A letter from May 15th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey 19 year old leilani! It’s 14 year old Leilani just saying hi. I have a few questions which you don’t have to write back obviously bc that would be impossible. Anyways, let’s get to it... Are you in collage? Do you have a good relationship with dad? Are you happy now? Have you had a boyfriend? Do you want to have kids one day? Do you still have anxiety and insomnia? How did therapy go? Did you make it through high school with friends? Are you still friends with Abby cook? Do mom and dad still have hei hei? How’s nana? Do you have a job? Did you go brunette? Are you an aunt? Where do you live? Have you ever been in love? Do you still use tik tok? Have you had your first real kiss? Are you lonely? Text charlee;) she misses you Is mom better? Who’s your best friend? Have you met your soulmate? Where was the last place you traveled? Do you have a car? Are you still friends with Kellen Clements? Thanks for reading this far, i hope you are never held back by limits and go into doing great things! I’m proud you’ve made it this far. You’re so strong and i look forward to becoming you. Never forget how worthy you are of God, love, and life. I love you leilani ann littrell. Here’s what’s going on in my life. We’re still in lockdown and have to social distance. I haven’t seen any of my friends since my birthday but we didn’t get a hug or anything. It’s been hard, but better things are coming and this will all be over before we know it. I’m having trouble comparing myself to other girls. But who can I blame when they’re all posting beautiful pictures of themselves on Instagram every other day? When I can only post one picture about a month without getting insecure. I just wish I could be comfortable in my own skin. Hopefully by now you have conquered that.Currently struggle with insomnia, meaning it takes me hours to fall asleep my head can’t stop going off. I also struggle with anxiety and social anxiety. I hate it. Maybe you’re making fun of me, maybe you know where I’m coming from. Either way, it’s real right now, and I hope it will be over by then.My favorite cat and my best friend ran away a few months ago. His name is Wally. I don’t know if you remember him but if you do, I really Hope you do, just know that he was a great cat. Are you in college? Did you make it out of high school? If so, what college do you go to what are you majoring in, and are you happy? I know I already asked these questions previously, but I just wanna know that you’re sure. I have my best friend Abby cook , My close friend alicia❤️, My close friend alicia❤️, and my sort of friend palmer❤️. I better not lose abby. i love her sm. anyways, i hope you were reading this with a friend so you could laugh and cry and make fun of yoyrself or whatever. but i hope i made you happy today or tonight. live desperately every day🤍🤍 Love, Leilani ann littrell (14)