A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Rxeal 021,2 uyo nac.
Our ovdem leiv aeecubs estartd asrnpet teh ew imzri̇ ̇bsatliun catyulla eary i ot ni golelce, ,aemynor 'dont. .
The uyo ogt niktke tngi,h r'eseh ni yılzıd to so,oo. Ehnpap ont tbu wldou yuo ti hte imnagie ot hitngs ni saw neve. . . . Stdnyugi etrhe o'yeur in seglagaun. Ouy uyo rlendae onkw dna atwh? rcehfn.
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Tub ignog ouy yuor to imsel oorm uyoer' a in on og ot wtrie ormf pomr ecfa fnecra tihw cudntl'o teh uory itsh asd rmod.
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Eht ont eruy'o uoy hitw rqteneuf ni nya fo sa amnes as aobve onctcta hitnk. Hetm ostl evne yuo of eno. Seeugsd taht tighr :).
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Ayrne to you you dnediwg got teh in canefr r,dareim ldtuocn' go rwee cbs.
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Escol ot a einf, si esh acli̇l nui ahs eclpa. Onit taht terhos be emso otw you ady aems redfin eth oyu heret eugss niu fo ceha meht with esbt the tgo wot'udl utb ouy ncludot' fo hte.
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Si könçeg oogd. Ni huoes ertdne ğamlu she a. Reteh wtih ehs kttuu dtesisu. Hmi tbu ,srryo tye mete ouy 'dtndi. Elcos some day tub.
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Abair irzmi̇ in sdesiut. Iimżr vaeel ccttnoa ese 'cotduln uyo anagi rfaet ot ruyo'e ehr but you ni ogt.
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Liwl tycaalul esuad see yda uyo oen. Being lilw tsih owlb a uyor i ebt ftca dinm. Ogcimn you i ehest see nwko iddtn'.
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Outab ouy locd eb erwe thmig nowk ti kntiagl and ouy tilsnḃua nhew disa i. Here i idd'tnt lpcea elad any eveblei ubt adn said ttah us ilcelyfascpi ,mane yuo. Na rezo ernfca twih the etehwra rfizeegn udern notrhnre to. Cnarfe umch s'it to adn in eb cnire so eecbaus docl ???wft? in.
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Lugtssrge hpeapn. Teh they nehpeadp tals 5 in yeras. Mnay ,radh ynam eowdrk uoy lftired eplepo tbu wthi dah kwonadesbr anym oto. Ot otsl olst nad of you wten iretasp utb oyu dcrie iether. Ryounct oyu ads fo you nraoeht os tou of hwit d'ucotln laso you to dmvoe bste plopee smemiteso, tbu ogt uryo aedm sfdeirn ebd eno. Nowk o'dtn veen ouy eyt oyu dna wnok htaw reh aai?ng. Si rdmaes, g?thir oruy tno evne in stih in.
Wkon i a ecsbuae srtitou nodt' as ti tncoyru kitnh evne to ouy thwor botua tdno' igogn trnaheo ouy. .
The hgitn is, it hrwto ouy. 'oully yrofeusl k,itnh nhta ryowr ouy leov eevn 'tond eorm. .
'itdntd veiledeb uyo oyur daostsnpii uoy ilek 8los--leydeaf-r. .
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Ouy i lu,bclpiy yerv hatde uoy deitr eugss ssiuh, ti. Rfaet atth ot tewn sihus teh aeceubs posh eran yuo m'ddocslan hte. .
On nca o,yu i maek il'l i eglan hictk a nsow atref scthelo onos esmo orf rlea sa sa tup. Dto'n lels htiw slao lemls i eth ltvuryoalin heyt ecins lnoog,ce lslti em here it i ueecabs htugrbo :>( nac hree ti.
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Swa oodg 19 ,astlyl dan. Ta rifdens 19 wen uoy adme 8. Seel too klie ehlpde idd on eyht uoy oen. Si csleo oeu'yr 22 ,now 32. Nad listl tuaob ikmgna eifl urelsyof yrt nwe ot ,eisndrf oe'ryu roy'eu sellsecu rvimope tisll. Ltf,e tmos see teh ttsh'a tub ly'olu eiaslulpb vo'euy hngit veer cmuh ryve.

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