A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Etdaup na nwta. . . I dnee,id m,a to cepficis lxuaeaspn eb ueqr,e. As nad erifug nohmts 5 eatnhro uot okot 4 hghtou le,lw to ro rynoannib that. Tisfr ahev ,own a i dergne em iegv a apheouir new eo,n uaactl and nlietsg mean and teh orf etmi taht esfrh, wne eendrucuenmb norpsnou.
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Msumre het saw. . . Alfl g,nlo oto the asw dan. Hent came t,newir etnpars ot hte ihtw ym itme to rfo dna nruert dna veli. . . Tdi'dn i. Acem cnnttsao end tfel teirh fo a uhsr tmeh ot nda i uot a on hnte tafncri ,tehm cipan lacls dna ofrm week fo ielfr,e. Ausrlef expetc epde em dpee, nda uimsdtagneirnnds nad ot. S,o nsdep emso h,rete i iwht nad ufond tonshm htwi y,pmnoac to yaiflm tisedna ot ruetnr tgacunosffi vlei emrebsm 'tiddn tkcus teirh. Vlloye i'ts nda bene.
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Vhea treoh seyretcl yuo deteepxc may as nthsgi edchnag ot,o heav. Th(ghou od im),nd ewste nyeaomr i kpee eretpaacpi i'm arpt ni rfo ahcrinist of oury nto 'odgs hsterad hhwci my hrntiaisc a eapntsr si my a oerffst swa what veol to. To been neev( tno twha whlie in ntah newh ahev nad i sllit anym who nya dsue nda form a)phyp i dan ahpriep dinf vaeh regsetand ces,a higsnt atht i'm lep,edvdoe evre rguooyhhtl ,ihsfted ,eb i fylse,m.
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Omes sywa hte ueplfho for m'i ni fe,rtuu. As lwohe eht dna uoxsnai fo tsmpsisceii the a tplaen nda epoh oals utboa. Ght?ir cosrs,ed isrgenf.
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Caceenct,pa dan to levo, kbca ivtalnoida my dear desgnni ,uyo.

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