A letter from May 12th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hello it is 20 year old you. Currently stuck in quarantine. Also stuck in my own head. Im constantly scared. I have no direction. I am spiraling mentally. Going towards rock bottom. I hope it gets better, I hope you have gotten to live your life. I hope you've become unstuck but it sucks here. And there's so many things wrong with me. I hope lily is still around. she is the only constant thing in my life :( i love her so dearly. I cannot even imagine what life will be like in 5 years. It's been about 5 years since the teenage angst really started to hit me, i am hoping i will begin an incline. I hope there's a good future to look ahead to. I cannot handle this life anymore I feel like my soul is rotting away I love you, I hope you have someone to hear that from everyday and if not, then I gotchu 4 this day