A letter from May 5th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I wonder if you are currently studying abroad, are you currently studying for your colloquium in English language. If so, I am so proud of you and for God's sake, thank you for the effort you put in your work in order to make the dream of studying in international environment come true. Thank you for handling all the pain that, I suppose, you must have been through and probably, you still have to deal with. It's all worthy. Another thing, which writing about makes me feel ****** up and will also make you feel this way about it is your love life. I hope you didn't fall in love in Poland. I am really sorry to say that but please don't let him stop you from becoming a smart kid🤓 I know this may sound really unmature and i have no doubt that for some reasons it is unmature because of my opinion on men due to the trauma i have 'recently' gained and my struggle to look at any man not thinking he is a total jerk. But please, don't fall for ANYBODY too quickly. Also, dump that man that you are going out with just so you can feel more comfortable in a foreign country but don't even like him this much. Basically, don't fall in love in Poland. You can go out with whoever you want to but only if you are already abroad and you are already stable with the stuff related to your education. Do what you want but don't max out. Remember what Tiktok taught you, 7B's rule, Books Before Boys Because Boys Bring Babies. End of the paragraph that might be as well a note from mom. I hope you call to mom, dad, Ania, grandmas and maybe some friends as often as you can. Make sure you do it, that you care. I hope you're doing great learning, making friends, experiencing, travelling etc. I hope you are working on yourself. But don't stop because you think you've experienced a lot. Keep on doing somethimg new, leave your comfort zone. Don't know what feels more like leaving your comfort zone than living and studying abroad when you're 20 years old but ok😅 take that as a challange and do something even more crazy. Push up to the limits. And don't waste such a chance that you got. Keep on making progress every single time you achieve something. Sky is NOT the limit. Be brave enough to take advantage of living in every chapter of it. You can do it, take baby steps and reach for it. Don't stop and don't get bored. As you can see, there's no other option than you are studying abroad. Not gonna lie, if you're not, I am deeply disaplointed. Because I think there are very less scenarios that would kept me in Poland. If something really dramatic happened that kept you here in Poland (which I don't believe if it did anyway), I understand. But promise yourself you will leave and study abroad. That it will happen sooner or later. I believe there's no other option and i hope to leave as soon as it's possible. Dear FutureMe, Don't forget about songs like Black Hole Sun, every song from Michael Jackson, All for love, that song from the movie San Andreas, and there's many more. Don't forget about movies like How to lose a guy in 10 days (becuase the man is so handsome), The notebook, Na noże, The ugly truth, all the movies with Daniel Craig, Timothee Chalamet (probably spelled it wrong lol), Tom Cruise and there's many more. I could write you a whole 2 pages of super duper cool movies and songs that i have listened to/watched lately. And that's all becuase of the quarantine due to the coronavirus. All I do is lazy ****, I have been not going to Scholl for like 2 months now but I am obviously happy becuase of that. Dear FutureMe, Have fun. Learn. (better from others' mistakes) Wear that skirt for tomorrow's day. That *** tho Sending love, I mean love yourself I hope you are doing great. Sorry for my grammar or some phrases if anything made your eyes bleed. Sorry for misunderstandings, I didn't feel like reading this email all over again because it took me a lot of time. Also, I presumably forgot to tell you something. For sure. Anyways, greets from PastMe May 5, 2020