A letter from May 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, So currently it’s 1:09 am and I got this idea from tik tok , which I tend to do a lot considering I ****** up my hair when I was inspired by tik tok. Anyways it’s 5 years from now , 2025 , you’re a freshman in college which is scary. The current you or I guess the past you , I don’t know , anyways I’m in 8th grade. The corona virus is getting if anything worse and I haven’t seen any of my friend since about 3 weeks ago when I went to haylei’s. I haven’t been doing the best recently, um my ming is just at a really bad place right now and it sucks because I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I cried for an hour last night and just got really sad randomly. I balled my eyes out like I had just found out my dog died which is weird cause nothing like that even happened. Mom also thinks I have an eating disorder , which I doubt I just wanna be skinny for once, I’ve never got to experience that and I wanna know what it feels like to where cropped clothes and not have to feel like I need to cover up. Have you reached that goal ? of being skinny ? I hope so. How’s volleyball going ? did you make all 4 years of sandia’s volleyball team ? are you at UT like I hoped ? are you studying to being an anesthesiologist ? Five years seems like a lot but then it doesn’t , I’m scared to grow up , I mean three years of middle school went by fast and I’m sure 4 years won’t be long either. Just remember to have the time of your life while in college and ofc get good grades even tho i’m literally failing all my classes bc I don’t do **** but that don’t matter cause it’s optional (I think).Just have FUN and don’t get into your own head to much bc as of rn , you have a tendency of doing that 😐. don’t hold back ON ****. if you feel like getting high as hell one day , do it , I DARE YOU. Just **** around and loosen up cause you need to enjoy life and relax and not worry so much about other people’s opinions bc honestly that **** don’t mean NOTHING. plus most of if not all of the ******* saying stuff are ugly asf and don’t know how to wash there nasty *** cooch💀. so don’t stress to much , and just live life with not mf regrets ***** 🥳. anyways that’s it I think , oh yeah btw that guy Dylan from florida , yeah he’s a cutie and idk if you still text him (doubt it) but you should check up on him , see how he’s doing if you don’t already. okay anywaysss that should be it , so take my advice cause I may only be 14 but it’s good advice no matter what and you know it. okay okay sorry now this is the end, i love you ******** 🥳 .