A letter from May 19th, 2020

Dear Future Me, 5 years is a long time so much has passed us so many things have happened around us Aliah has seen a lot and mom has been thought hell we had to put Aliah in a hospital we tried our best but it just too hard to see her hurt her self or anybody else we all been through hell but I hope after you read this letter you can stop blaming yourself yes it sucks more than anything to see her go thought all these difficulties but helping us so we won't see her hurt her self and keeping her from harm you have to love everyone around no more fights because they become something bigger than what you want them to don't let all the problems get in the way of what you believe in or what you do to help her I hope that in five years when you open up this letter you can see how hard it was to sit in bed and watch mom cry and blame herself for Aliah being sick but at this point no one can be blamed for this she's not okay she's sick and no one did that that's just how some things happen good people get hurt or sick and we can't do anything but help from afar everyone is mad and the only thing you can do for both of them is pray that Aliah gets better I know that right now it's scary to see someone i love go and the worst part is i think this place can really help her but the only thing i could do was cry yes once in awhile its okay to cry go-ahead cry get it all out it's always good to cry but it's also good to ask for help some people can't help but most people are nice and understand like Caleb he is great guy, smart, funny and sweet he can be the reason why you didn't break down at the hospital so you have a friend and Elina she's always here for you I love her so much she's like a sister and you can always count on her just like mom and dad and all off the kids so that it i hope that when you read this you will be happy and more relieved of whatever your going though i hope that you can come to realize that writing this letter gave you some perspective on life and the way we lived it i hope at the age 25 we are happy and much more free of all the sorrow and doubt and there's just love and peace within the family Love the seventeen year old you Lilly P.s don't forget to live it up at the age twenty five because you didn't get to live it up at seventeen