A letter from May 15th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, How are you? I hope you're well... Lord knows how things have been lately. I’ve been sad and I don't know why. I have such an amazing boyfriend (Kyle) he's my everything. It makes me guilty that I feel so sad when he's such an amazing spirit. I want to be happy for him and with him. I am. it’s just hard to show. I’m going to marry this man. I just know it!! any good songs lately ?? I’ve been listening to Rosyln - St. Vincent & Bon Iver, but I’m also being depressy right now lol but play Sticky - KeKe Palmer when you need to realize that you are THAT ***** lmaoo jk but you're awesome. Anyway, are you well? I hope you are.... you're so pretty. I love you. you have a light that people fail to see, and that’s okay! I hope you learned that it’s okay to not care what people think - especially if they don't know you. I’m laying here with gypsy and Salem. they're the forces that really get me through rough days like today. lol its funny because everyone hates the way gypsy smells - I do too sometimes, but she has a smell that’s so comforting. it’s so weird lol I love her... gypsy has been with me through EVERYTHING. break ups, fights, sadness, joy!! she's celebrated with me and she has been there while I cried and cried on her fur. My true un-official service dog lol. But hey, things get better!!!!! I swear. you will have ups and downs .... stop drinking so much. don't hinder your intelligent mind. I’m tearing up just writing this because god I hope I get this in 5 years .... don't screw it up okay? you're the main character in this ****** up world... make it count ... and be the GOOD in the world. are you married ?? do you have children?? I Bet they're BEAUTIFUL .... actually, I know they're beautiful .... you'll be a great mom, you have it in you. how is everyone else? have you taken your steps back? assessed the situation? probably not, you're not great at those types of things let’s face it lol everyone happy? or is it how it was 5 years ago? either way - as long as you are good that’s all that matters. do YOU and always make sure YOU are good first .... unless you have your little bbs then make sure they're good lol any new dogs?? I know you wanted a basset hound lol maybe a German Shepard? I guess that’s all I have to report on... I’m alone right now. Kyle is in Odessa doing some things ... can't wait till he's back home with me. we are so good together. when you get this, write another letter. you won't regret it!! love you - hope everyone is good and safe <3