A letter from May 3rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe You’re currently 17 years old and writing a letter while being in quarantine. Life's been a roller coaster filled with emotions. I lost my father a year ago, which doesn’t feel real since i never met him. Weirdly when u think about it, it really messes you up but then you forget for a while. You fell for someone that wasn't worth your tears, even though it took you a while to realize but at least you did. It took a teacher crying to help you realize that but I'm so thankful for her. You lost people but its okay cause honestly I'm use to it. You kissed 4 different girls which is funny since I'm straight. You shaved you’re head, cause you had that feeling that you really felt like it was the right choice and you still believe it was. My sister told me i looked ugly and my mom was embarrassed of me being bald and going out. A friend of mine told me not to do it cause id look ugly but I didn't care cause it was my choice and i was happy. People tried coming back to your life but you kept them out which idk if thats a good or bad thing. You haven’t had a mental breakdown in forever which is so good. Max is still alive surprisingly, almost 4 years with that turtle. I gave myself a stick and poke tattoo which was interesting. Im still in love with Grayson Dolan and will always be sorry future hubby. Asucena is still my best friend and basically my sister. I cant imagine ever losing her, i lose her id lose myself. Idaly is another best friend, i miss hanging out with her. I’m trying to focus on me I’m not trying to date anybody. Another reason why I shave my head was because of coronavirus we’re all stuck inside Quarantine so it was a perfect timing. This year I am finally beginning to turn 18 hopefully. I still don’t know how to drive but one day I will. Hopefully in five years I learned To love myself. I want to go to the army or become a firefighter. Also kind of want to become a tattoo artist.