A letter from May 13th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I am in a Pandemic. And my mood is somewhat elevatedly low. I don't know what to write about but I want to start something. I am in a constant phase of running away with emotions. Or maybe I am just really hard on myself. I'm thinking about you! How are you? Are we the same? Do you still wear that 35 peso bra from divisoria? Did you go to the dentist already? Are you living in freedom? Are you looking at the sky right now? Have things changed? Are you a much better person now? Did the scenarios of living comfortably has come to life? Are you more aware of the people around you like right now? Are you still easily bothered? Have I have had helped you in being the best version of yourself? Did you already have that Colt 1970? Do you have a boyfriend? HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA are you sleeping in silent? Have you travelled to 15 countries already? Did you name your dog Harry, Ron or Hermione? Or Hotdog? Oh come on is it Sirius? Are you still bothered? Are you visiting a therapist? Have you been freed from your anxieties? Do you own properties now? Are you more inclined to God now? I wish you're a lot better than me now. Like A LOT. Cmon cry baby. Stop laughing and crying at the same time. Are you a vlogger now? A businesswoman? ARE YOU CHANGING THE WORLD NOW? You've been through a lot. And you got out of it in all times. If you're still the same as me now, stop chasing and start living for tomorrow. Sometimes I look back at 5 years and thought to myself, that I did and think a lot. I was full of worries. I'm afraid. I lack faith. But I pray. I still believe in HIM. But it's not enough. You can literally feel how disshelved I am right now. How I look out of nowhere and sigh. How my eyes grew tired of thinking. Of why the girls my age are this or that. I talked to people in feelings of what I am opposite. I help but can help myself. And I hope you're not that anymore. How's your relationship with mama? papa? Kuya twinnie nino and axus? Are you still the bag guy? HAHAHAH kidding. Don't be afraid to lose money. Work your creative mind. Chill out. Spend all you want but don't forget to Praise the Lord God. Don't forget him, NEVER FORGET HIM. STAY CLOSE TO HIM THAN ANYONE ELSE. Think about all those times he have provided you with comfort and ease. You'll get through this. You have sacrifice and given enough to others it's time to love yourself too. Seek him more than ever. Sana successful kana at marami ka ng natulungan. Ang galing mo Kaya. Pero regalo niya Yan sayo. So pahalagahan mo. Andrei, I'm gonna work hard and pray harder para di ka umiyak dahil until now ganyan ka padin. I want a different story now. Till next time.