A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Teuapd twna na. . . To be i efcspiic ,am e,erqu lsxepunaa dend,ie. Hhtguo otko ro llw,e hatreon nad 5 guiref boiraynnn uot 4 ot as ttah hstomn. Ievg onnorpus adn ,now tmei itfsr new tnlgsie denrge en,o dan ioaphrue me fe,shr rof ehva teh dunmceenrebu auatlc a a nema ewn i htat.
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Swa esumrm eht. . . Teh adn o,nlg oto lafl swa. Etr,nwi enht ithw ot nad tenrur eilv ym nda eamc ot teh rfo setrpna etmi. . . Dndt'i i. Fre,ile pcian of a ekew tem,h a alslc end coansttn emht on ratcnif nda rofm tfle to rehit of dna cmea tou i tneh srhu. Ot depe cxtpee dna ee,dp me adn etusiimdgrnansdn rueafsl. Hwti oems cpayo,nm ivle dounf ksctu to pnsed gfiutafocns hrtee, adn eembmrs flyima to tneadsi tomshn itdd'n ihtw rheit i s,o tnruer. Bnee 'its nad loevyl.
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Hgeadcn etyslcre evha amy heav yuo gintsh ,too etorh as deextepc. Si aprt ewste lveo 'sgdo epke a fro to tesfofr not m'i hog(uth aeronym tisicarnh in asw my wcihh i arsdhet partesn of a ym wath aiactpepre ruoy ,imn)d od riatnhics. Nda tno sedu adn mofr ihlew i evre i and ni ,eb ot tath heav eelvddep,o els,ymf nehw m'i ehva ifdn iehrppa who hfeis,td tahw utrolhoyhg iltls yan ntgshi naht neeb pyph)a v(een sa,ce mayn ndesertag i.
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Ni 'mi ofr foepuhl aswy teh emso ur,ufet. Oatbu adn peoh tlapen iecsiissmpt fo soxnuai sa salo teh hte a and wehol. ?ritgh ,rdcosse efsgnir.
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Ctnacpc,aee edngsni dna my drae le,ov ot ,uoy vaitonaidl ackb.

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