A letter from May 15th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey. It's Anupriya. from 5 years ago. As of right now, it's 4:50 PM, on May 15, 2020. I am 14 years old which is pretty crazy, to be honest. It's the month of Ramadan right now but I'm currently not fasting cause you know, periods suck. OH YEAH WE IN QUARANTINE RN. CoronaVirus is really out here stopping us from going to the masjid. I hope it doesn’t affect our lives too much. Enough people in the world are dying already. hm. what else to talk about. I met my two best friends in the whole wide world, Anya and Laren (aka Minta). She calls me Penelope. Lauren is such a sweet sweet girl and has helped me through so much. In 15 days, we have to move out of the house, 1544 Sheffield Road, Birmingham Michigan. We're moving next to Lauren’s house but she has to move also. I'm being so specific because I don't ever want to forget it. When you get this letter, you will be 19, turning 20 soon. It's crazy. being so close to adulthood. I'm scared. I just want to tell you that everything is going to be alright. I hope I make it into a good college. I hope. I hope Mom or Baba doesn't die. I hope my friends will stay in my life. I really want to meet Samarth and Abrar soon. If you have a way to go to Anupriya. Also, future me, don't snap random boys off your collar bones. Remember that one kid from Vermont, with the little Spanish accent? Yeah, I blocked him. He was a bit thirsty. I tried to make myself pretty for him. “Nice *****” was his reply. He made me feel like a bad ***** but honestly, it felt good. I was also pretty scared. Also, let's talk about Samarth. Best friend from California. We “daTeD” for a week and ended things off cause it was wayyy too awkward. We're friends right now and I'm so happy about that. Thanks for introducing me to Money Heist (only on the 3rd episode hahaha) I don't ever want Samarth out of my life. He’s so special to me and if anyone hurts him, they're gonna find my hands PERIDOT. Samarth is a good guy. He's smart, athletic, butttt an FBOY. he still has a goofy personality. :) He's been through alot and I just want to be there for him. I wanna meet him one day. FUNNY STORY: Remember when I had feelings for him? He sent me this one snap with a Lil cute face saying “I wanna push you in seven positions for seventy minutes you get it babe” and I couldn’t stop thinking about it. All throughout the jummah prayer, I was just thinking about doing IT with him. I felt so good I don't know why. I got butterflies just thinking about him. I made a TikTok about him because I was a SIMP and I thought about all the different types of scenarios I'd meet him in. There's one specific one where we were at a cafe in Cali and we recognize each other and another one where it's his high school graduation and I surprise him. I even wanted to go to Stanford because of him. He's literally a smartass that could get into any college he wants to go to. Oof **** that's funny. It's just weird thinking about it that way now. I'm happy where we're at now. Samarth made a group chat called “Brownies” if I recall and it was people of color and in this case brown. We were all just vibing and I added everyone off the group chat cause why not? Me and this guy, Abrar started snapping each other and started having little conversations. Ended up talking the whole night. We had so many similarities it's crazy. I swear we were just living the same lives but in different places. We both are from Bangladesh, both 14 years old. His birthday is on July 30 which is only 2 months before mine. It's crazy. Kinda caught feelings for him. I'm pretty sure I did. Maybe he did too. I have no idea. I can't forget this one time when I knew I fell for him. We were texting at like 4 am after suhoor and we were playing around and he sent a text saying I’d eat you with the little smiling devil and I got wet (ew) like I felt tingles all over my body. I felt alive. I first wasn't trying to get ahead of myself and stop thinking about boys cause he wasn’t tHat attractive, and I don't want to be rude. But like I still liked him, even though he wasn’t the best looking. He honestly made me smile when I read his texts. We’re “penpals”. It's a cute name. Idk. I just don't want to have high hopes like I had with Samarth. We were making plans to meet in Pennsylvania. It's crazy. I felt so happy in the moment just making plans with a boy I have never even met before. It's called living and made me feel ecstatic. Abrar is a good kid. He told me last night that I made him fail his schoolwork last week and I felt so bad. I really thought it wasn’t going to work, meeting up with him. I don't know. That's Allah’s decision. So yeah. Those are important people in my life right now. Also girllll if you haven’t had aglow up yet, what the **** are you doing with your life right now. Girls,et up from bed and lose those 20 pounds cause it ain't gonna happen by itself. I weigh 160 right now and it's just so hard to lose weight. Ugh. I really don't know what else to talk about since we're in quarantine and it's hella boring. I'm just going to end it. Thanks for reading, bye baby, i love you to the moon and back. Don't let anyone get to your head. :)) 5;27 pm ALSO REMINDER DO NOT CUT YOUR BANGS BY YOURSELF PLEASE AND THANK YOU