A letter from May 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey, it’s currently 1:05am on 15/05/2020. I’ve never written one of these before, I don’t really know where to begin, or what to even say really. I’m currently stoned laying in bed with Gus and Peaches, I want to stop smoking, so hopefully you’re reading this right now, and don’t smoke, I’ll be really proud of you if you are. My feet are really cold, and my hair is currently orange from a failed attempt at colour stripping it from when you and Ksarna (stupidly) dyed your hair so dark brown. So I’m definitely not looking the best haha. I hope whatever you look like right now through you’re genuinely happy with, and don’t feel as insecure as I do right now. This year (2020) has been really weird, the corona virus is quite scary, and it’s been really affecting my mental health, more than I thought it would. I didn’t realise how much I rely on constantly being distracted by my friends to help make me feel happy until now. I’ve been feeling really sad and insecure, it’s like this constant worry that I’m never good enough. And all I can seem to do is worry that I’m never going to find love; that no one is going to be able to look at me and genuinely want to be with me; and stay, I feel like I’m too weird. But when future me is reading this; I hope you’re genuinely so so happy despite whether or not you’ve found your special someone, or even if you haven’t yet, just know it’s okay. and please believe that. things take time, you have so much to offer, and deep down, behind all the negative thoughts you know you do. You’re going to be okay, that’s something I feel like 18 year old Charli needs to remember, so I guess it feels right writing that down. There’s so much pressure at this age to have everything planned out, to be on a steady successful path, and it can be hard when things aren’t going the way you hoped. You’re currently working at KFC and you cannot wait to get out of here, and I know for a fact future Charli reading this would have, thankfully LMAOO There’s some things I want you to always remember and do: Life is short and precious, don’t hold grudges, forgive people, forgive yourself, learn from your mistakes, be a better version of yourself everyday, be kind, don’t be afraid to ask for help, always check up on your friends, stand up for yourself and for what you believe in. Love strongly, be honest, tell people how you feel even if you’re scared, don’t hold it in, don’t ever stop being yourself - I know you feel insecure and like you’re weird and need to put up a front, but you’re your own beautiful unique funny person, so please. be. yourself. life is too short not to be. and most of the time everyone around you is worrying about the same things to even worry about what you’re doing let’s be real. - 18 year old Charli. I’m not too sure how old I’ll be when I open this, or if you even remember it, but please always be yourself, work hard, I know things can be hard and you can feel unmotivated, but it’s worth it in the end. Most of all I hope you’re truly happy. And if you’re not, it’s okay. Because you will be, I promise. I love you. - 2020 / 18 year old Charli