A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Nca 22,01 uyo lraxe.
Imizṙ i busceea drtaste liev ot teh astnpre we an,oyrme dvoem ulctyaal lc,olgee tubli̇san otnd' in rou arye. .
Shree' ekkitn ht,gin eth tgo ni ouy to ılzyıd s,ooo. Uoy ishgtn aphepn tub hte aws ot ni nto iginema enev it owdul. . . . Ni ureoy' sgaueganl inysugtd rethe. Renfch dna hawt? yuo edanelr oyu ownk.
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Ruyo on og ordm dsa to efac tbu nlduto'c hwti lsmie uyo omro ni mpro itrew ggoni thsi 'eyoru enarfc a uroy het ot ofmr.
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Vboae anmes as as uoy the cntocta feutqenr ihwt of nkhti oryue' ont yna ni. Oen oyu slto nvee hmte fo. Eusdsge :) trigh tath.
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Rdmeria, sbc gto you og ot ni nt'ulcod rewe wiengdd oyu eht aecnrf yearn.
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A ceosl lpeca iun hsa is she clȧli ot ifn,e. Usgse you eerth soem fdnier but ehrtos yuo otw teh fo yad gto hte of iton dtnoul'c do'tuwl oyu best iun eb caeh hemt twhi htta seam the.
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Odog çkneög is. Ni a ouehs hse rentde ğluma. Hwti usdseit rethe kuttu she. Tbu you mhi di'ndt meet orr,sy eyt. Ubt msoe coles ady.
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İmzri ariba in teiusds. Octtcna lvaee roeuy' uyo hre niaag to rmiżi otg ouy dotulnc' in but freat ese.
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Eauds liwl ese talacylu ady you eon. Liwl ndim a lbow tihs fact yuor ebt i iebgn. Iomgcn onkw uyo i ehets d'dnti ese.
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Tiknagl ̇iusalnbt ewer dcol uoy otuba mihtg nda you i dasi nweh wkno eb ti. Dan i bveeeil tath aleclspiyfci eehr sida yan ldae ,mnae uyo btu aecpl 'ttindd us. Het zrfgieen otnerhrn eawerth cnerfa nredu an hiwt eozr to. Hcum narecf ni besuaec ts'i to so ni nad f??w??t be rceni ldoc.
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Sggulsret ppaehn. Alst eth ayers eppehand ni 5 hyet. Tlrfdie yanm wdokre peleop nmay nrdkbaweso wthi oyu dha oot ha,rd naym tub. Etraisp lsto cride to fo enwt nad yuo slto you btu retihe. To nreahot eamd utocn'ld yncrout ebts btu you ovdme dsnfeir uyo uyo uryo os tog htiw aslo eno ads dbe semeotms,i ppeeol fo uto of. Eyt nvee dna ntd'o okwn wath n?aiga uoy erh ouy wokn. Is in ton in tihs a,mrsde enve yrou hi?tgr.
Rteaonh uoy otuab sbeaeuc i oigng hotwr to ouy a ntkih vnee yrntouc sa it rtiosut to'nd nkwo tno'd. .
Ti nghit i,s wrhto uyo het. 'ontd oyu oerm even velo ntah ryorw u'llyo rsyuelof i,nhtk. .
Deeielbv nopissdait ouy uyo s-r-elaeyl-od8f dnt'tid eikl your. .
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Ryve it uyo oyu reitd l,pbilyuc h,ssiu i ssgeu tdeah. Sushi spoh eth ouy etnw ot nera hatt teh arfte bcseaue lsdcd'amno. .
As sa ill' csltohe nwso upt y,ou fro mseo i nsoo a can hkcti i rlae elnga artfe no emka. Soal i gtuhbro ucabees etyh lemsl iolavuyntrl isecn lilst oencl,og it i it eerh heer cna thiw >(: em eth t'dno llse.
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Oogd 91 lltyas, and swa. Aemd 91 oyu rfdensi ta 8 wne. Klie ouy idd yteh oot noe sele peehdl on. Cseol r'yoeu 22 23 onw, is. Wen poviemr nrdesif, to ltlis leif 'oyure dna gknima eou'ry ubato slitl tyr uflsryeo ueessllc. Tsom ellpubsai eyrv lo'luy eerv ats'ht gniht youv'e see tbu hte umch l,tef.

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