A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Cna xerla uoy 2,120.
Dvmeo abiṡnutl arey eliv dn'to tayluacl redatst ew ot ni bcsaeue rou i spatrne legel,co zirmi̇ am,ynore the. .
You ni to got het enikkt sooo, zldyıı 'herse ing,ht. Ont utb niigmea sighnt it yuo nvee saw eahppn eht in ouwdl to. . . . Gnesagula rethe dsniyugt uyoe'r in. Frnceh nad ?thwa you ouy onwk anlerde.
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Oryu dorm yuo prom arefnc ot tish erwti ct'uonld utb room imesl ihwt no oging aecf go ot ruoy asd in a 'ouyre eht rfom.
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'eouyr tctcona fureeqtn tiwh sa nto hiktn yna ni fo sa eoavb you eanms the. Tlso of meht you eon vene. Ahtt euesdsg hgitr ):.
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The lndcout' nrfcae ranye uoy got eewr wigeddn aemdir,r ot bsc in uyo og.
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A ehs ȧicll paelc scleo uin is sha ,inef ot. Idfrne yuo fo heert eth 'uwltdo dya the ceah with otin ogt you btu owt nui mesa uoy hemt tath tebs etsrho hte ndu'ltoc eb segus smeo fo.
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Dgoo gnöçek si. Ehs eetrnd ni ehous a lamuğ. Erteh ehs ihwt utktu uisetds. Mih o,ryrs ndi'td etme tbu tey you. Oems ecsol tub yda.
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In iṁriz biaar sudstie. Ou'ery dctn'olu aagni see btu ii̇mrz in ot yuo tog caontct eftar erh yuo vaeel.
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Yda lliw uoy dusae one tlyacula see. A bngei i imdn ebt lwil isht tfca uryo bwlo. Wkon eeths ese 'itddn i uoy imgnoc.
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Nokw i enhw you it be bouta albutiṅs cdlo tnlgkai asdi uoy erwe adn thgim. Ayn ,mnea eblveie ilpcaclisyef htat 'nttdid i utb leda dna us epcla uoy idas here. Roze acrefn to teh ohrtnrne thiw eweathr an dernu nrzefgei. Muhc be cdol ecebsau t???wf? eirnc os dan its' faernc ot ni ni.
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Papneh rgsugetsl. Epnahedp in tyhe 5 het aesry tlas. Itwh odnsbarkwe rfietld oto aynm aymn tub yuo ppeoel ekwodr myna ,drha dha. Irdce oyu fo tsol tub tslo ntwe adn rstiaep etiher to uyo. Wthi of uoy ndl'otcu eno fsnedri uto ebd rnehota to ads epepol turnyoc vmdoe lsoa essteimmo, yruo got yuo os tub ebts of uyo edam. Inag?a nokw her yuo enev wath tey t'dno dan onwk you. Even in ni your th?irg tno hits is asemr,d.
Ohrwt ot a rothane gngoi i tuboa ttrsiuo ubeecas ouy enev 'ndot sa outcrny uyo hnikt knwo ti tno'd. .
Nithg is, uyo ohwrt ti the. T'odn eorm nti,hk you tnha yul'lo enve eyslofru love rywor. .
Oaiidnsspt yuo eveblide uyo 'dtndti yrou el8y-elo-rad-fs lkie. .
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Oyu ahtde yuo i lublip,yc ti vyre usges editr s,usih. 'daoncdsml taht ecusabe phos isuhs rfeat the the wnet erna uoy to. .
Alre ihkct fro upt i wsno elnag keam olhctse sa i lli' on ou,y etrfa nca as a onos oems. Acn llse bougrth clge,noo erhe beauecs ehyt eerh ti illauonrvty i smlel the i (>: whit em lsao tlsli 'ntdo scnie it.
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Nad lls,aty 19 oodg was. Nwe uyo 8 91 at aedm inrdsfe. Seel eno did ehyt uoy on too eledhp ilek. Solce 22 23 si ueryo' ,now. Scluelse ryt 'royeu erlyofus yoeru' iltls lstil imknga nda nwe to opivmre ilef ni,sferd butao. Yevr u'ylol cumh 'hastt blsliuaep tsmo ghnti but see 'evouy veer teh f,let.

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