A letter from May 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Wow, so you are 25 years old by the time you read this. I sure hope you have the same email, otherwise, there is a letter from your past self waiting for you to read, but you'll never actually receive. I'll make sure I write about this in my journal, you know, the one with the world map. I hope you finished writing in that **** journal, there are still blank pages waiting to be written on. I've been writing in that journal since 2017, it's weird to even think about how 3 years ago I was 17. Once I turned 16, I think time has just gone way too fast. To be honest, I'm glad high school is over and I don't have to deal with that mess. Remember good ol' BOCES? lmao. I know you do. That was an interesting time in your life and I truly think it made you who you are today, in some aspects. You saw a lot. Dealt with a lot. Made friends with people you'd never become friends with if it wasn't for BOCES. Are you still friends with Caroline? It would be a shame if you lost contact, but I've known the girl since 7th grade and we've been best friends since. It would suck if you weren't friends anymore. She's the only one you keep in contact with from high school. She visited you in VA back in 2018 and you did the same during the summer. If this Corona virus ends, she'll come during the summer, but who knows. Back then, you used to care so much. Too much. I still care, but maybe not as heavily as I did when I was 17. I think 17 is the age where people grow into themselves. When you are 17, life is weird. You aren't an adult, but you feel mature enough, even if you aren't. So much happens at 17. Relationships form at 17. People lose their virginities. You haven't, but I'm sure by the time you are 25, you've got that over with lmaoooo. I cannot begin to tell you how NERVOUS i am about sucking a ****. Like how the **** does that work? How do you even know you're doing a good job??? Sure, I could watch ******* porn, but it still feels like I will have no idea what the hell I am doing. Hopefully when you give your first *******, you like and feel comfortable with the person. I should stop taking about ********. I don't even know who I will be at 25. Who are you?? What has been going on? Did mom end up with William? God, I used to love that name, but now I hate it. It would seriously suck if she ended up with that ***** boy. They have broken up, but she still talks to him, it's quite ********. I told her, "how are you supposed to get over someone if you are still in contact?" She tells me she "can't just kick him to the curb," but how are you supposed to heal? It's been a month since they broke off their engagement and she's still in contact. Like, please, cut off the communication. I just hope by the time you are 25, doing whatever you as a 25 year old does, she found someone who's a good person and not him. I would go into details, but you already know, and that's all that matters. Back to me being 25 and all that entails, how are you actually doing? I really hope you are happy and doing everything you said you'd do. I'm finishing up my second year in college and about to receive my associates in the summer. My spring semester just stopped and I have three classes for summer. Then, I'll be transferring to ODU for fall semester 2020. Currently I'm nervous about transferring to a university, since I'm in community college right now and things are much different. It's been hard to find people at CC. I just hope to god you branched out and found yourself a good group of friends. I'm planning on joining the Women's Rugby Club, as well as other clubs. I have no idea how to play rugby, but I'll learn. When I saw that club, I figured it would cool to know how to play. They apparently love newbies and it seems welcoming. By 25, I think I'll own my bagel business. It's all I think about these days. I know I'll do it proper and right. The bagel stores in Virginia seriously suck and lack everything. On Long Island, bagels are a way of life. The shops have variety. The bagel stores here that claim to be "NY style" are just ********. What kind of NY bagel is small?? A ****** one. Starting a bagel business is quite intimidating, but I think you'll do just fine. You know what VA is lacking and you know there's so much possibility for growth. I want this bagel store to have everything--a variety of bagels, butter, cream cheeses, drinks, pastry items, sandwiches (bagel sandwiches), rolls, good coffee. I want the bagel store to be a one-stop shop. You want some good bagels? Go to Islander Bagel. You want a cake/other pastry item? Go to Islander Bagel. You want a good *** bacon egg cheese on a kiaser roll? Go to Islander Bagel. You want a variety of drinks and a coffee shop experience? Go to Islander Bagel. I feel it in my heart, man. It's what I am meant to do. I know there are talks with Linda, your boss, about opening up another location. The fact that she views you as someone she'd like to work with in the future, is insane! I hope that works out. I really like Linda and think if I open up another location of the pizza shop with her that it would be great experience for when I branch off with bagels. I'm sure if the pizza stuff works out that I'll still run Pieoneer and run Islander Bagel. Ever since you mentioned running her social media, your relationship has strengthen and changed. You made yourself a wonderful opportunity and now even get paid for that too! I hope my 25 year old self finally mastered German, as well. I'm thinking of minoring in the language. Likely I'll do a double minor in business administration and German. Once I master German, my dream has been to take a month off and travel around Deutschland. I think that would be a really cool experience. I'm planning on doing a solo trip to Ireland to celebrate my 21st and then traveling to the netherlands 2021 to see the tulip fields. Girl, you are doing the thing!! Do you realize how much you've been able to do? I know I doubt myself a lot, but I've done a lot for my age and I'm only getting started. Hiking to Manchu Picchu has also been in the talks. I also want to hike the Swiss Alps, wouldn't that be sick? I know you'll do all those things. I'm scared of what will come when I'm 25, but at the same time I'm not. As long as you keep striving toward the best, you'll be fine, I know it. Maybe by 25 you'll be in a serious relationship and maybe your boyfriend will be from another country. Omg imagine? I wonder what the future has in store. I guess I'll have to find out. I love you and believe in you, Annaliese