO stupid things with your stupid friends. Get a job. Go to college. Travel the world. Just do something! Oh and while doing these, don't be too stupid, will ya? I mean, I don't want you to get in trouble! Be careful with the things you do, but not careful enough that you just don't do them! I'm honestly not quite sure what to put in right now, but that alright! I just hope you know that everything's going to be fine, and that you should live life to the fullest! I hope the future is better than now, and I hope you're doing better than me. Take care of yourself, ok? See you on the other side.