A letter from May 20th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, you have been through a lot of **** these past few years i wonder how we even made it this far with all those thought about suicide and the bullies we thought we would never make it in this world remember at 6 yrs old we wanted to be like that barbie show where she had all those jobs she was so cool even at 14 we still wanting to be like her it's funny how we wanted to run away and still do to live my life happy cause all the things that happen around us is all bad news we cried ourselves to sleep when our day was bad quiet screaming when we just wanted to scream but couldn't we never had a shoulder to cry on we wondered if we would even make it in life and grow up have a family but you always thought what was the point of dreaming if we might end up dead we always had our mind filled with thoughts our mind was never blank our vivid imagination got the best of us we were so sick of life we though one day yeah let's just go who cares if we go to hell or heaven so we grabbed that rope and tried to choke yourself but we couldn't do it we cut our wrist but stopped doing it there being scared that someone might notice so we cut our thighs right now i'm hoping we our chasing our dream of being like barbie if not being a photographer or a youtuber wanting to inspire and change peoples lives so they know that they aren't alone that there will always be someone there for them remember wanting to buy a mansion with your bestie looking on google for that house and saying let's get this one staying on call for hours just so we can talk about our future together i'm hoping that dream came true living with your best friend and remember we wanted to have the perfect dating plan just in case you started dating someone ut couldn't choose well hope that future boyfriend or maybe husband is reading this to remember when our friends asked what is your type but we could never choose cause we didn't care as long as we loved them and they loved us but remember we couldn't decide if we wanted a badboy or a nerd or a football guy but remember in class when they were teaching us *** ed and you said that might be pain full so we said we would adopt but if we changed our mind and do decide to have your own kids hope we still adopted just so we can make a kid happy and give them a home oh what a future we dreamed i hope we did these things if not when you read this then do it let's make our life worth living bye future me.