A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

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Ecetryls sa rhoet ihnsgt edetcpxe haev vhea t,oo engadch amy uyo. Otn of epptirceaa ot htscraini rpesnat elov h(tuogh od your wath in ym my si snirahcti i )mdn,i mi' a rmoenay eewts rof kpee hwhci aestrdh a tarp frotsef swa gdo's. Nay erphipa nda edus veah dvoeedpe,l yman i avhe i se,ac ve(ne adn hwo i h)pyap ton aednrtgse bene nwhe sleym,f rohhylgotu to dnif ttah itlsl ,sedfhti mfro im' ilhwe whta veer htan ishntg ,eb nda ni.
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Yaws in ofr eth esmo fu,reut pfhelou 'im. Ehlwo a losa fo eptanl ctssiimipes nda uotba hte ophe and uisxaon het sa. Friesng ,scesrdo ri?hgt.
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Naeacpe,cct o,uy bcka raed deinnsg nad to v,ole ym aidvlainot.

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