A letter from May 15th, 2020

Dear Future Me, Today's date is May 15th, 2020. I'm currently 13 years old. I'm stuck at home due to quarantine and Corona Virus. I hope you're doing well, especially with what was going on. I hope everything went back to normal. I understand that I might have been a huge disappointment when I was younger and I went through some extremely messed up **** but I was trying my hardest to live a normal life and be happy, guess it just wasn't working out for me. I really wish I could've been more smart and alert of what was going on and the **** that I was getting myself into. I currently want to be a psychologist to help kids such as myself who struggle through depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and etc. I hope you're still thinking of pursuing the same career. I'm really missing Lenny right now, he's still in the army, in Texas. Samantha got a new kitty who looks just like your kitty Simba. I'm not really sure why I'm writing about the events that are happening currently, you already know about all of this. What I really wanted to tell you is that things get better. You deserve better people, better friends, a better life, and more happiness. I hope you have it right now. I understand times get extremely hard and tough and how you wrote to Lenny for your Thanksgiving letter in seventh grade "I understand how hard life is and how hard it is not to point a *** at your head and just end yourself. You and I are alike because persevere through all of the tough times in life even though society tries to bring us down.". That hit extremely deep. I want you to know to stay strong and be your TRUE self! Don't listen to the ******** that other people tell you, it's not worth it and it's just a waste of your time. I hope you already put the bad past behind you and only remember and think about those good times from when you were a kid. Like those funny stories from the summer, and Bambi and Brooklyn. You better have already finished writing the book with your funny summer stories! You need to earn that money to go to college, move to New York and buy yourself an apartment (maybe, unless you changed your plans haha) and I hope you already got a job and hopefully, even your driver's license haha. I have extremely high expectations of you and for you. Please keep up your good work and your best image. Help yourself, help others. Work hard, try your best at everything that you do. You also better be exercising every day and keeping your shape, eating healthy; that means no Haggan-Daz every day! I hope they're still in business in the future haha. Oki well, papa is calling me to go downstairs and ride our bikes even though I just wanna walk and the golfers are still outside xD. Welp, I love you and I hope you'll make good decisions for yourself and experience true happiness and love. Good luck, baii until next time :3.