A letter from May 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Dear future self, If you’re reading this I hope you’re not on drugs. As I’m writing this I’m getting ready for my AP language test hopefully I pass but it’s a rhetorical analysis essay and I’m really bad at essays so I’m sorry. My biggest goal that I set for myself, as of right now at the age of 17, is I really hope that you have your the job that you want or you’re pursuing it at least. I always wanted to be something in the medical field and I’m thinking about being a certified registered nurse so hopefully you stay on that path, please do not be pregnant! Just in case you forgot I aligned myself with liberal views especially on the social side as of right now. I hope maybe you don’t change because I like to see myself as an empathetic person, and Donald Trump he’s not a bad president he just kind of a bad person so that was your thoughts on him just to let you.Oh also he kind of is a big crybaby for no reason like if you watch some of his stuff you’ll see how annoying he is no offence but oh well. I play soccer right now and I know I wasn’t going to in college so if I’m not playing soccer then I won’t be mad about it but I hope you’re still running and working out even though you have no motivation, I know you. My room is kind of like girly but it doesn’t have posters or how like normal teenagers would have the room set up in movies it just has like a cute little mirror and some boxes you know some storage space a little white elephant that I hang all my stuff on, that kind of stuff. We are living in our grandparents old house you know 631 dunn the one by the church it’s a really nice neighborhood except there’s always some man riding his motorcycle and it makes a really loud noise you know. And were at the new high school the one by the highway it’s a pretty decent size, I guess everyone was like oh it’s huge but then you go inside and it’s like never mind no it’s not. And at the new high school that they’re building that new ag building I guess it’s pretty cool, pretty big there’s also apartments now by it some more people are coming that’s great but I graduate next year,hopefully. See I don’t do much like I said before I play soccer but I used to have a job at cc but I know we hated that job I hated it at least in this time. The reason I’m not doing much though is because of this whole coronavirus thing I was supposed to start going out and doing stuff because younger you was it an introvert let me tell you that so I mean I have a boyfriend right now as of May 20th. Yeah our boyfriend is kind of good he’s nice we like him let’s hope we still like him our last boyfriend was nice to but he kind of just went away you know but you know I’m over that you’re probably over that hopefully we’re still friends and that’s what matters.Since summer is coming we’re probably gonna go to the lake or to my two Since summer is coming we’re probably going to go to the lake or to my to aunt Ruby’s pool at our old house in red oak. We got a new mat so we could do ab workouts in the grass without being all itchy so that’s a good thing and we are practicing shooting and juggling on the daily so we’re ready for senior year. We don’t go to church much these days but I hope to fix it in the future. As of right now all of your family that you know is still alive grandma and grandpa on mom’s side Momo and Popo on dad side, my mom , my dad , Josh and , Monica our brothers right now one is four and the other one is five and Jonathan will start school next year so that’s cool. Oh yeah I hope you learned how to drive because we suck, I almost ****** us. You’ve never thought of yourself as having best friends but as of right now it would be my cousin Jalyssa but also my friend Trinity I would count her as my best friend.And boyfriend OK let me tell you so my first boyfriend was David and we dated for three years and it was nice but I wasted time if I’m being honest and that sounds mean but come on you know what I’m talking about. Then my second boyfriend Jesus we dated for 10 months and he just lost feelings and that’s OK because that’s what I do with my first boyfriend. But right now we have a new boyfriend whose name is Josh and he’s really sweet and I think he’s one of my favorites. For the future I would love for you to have the job you want or at least be pursuing the job you want. You don’t have to be married. It's not that big of a deal honestly and I mean you want kids but I hope you waited for you to get a stable job. And I know having kids is scary because trust me I’ve seen like a lot of things about how it could rip in all that stuff and I’m just scared as you are I mean we’re the same person obviously but I want you to think about how you could be a foster parent or an adoptive parent either or is good like of course you want your own kids but those kids need homes too. I hope you’re still pro-choice and I hope you’re still a feminist I just really hope that your values are still as important to you as they are to me in the past.And remember no matter how many times somebody has told you that feminist hate men that’s not true that’s a Misandrists do not believe them. I love you trust me it took me a lot for me to build self-love and I’m still not there yet. Please please please please stay safe and wear a seatbelt. Sincerely, Josie ann Flores