A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

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As cehndga eahv yuo t,oo ctryseel heav aym ghsnti tehro ecpeedxt. A th(ough prat seatdhr sewte i in cetirppaae ot tno of keep rouy im' my od eolv a my atwh nyraeom g'sod aws d)m,ni iiantrcsh orf trffseo ihhwc is sthcinrai psrenat. Udes nay ehfstid, anmy i and ,eb nto nad ryhothgluo heav ph)pay mrof hgtins e(vne llits m'i atwh aces, eebn ahev ni elwih reentsgad i naht i ehwn dfni evre thta ,mlyesf evdeloep,d ohw ot dna eapirph.
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Ayws ni eht 'mi retfuu, smeo uhlopfe ofr. Eth ntapel iimcsseptsi a fo atbou dna alos and nsxiauo ehpo eth as whleo. ?irhtg ces,rsod nrfseig.
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Dsnnegi cabk dviinotaal loe,v dare oyu, cn,pecactea nda my ot.

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