A letter from May 12th, 2020

Dear, Me right now at 4:05 we are 24 years old still at home looking at the same walls we hate so much. But we are blessed to have them ❤️ Ny just had her 10 birthday and Mom is still stuck on bed. It's honestly hard having all this information and not being able to open my mouth. I'm trying to get stronger but it constantly feels like I'm not doing enough. Trying to gain the power to protect. Thanks to covid-19 we are kind of limited to what we can do but theirs always internet 😒 Q: are we still hesitant about buying stuff on the internet? But how is everything honestly mentally? Q: when do we start seeing things from the other perspective. Honestly I would love to be a dad but I couldn't deal with child support. That ***** scary asf to me.Q: bro are we Bald? 🤣 I swear to God bro. I know this is all over the place but but you'll make sense of it. Q:So how's my right hand doin is she ok? I would know if I'd be ready for that but we'll see Remember to love the and be in the moment every second of every minute. Q:did the vision on the bench happen yet? 🍄Career wise what's going on please tell me we are financially stable. My prediction in 5 years I'm in a decent apartment in a car that hopefully won't **** me. Are we in a relationship 😶. I'm sorry I'm asking slot of questions 🤣🤣🤣 but there so many things I have to get off my chest. I KNOW YOU LOVE TO HELP OTHERS BUT YOU NEED TO LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF TOO♥️. Let the steps I took lead others. Aagin I'm making this really long I'm so ******* high 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 in 2020 has been the worse year of our lifetime bro Justin past any and we still haven't went to the funeral . The moment I met him God told me to watch him. In the short time I met him he taught me so much. R.i.P🙏 And bro that "situation" is not your fault remember you have people to help you.but you have to gain the power to defend yourself bro **** ain't cool it's You have to be prepared to goin to this world and I just want us to be ready but life's unpredictable in 5 years I really could be anywhere just remembered if he placed us here it's for a reason. Let God bless my feet and everyone connected to my heart❤️. And has she finally gotten out of been for the past couple years nikias been in a mood but who could blame her. But I would love for her to get up and do stuff more instead of automatically going to her room like she's uninvited and for her to get off her phone for 5 seconds I honestly lover her and everything she does the time love and care I just want her to have fun too I would love her to have a mom and son talk and make her not so anxious. Honestly I hope my attached has improved I swear like a ******* sailor And smoke like a chimney. 😑😑😑 Ok this is getting really long😩 but please remember to love your self and take new chances when the time is right remember that family and friends are a phone call away you can always alwake away from any situation with help that time is precious live in the moment and to be somebodies blessing 🙏🏾 Love you the moon and back, Tray'Von Denzel James -2020 5:02 am