A letter from May 9th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, how is your life? Right now I’m doing okay. We’re currently in a world wide pandemic, who would face thought? I have really enjoyed my time away from work and getting to discover more of myself. I hope you know who you are by now. Are we in a relationship? If so, do they make you feel safe? do you miss them when you have to leave? do they indulge in your crack head tendencies (you need someone who does) are you in love? I want you to make sure you are in love with them right now and not just the idea of a future them. Maybe you’re not in love. Maybe you haven’t found the person yet. I know right now @ 10:29 pm, that I know what type of person I want for myself. I want someone caring and kind and compassionate and funny and someone that’s good with kids and someone who shares my love of music and who loves who I am and someone who makes me what to be a better person and someone that makes me feel like I’m worth something. That being said, don’t put all of your life into another person. Be your own. Be okay with being alone and love your **** self, there is no reason not to. Do me a favor and listen to fine line by Harry Styles, it’s my current fav bop so hopefully it takes you back. Just a reminder in case I loose the list, our first daughter:Aslynn Grace, our first boy: Ayden. Hopefully you still like those, if not no hard feelings. What career are you in? Because right now I am so so lost that I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. Where are you living? Dallas? North Carolina? Alabama? Those are places I want to live now. Remember that me right now at almost 20 years old is so so excited to see what my future looks like... I hope 24 year old me is just as excited. I love you, I want you to unapologetically love yourself and whoever you want to. I want you to be as happy as possible and to not worry too much. Everything happens for a reason.