A letter from April 9th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, it’s Inhle, and I just finished watching a Damon Dominique video during quarantine. yes the quarantine of 2020 where many people died and a lot of the things you wanted to do couldn’t happen. Remember how excited you/I/we were for exchange to America. ya right now i’m feeling sad cause all that I had planned for america isn’t coming true. have you tried panda express yet??? is it as good as you expected? is brandy melville still a thing people care about 😂? eww i know that emoji probably makes you cringe 😳 cause it makes me. also how do you type now, i have a specific way of typing which i think you might remember 😣. i’ll stop with the emojis now, just wanted to give you a reminder of that : ). Did you get that tiktok fame you wanted, if not did that tiktok boy atleast notice you atleast once. if you don’t remember him check his account out @j4kst3r, hope it gives you some memories. <—— imagine the things i’m imagining in my brain right now, yikes too much wattpad. what’s your favourite song rn, listen to session32 by summer walker and any khalid song every if you wanna hear mine rn( and by right now I mean while you/I was writing this aka 2020 us). is youtube still a thing, i hope not lol. omg are you a twitch streamer hopefully not that’s so cringey ewwww. i hope your in uni right now doing 3rd year at UCT studying hard to be a microtechnical engineer. bye and I love you also i hope you’re finally happy with yourself, well as much as you can cause right now my depression is working and i hear to ‘voices’ in my head, the one that tells me to be happy and the one that tells m life’s not living and that i’m not worthy of love, happiness and all that i have. I cry so much and i don’t know why the tears just fall out whyy whyyy whyyy does my brain work like this, hope therapy is going well and i hope you’re still around in 2025, not matter what your stupid brain tells you - a 16 year old you