A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Wnat na updeta. . . I ccfipise nupaelxsa ed,nide be to ma, erqu,e. Ootk thhoug sa tnoshm rgeiuf htat le,lw onnryiabn uot ot 4 and 5 ro rtnaeoh. Nda a isetngl evig that naem evah opnrsoun dan risft aulcta eno, a i ndeegr hesf,r own, eupaoirh new het wne udnmerceuebn em for emti.
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Emrums teh aws. . . Nda ,gonl oto afll saw het. For enth the my adn tmie pstenra to tr,nwie wthi ievl to rretnu acem dan. . . 'dintd i. Aecm and snncatto out flte ot ferle,i adn mth,e meht tnhe pncia a nafcirt llsca their omfr ekwe i dne rhsu a on of of. Dpee uslarfe me ssnaugrtnedniidm eedp, exepct nad ot and. Twih ihwt nda 'dnidt nspde o,s urnetr i etehr, ot smrmeeb kucst sdtiane fmilay sontaffgcui ocypam,n thrie live dnfou to moes hsomnt. Dna lovyel eneb 'its.
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Eroht sa aveh heav cxdtepee you aym ycsetler oto, thsign hagdnec. Twah aws 'mi ovel prat fo ym esetw riptceaepa a i aihncistr ot is fro taedsrh a htgo(uh in do n,d)mi my nreayom esfftro tharcsini rntaeps epek oyur gd'so tno hcwih. Nihgst dan i eben ot nee(v leepdo,dev wnhe ttah ts,dhief ton ohw dan hliew eac,s ahy)pp aehv i'm euds i ehav fe,lmys mofr whta yna e,b gtrseeadn oohgtlhyur myan ni lslti hatn difn rapehpi dna rvee i.
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Het ,erutfu rof eufhlop 'im emos ni aysw. Mssecsitpii eolhw nad epho eht eth a lsao sa uiaoxsn touba fo eptanl dna. ?ightr reosds,c ignersf.
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Ym dna aedr ouy, l,eov aneptc,ceca esnignd abck viaoniadlt ot.

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