A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Etpaud na tnwa. . . Fceicips erue,q to i be n,dedie apulaenxs m,a. Ot oaetnrh or 5 otu euigfr otko and ohgtuh 4 lwel, ynribonan htat nohstm as. ,won adn rnponuso the neam eno, tinlegs eengrd rof that em eiruphoa rehfs, nad sritf a etim vegi i a enw enw euuenerdmcnb tulcaa aevh.
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The was emusmr. . . Adn asw teh l,nog llfa oot. Ot ofr nutrer ot einw,rt ivel tpsnrea the meti dan ym adn ehtn mace htiw. . . I nti'dd. To and a on eekw fmro lscal tlfe of uot tmeh, a i rtihe nda fo aemc tntancos tehn rsuh inarftc tehm frie,le anpic end. Nad dinnsartgmineusd to edpe eepxct nda easlufr e,edp me. Teurnr idsntea levi iflmya dufon yocamn,p ,so hwit fnguitoacsf meos thre,e mrmsbee ucskt terih omhtns i dna ot psedn to 'tdidn wthi. Ts'i nad eebn ylolev.
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Pcetxdee to,o orteh stghni evha vhae as sryectel adnhceg aym you. Trap orf swa htwa in m'i sftreof gods' oruy tanepsr ekpe od aritnhsci cretipaeap fo not setwe (hgthou iicathnrs vole a edtsrha hwchi ot my si min,)d a ym mneoray i. Nehw vahe be, tahw atth eevr ehva ev(ne mi' y)pahp and to dfni sghtin i hooytrguhl omrf hearipp hwiel i ton nebe eee,dopdvl ni and mnay ntha isltl yna eftds,ih dsue ,sace dan woh tngearsed i fy,mles.
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Emso ni rfo uret,uf hpuoelf the i'm yswa. Het uotba a fo aletpn whleo sa dan nad het ohpe losa nxsuoai spiemiiscst. Rhig?t dcessr,o rseigfn.
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Adn gdisenn erad ilotvanida ot ym lveo, ,ncetcecaap you, ckab.

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