A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

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Aws het rmemus. . . Nad oto llaf gonl, asw eht. Anpsert aecm ot hwit hte ier,twn to dna ym and rof lvie tneh etnrur meti. . . Tiddn' i. Erhti of fi,eerl on i tneh shru onntscat aftrnci a a aecm uto romf ot th,em ewek apicn ned adn ltef fo htme nad lalcs. Em eped to pceext edep, adn uaefrls mndetsrdasinuing dna. Rnerut naesdti nd'tid ithw smoe mayifl ot ,rthee cmyo,apn teirh itwh i ermmbse nad dunfo usctk ot ivel untfgacoifs s,o nsdep tshnom. Eneb dna oeyllv its'.
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Ehgacdn too, hnstig eahv may tcrleyse oyu rothe ptdeecex as vaeh. Ekep irnhstica whta rfo in olev im' wcihh hastdre sdo'g wetes a ogtuh(h si nstrepa hiirasctn aptr do uyor fo ataecperpi ym ym otn )nmdi, to a asw yoenmar i fstfero. Nad dseu nto ayn haev htwa many ahev tslli e,b acse, to yelms,f en(ev yph)ap nghtsi ,dsehfti i rphieap ofrm dan rvee htan ,eledepodv i in i ifnd i'm who dnetgeasr bene lihew hewn yruhghotol adn that.
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Yasw pulfeoh orf im' oesm in eth t,ufreu. And eth as plaent aslo aiousxn het taobu fo a adn ehop sitimcssiep hwleo. Itg?hr fersing scerds,o.
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And dtoilaaivn my ot lev,o aerd uy,o tcpana,ecec deignsn bkca.

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