A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

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Ehva oyu troeh mya sa teceexpd o,to aechgnd vhea hntisg selyretc. A i veol fro rnapets eforstf twese ni ouyr pkee dn)i,m od sraiincth thaw 'osgd crpaiapeet of ahcstinir im' si a hihwc my ashdert htou(gh ton to ym eynaorm atrp wsa. Nad nya wehn eebn thwa e,b to iht,esfd ndif i sued tahn fmor dan ton reev e(nev ac,es ehva )yapph htuolygohr tlsil dan fmeyls, 'mi nmya i eve,odedlp hlwie asedgrnet ni ehav thsing rppiaeh hwo i ttah.
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Houlpef eurt,uf fro ni ayws m'i osem eht. A of dna oiunsax eth ohpe olas sa seiitspismc hte ubaot npatel dna elwoh. Essdo,cr g?ihtr nsgierf.
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Aaoltinivd oy,u adn ,vole cbka my nngdsie ateecapcnc, to adre.

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