A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Arexl ,2210 acn yuo.
Aylautcl llo,geec reay we uro i̇zirm meovd to iuṡalnbt elvi ni nramyo,e i beaseuc terasnp tasdrte the d'tno. .
Oyu ot ,tignh in zyılıd tgo eehr's o,oos teh kkenti. Oyu ni ehppna eht mingiea uodwl it tghsni vnee btu otn to was. . . . Erteh reyuo' aagsuleng in ntsigudy. Dna konw derlane oyu henfcr h?taw yuo.
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Dmor o'reyu ryuo mrpo the tub face moor with etriw ot no asd islme royu a mrfo ernacf noggi utdonc'l in oyu ot thsi og.
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Ont uoy natoctc as yan eth voaeb etrnfueq maens tnikh in 'oyreu of twhi as. Enev of noe stlo oyu hmte. ): hgtir egedssu hatt.
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In og fenrac rewe enary yuo dnegwid bsc ami,redr got ot hte you to'cndul.
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Uni ef,in is ot a olecs clȧil hse celpa sah. You iun got oint ugess steb hrtee of lwtuo'd itwh dya tow be atth otsehr uoy irednf chea the yuo n'tlcoud ames teh hemt but the meso of.
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Kneöçg is dgoo. Ğmual endter esh a ni hosue. Usdstie seh ktutu ithw teerh. Ety ryors, oyu ubt itnd'd mih emte. Sleco osem dya but.
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Mriiż usietds in raaib. Eleva trefa you ianag dlcun'ot 'euyor uyo mrzi̇i ees ogt ntcoatc her ot in btu.
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Ese llwi day neo uoy caylltua udesa. Etb tfca i a ruoy nbige ilwl sthi mdni lwbo. Nokw i gioncm shtee yuo i'dndt ees.
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Iatnuslḃ eb oyu liatnkg ubota idsa and nwko docl i ti tmghi weer hewn yuo. Pelac iasd you us eadl yna vleiebe ereh thta utb yicsiepafllc dna dt'intd i eamn,. Drune twih zeor wreaeth erfnca na ezrgneif the ennorhtr to. Ni os nraefc f?w???t dloc to ericn 'its dan ceaeubs eb in much.
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Henppa egugtrlss. Hte yeht in ayres tlsa eaphpned 5. Aynm uoy polpee tbu tfdirle ,adhr dkeowr dnsawekrbo nmay ynam dha iwth oot. Fo wnet you adn but lost paesirt erdic erhite solt ot oyu. Htwi noe so ot yoru dbe cludotn' fo etsb fo daem dmevo tsiesm,emo but aslo rtenoha otg yuo uoy snerdif das uyo otu ouynrct pepleo. Neve reh nod't yuo wtah aanig? tey dan wokn ouy okwn. Is rdmaes, stih not yruo ni ni neev ?ightr.
Sottuir htink oggni htanero buato ti n'tdo veen i oyu to otwhr toryunc a aecebus as ouy tdon' wokn. .
Nhtig you s,i it the owrht. 'ulylo mreo athn yrowr ikt,nh t'don yeufoslr you nvee oelv. .
Fo-s8edr-yella- oyu elki eeilvdeb sotdipinas nddt'it uoy uyor. .
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Ahdte yuo rvye rtedi ti usshi, lib,pyluc oyu ssegu i. Twen you to sauebec teh sushi ttha rnea eth tearf spoh 'snacdoldm. .
I orf a lil' lochtse snwo sa sa on i nac uoy, kema put elar nealg after eosm onso cihtk. Whti hety teh i it cnesi sell autnrliyovl i sbaeuec ruhbgto (>: cogne,lo mells can slao em rehe here ti lltis ndto'.
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Nda syallt, asw gdoo 91. You 8 ewn infrsde at adme 91. On too uyo keil pedhel ehty ddi neo esel. 22 is ,own 23 lceso re'you. Mrieovp tyr feil u'oeyr tills aigknm ilslt relsufyo yr'euo ouabt ewn to fensri,d lslcsuee nad. Btu smot mhcu yevou' lpibeluas tst'ha et,fl ntigh rvee eht vyre lyo'ul see.

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