A letter from April 23rd, 2020

Dear future self, the date as of today is April 22, 2020. I’m currently laying down on my living room floor, trying to continue my letter but I keep getting distracted. Today you have been rather moody I can say. Maybe with our COVID-19 situation, and being lockdown for almost two months now you could possibly remember why. I wonder what you’ll feel as you read this, I mean I surely hope by the time I do everything is calm and we don’t turn to exact chaos. There are half of our people panicking with false rumors going on and a portion where people don’t care at this point and are roaming free. It’s not exactly crazy as of now ill say but only you know what’s about to come our way. I couldn’t help but have countless thoughts throughout this issue. Would we get worse? Is a zombie Apocolypse type of thing about to happen? How will people act after this whole situation is over like thoughts? Or future problematic thoughts as well. For example will my career or grades be affected? Could I have missed a chance to do something that could benefit me later on? How will we take our final exams? So many thoughts and questions, you shouldn’t be surprised how many headaches we have acquired. But in other words, I genuinely hope you’re doing well, maybe we mastered the bass or a different instrument. Did we succeed in learning dances we wanted to dance with friends? Did you have your 15 birthday? Did we achieve our goal of getting into gate classes again? Did we get a scholarship? So many things I can’t wait to come crashing in my life. I hope you chose a career you really enjoy, I hope you remember that we’re striving for ourselves, not to impress other people. The future to me indeed is scary, will I become something that will be written on history. Or will I regret all the decisions I’ve made? As of now it all feels a bit impossible, but throughout our life we’ve been told nothing ever is. Will we still be alive, and confident and proud to be who we are. I know were intelligent, I know we won’t commit any stupid mistakes. We will lose many connections in our life, even if it’s in our little world of reality. Growing up is a part of life. Maybe we can still have the joy of a kid, but I hope we’ve grown to accept that things change and I can’t hold onto our past. You can only become who you wish if you keep striving forward. Know your dearly loved, and the toughest times will only prepare you for bigger situations crashing onto you. Adore both your parents, no matter what they have done. They still made you half of what you are today. Close friends like Karina and Jasmin will always be a part of us. I dearly hope we still know each other by this time. Stay safe! Don’t let your feelings overcome you. You’re stronger than you believe I promise you that. Take care of your family, friends, even Luna. Think outside the box. Become great. You will be something great.