A letter from May 13th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Today is Wednesday, May 13th. I have been doing e-learning school for 7 weeks now. A lot of my life has changed. I no longer go to school, I don’t get to see my friends, and I can’t go out and experience teenager things. I still have my job, which is awesome. Going to work to see Carter and Jessica and Dylan really creates a break in my day and I truly forget that bad things are going on. Work is completely shut down, no visitors unless a family member is dying, we have to wear masks at all times, and we have to get our temperatures taken every time we enter or leave the building. School right now is very different. It’s hard to find motivation in everyday tasks like a simple worksheet. A lot of the time I put off my work until the last minute and then do it all in one day. That’s what I’m doing right now. I really miss being in school. I’m a senior in highschool and I wasn’t even able to finish my last year. Some of my favorite teachers I may never see again, and I didn’t even get to say goodbye. I didn’t get a senior prom which is ironic because Mrs. Heyer begged me to make my dress, and I did. I feel like even after this pandemic is over, it will still be hard to go into the general public and not be anxious. This pandemic has really shown me how dirty some people truly are. You never really think about people washing their hands until it can really affect your life. A lot of this extra time I’ve been spending, working, sleeping, at Uncle Jeff’s, sewing, and watching RuPaul’s Drag Race. I’ve watched 5 seasons in less than 2 months. I’ve also been sewing and being creative a lot too. I’ve tie dyed, bleach tie dyed, ripped some jeans, made shirts, and a whole bunch of other things. I’ve been trying to get exercise by running, but it hasn’t been going too well. I really suck at it, and it’s hard to find motivation to actually do it. I feel like after school is over, I’ll run more because I won’t have anything to do except go to work and lay in bed. I’m so excited to go to college. I can’t wait to get out of the house and live a little. I’m excited to join a sorority and party and do all of the fun things of college, I’m scared for the work load though. I feel like the first years won’t be too bad because it’s a lot of intro classes, but I’ve never really struggled in school before so it’s going to be interesting to see how I can handle it. As of now, I want to go into chemical engineering, but who knows if I’ll stay with that or switch. All I know is that I’m gonna be a boss *** ***** at whatever I do. I hope life has treated me amazingly, and I have no regrets.