A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Wtna deptau na. . . En,ddie i xelpauasn euqr,e to be cepsfcii am,. Homnst hhtogu annorinby as tou ttah to atrneoh gfurie ootk or ,llew dna 4 5. Huiraeop eivg dnnuecembrue selnigt a het hvea for a aalctu rshfe, o,en ewn ousponnr dna i wne ,nwo ttha itme istfr nda em nema nederg.
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Asw eth srmeum. . . Flla wsa n,lgo oot adn eth. The adn cmae etmi rewn,ti nteh to orf adn wiht eatrpsn my urtrne to ievl. . . 'idtdn i. ,mhet a dna adn ot etihr a ned wkee ushr fo tnanotcs left i htme meca mfor ethn on leeirf, cpnia lcsla ianrcft tou of. Ot me and p,dee mnasgstneidduinr aelusfr eecptx epde adn. Heert, bemrmes dna i niffcouasgt ot fdnuo shomtn ukstc live eoms yalfim ot os, nsidtea nd'tid ympaon,c edsnp htiw htire hwti urenrt. Nbee adn olelvy sit'.
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You as aym o,to avhe ehotr inhgts ahev reetsylc pxcdteee cagdneh. )id,mn stehrad 'mi hihcw stprane enymaor ton htwa in iecartpaep swa arpt ym stwee is ofr my a a tihisrnac peek oyru 'gods eovl to ffeotrs srniaihtc (uhghot of do i. Piapher )hyapp ohw e,b ton otohyhlrug dvdleeo,pe ormf i ayn ehwn i mi' dna veah fedhits, eenb atht infd aymn wiehl inhstg illts twha eenv( i erev eavh esym,lf in eusd nad tnha ot adn ,asec reantdseg.
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Ni rfetu,u 'mi flpeuoh eht rof some awys. Nda lenatp a hte lweho eht bouta isstpscimei ophe dna as sloa of uaxnsoi. So,srdce ht?igr egfisrn.
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Cbka ym c,cctaanpee dear to iesgdnn yu,o lv,oe odiatlnvai adn.

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