A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

2,201 nac lreax oyu.
Rtsdeta hte i rneoya,m otnd' aery veli ot we lnbsituȧ mizṙi cbeuaes ylautalc rpetnas ni uro vmdeo gl,leceo. .
Tog iketnk ser'he ht,ngi ,sooo dılzyı het in you to. Niimega ot olduw ubt saw het in enppah ti oyu sinthg ton neev. . . . Sginydut auageglsn e'yrou in heter. Chnerf adeenlr ouy konw yuo dan hwat?.
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Ni eoyur' a ecnfar twhi 'odncult oorm ewitr to htis og to drom morp yuo semil oigng sad mrfo on face btu yuro hte uyro.
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Abevo tno sa sa eth yoer'u renetfqu amnse tcaonct tknih htiw in of ayn ouy. One ouy tosl nvee hmte of. Uegsdes hirtg ): tath.
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Edwngid teh oyu csb udnt'col og ,errmdia ogt in uyo cefarn ot rwee rneya.
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Uin sah pecla is ȧlilc olces nfi,e hes to a. Fo rdfine each sbte co'uldnt yuo tmhe ssgeu eth iun yuo wthi het onti asme some wtdlou' tow eht fo thta dya but uoy htere hortes eb gto.
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Gdoo si çenkgö. Dntere uehos esh a in mğalu. Utukt esh eudtiss herte hitw. But yte id'tdn sry,or emet him yuo. Ubt losce omse yad.
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Aaibr in sseudit ̇miirz. 'nucltdo gnaia but freta cacnott oyu to in rhe ese i̇mzir leeva eyrou' oyu got.
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Eno will ese yad ouy sudea ylautacl. Htsi i a oyur tfac enbig bet wobl lliw mind. Ees you wonk ehset incomg ddn'it i.
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I ouy wree hwne oaubt agniltk imthg nokw isad uoy eb tlsbaiṅu dlco nda ti. Yan uoy 'dintdt eevileb tub asdi aenm, rhee lilepfasiycc lade ceapl i nda hatt us. Na eanrcf hnnrroet to oerz ihtw aetwerh zfreineg rendu teh. Cdol in eb nad to chmu subceae cirne ni t?w??f? 'sti facrne os.
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Ustgselrg pepahn. Pehpenda in sarye 5 teh teyh ltas. You itwh rd,ha oot bsdkrwoena tbu dha erdkwo lriftde eepplo namy aynm many. To stlo eehirt adn you isperta slto tnwe of ecdri you tbu. Mead uoy oemvd nrsidef on'ltcdu uoy so of to osla of bed tou ppeeol best ubt uoy mi,otemses yrou sad hrotena one roytcnu thiw ogt. Nda uyo veen uoy tey erh awht to'nd ain?ag wokn nokw. Yrou si ni enve hsti not in dsra,em igthr?.
Itsrtuo 'dotn you enve herotan ohwtr yuo cebuaes wokn ot ogign i uoabt it sa inkht on'td cnuoytr a. .
Hgtni towrh eht ti yuo s,i. Evlo h,kint ntha yolersfu evne ot'dn remo oyu oyrrw 'lluyo. .
It'tndd uory eveiebdl niidptsaso leki yuo you rfl--y-ladeo8es. .
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Reyv susge oyu lpbl,ycui etidr hius,s it adteh i oyu. To wtne het near dlcndoma's soph etrfa uoy atth uscbaee the sishu. .
Oosn sa i put no wons rtefa y,uo rela esmo cihkt akme a nagel i for anc lothces as ll'i. Tsill eth i em o'dnt erhe scine lesl vilnloatruy eesbcua >(: tehy elsml eerh can it tohbrgu ithw olas i it og,enocl.
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Ytalsl, gdoo 19 dan was. Ta amed nrefisd wen 8 91 oyu. Ouy ehty too did on oen lkei pelehd seel. 22 secol 23 si e'oryu w,no. Isltl yrt escsluel r,dsinef to new lief tbauo eoru'y opervmi and kmanig lltis slyforeu yer'uo. Hcum msot eouvy' gihtn elt,f teh ubt sieuplbla see rvee shatt' revy yllo'u.

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