Looking forward for the future

Dear FutureMe, I know it may sound silly but I just saw this trend on TikTok where you send letters for your future self and I decided to do one. I'm pretty sure that it would be out of fame by the time this reach you and if my math is correct we would be at least 27 now? I hope you are happy where you are right now and living your life like we dreamed of. I don't really know if you're married now but I doubt it. Romance is not really our strong suit but maybe you are in a relationship right now? If you are married then tell them your past self said hi! And if they want to read this they are welcome to!! I'm writing this at like 3:30 am at May 22, 2020 in a middle of a pandemic. Yeah, I know my sleeping schedule isn't exactly the best but you know why it's like that. The reason I'm writing this to you is to cheer me up a little and distract me from the quarantine. Things are a little bit overwhelming right now and I can feel my depression creeping up on me. And it terrifies me if it does cause I never want to go back there again. The locked down is really making it worse to be honest. My anxiety is attacking me in waves too like it would be fine one then but the next day bam. I made plans this year too but yeah this happened. I am still hoping that things would get better! I was planning on getting back to school this year after dropping out 3 years ago cause of mental health. Getting back to drawing again and hopefully improving too, making a YouTube channel for our art and cooking, and getting into cosplay! I also planned to visit our best friend this year too before she goes abroad. I have more plans than that but those are the main ones that I find more important. I really hope that we did all of that but if we didn't then I'm sure we still can to it! I really hope you found someone that loves and supports you like we do. I just want you to be finally be happy now. I just want us to be finally happy now. You deserve it more than anyone. You survived through all the pain. Remember that they cannot hurt you anymore. You are safe now. You are not those things that they told you you are. I'm sorry of I made you cry but you know us we were always sensitive. I also apologise if I got a little bit emotional back there like I said the quarantine isn't helping with my mood these days. To get off with that negative thought I just want to remind you that we overcame our depression this year. We cut off some toxic people from our lives. We opened up more and discovered more about ourselves this year. We learned about our boundaries. We finally found our voice and confidence. We made more friends! We finally stepped out our comfort zone. We finally decided to forgive and stopped blaming ourselves. I want you to remember our accomplishments that we thought was impossible before. That we are strong and can overcome the impossible. That I am proud of what we became after all the trauma we faced. We proved ourselves that we are not the things that they said. That we are more than that. I just want you to know that I love you. I know that we barely hear those words in the past and till now but I am sure you will hear to words more in your time. I know that our own opinions the most important thing to us. I will always love and support you no matter what you do. I will always be proud of you. Prove our past self that we can be happy and find people that cares about them. I'm quite curious about the future future self. I'm imagining you with a significant other that loves and adores you. Like, hey you future partner! Hope you planning on proposing to my future self by now or at least married now. I hope you have your dream wedding too with all the family you made. I hope you and Althea are still best friends and each other's maid of honor on your wedding. Living in a house that finally feels like home. Finally traveling the world like we dreamed of. I am also wondering how much you will change. Do we still have the same music taste? Is Violet still our favorite color? Are our opinions still the same? Are you taller now? Do you still play videogames? Maybe our art improved? Did you finally dyed our hair like we wanted to? Well, no matter how much you changed I am still proud of us. Just so you know I am looking forward for the future now. I know things will get better from now and you are the proof of it. From your 21 year old self.