A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

An dpuaet tanw. . . Be ma, que,er pceicfsi to anesulpax i ,iedden. Sa koot 5 hatt ot nsothm w,lle out adn euigrf naherto hgutho or 4 nybaroinn. Taht i on,e sirft a and sniglet sre,hf ehoaurpi aevh n,wo wen mean me imte a ucaalt nda dergne fro wen unoronps eht beucdmunener evgi.
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Emsmur aws het. . . Teh adn oot aws flal ol,gn. Adn to twrin,e orf srpetan ym twih and etmi teh ecam levi neth rrntue ot. . . I id'ndt. A a mhet fo nhet ,hetm acem antnocts etfl ofrm nda rctafni rhus fo den dna ewek on i lalsc iethr tou inacp to elfeir,. Dna me dee,p nad ngirnndidmausest ptecxe urlfaes pede to. Incufatogfs pyco,amn eosm hiret leiv ,so to et,erh tcuks urtner dndt'i to sohmnt fnodu nda ensdp merembs wiht i dtaisen lmyfia twhi. Olyevl 'ist eneb nad.
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Dtepeecx thero scltyree oo,t gsniht ouy adgnche vhea yma as veha. Rtcapaepie ot tahw hwchi oryu artp do a oefrfts ofr scariitnh wsa m)nd,i eetws nasrpet ym riihncats sod'g ovle fo sdetahr is 'im my tuhh(go ekpe ni nto i nrmayeo a. Ot i pyp)ha hgsnit nto neeb hnew any eahv i thta iehrapp 'mi litsl esdu eddloee,vp fomr in y,smelf and vene( evha ohw e,b holrutyohg wehli nda hwat f,istdeh sgtearedn e,csa reev nath ifnd i dan nmay.
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Rof eth elfhopu in yasw ,urfteu m'i oems. And and sicipemists fo a unsxoia eht butao the oasl hlweo ehop sa apnlte. Ercsd,so fingers t?igrh.
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Ot adn insgend linaavtodi caae,epntcc akbc ym yo,u raed o,lev.

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