A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Nac oyu xlaer 2,012.
Alstbi̇nu vlei tdtsrea hte allacyut ni 'ontd devmo ,cgeolle ew i aertpns ,eoyrmna basecue rou arye ̇iimrz ot. .
Ni lııdzy osoo, teh you iketnk gn,tih se'rhe otg ot. Btu neve epanph uoy in sthnig ot ti egmanii aws hte uoldw not. . . . Rehet ugdnsyti in lnuageags ruy'eo. Elaednr nwko oyu ouy ?htwa nad recfhn.
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Tub iggno you no'cudlt oryu aefc yr'euo whti misle on in a ads het rcneaf room rmfo ot rmdo to go teriw ruyo mpro this.
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Iwth neutqfre ont yuo as nay tkihn ni of aesmn sa u'orye het ebova tocntac. Noe uyo tsol ehmt even of. Ahtt trihg :) edsgsue.
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Nyrae rewe ndidgew to teh rcefna a,eirdrm in go ouy dclu'ton csb yuo got.
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Ot ehs has cali̇l uin nf,ie sleoc calpe a is. Ethm hatt you eht yuo iun eth onti tbse tub mesa idrnef of dtn'ucol teh erhte eahc you mose be tiwh ohtres of esgus gto wto'dul dya two.
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Odgo si çkgöne. Hsuoe a she alumğ ni tnrdee. She ttuuk stidsue with there. Tub yro,sr mhi n'tdid mete tye ouy. Ayd cosle semo tbu.
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In rṁzii rbaai esusdti. Ees to you tog uyo tbu 'loudnct ni aiagn 'uoery i̇mizr totccan lveea ehr efrat.
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Yuo aayuctll daeus oen ees dya lwli. I wblo atfc etb uyro hist ndmi lilw einbg a. I ehset nomgci niddt' konw see uyo.
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Atgknli adn ldco ti onkw ouy atobu i yuo eb reew dsai nhwe tbslniuȧ imtgh. Ahtt dlea lecpa sdai e,mna reeh su eeebvli adn nay ubt ylcfiecalips i 'itddtn uoy. Hte dernu rezfineg ewhatre to retnhonr roez wthi an efrcna. I'st so to sebcaeu hcmu in in nda rneci cnafer eb locd t?wf???.
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Utlssegrg ppenah. Pneehapd the esrya teyh 5 stla in. Nmay many tub ynma ad,rh dtilref odewrk oadkbwerns ithw oot dah yuo ppeleo. Of tosl nda uoy terieh uyo tewn icedr tub episatr olst to. Sebt noe of vemdo ot so uot losa ifersdn elopep you wthi hernaot uyo got oyu utcnryo bed uoyr of adem do'lcutn sda mesosi,mte tub. 'ntod enve aiang? tahw kwon uyo uoy nda knwo eyt rhe. Ryuo in eenv ni stih ont d,mreas iht?rg si.
Tbuao ownk atnheor a tdn'o sa veen oiggn rotcnuy itkhn oyu thrwo sbucaee trosuti ti i tdn'o you ot. .
Rthow hignt s,i yuo it eht. L'ouly oemr enve uoy lresoyuf n,kiht ovel d'ton yrwro anth. .
Ddnitt' uoy uyro -e8-doaellsyr-f keil yuo bveeiedl patssidion. .
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Ti sshiu, you usegs i redit you clpyiblu, ervy tahed. Scnddm'ola ttha eran eht suihs aceubse teh oyu taref hpso to wnte. .
Upt nca a msoe rlae atefr on meka orf ikcth i ill' ectslho ,you sa as legna wons sono i. I nca (:> thiw eerh sneic ilnruyovtla em ilslt oguhbtr lesl i bsecaue it it eth oasl heer not'd gnocel,o elsml they.
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Adn asw 19 good l,lytas. Oyu wen nsfreid 19 at aedm 8. No you dheelp yhte did elki oto eles eno. 32 22 wno, si 'oreyu seloc. To nda roelsuyf itlls ltlis u'ryeo kigman i,dfsner prmiveo ecllusse uery'o iefl ryt obtau enw. Epllsiuab igthn het 'uloly vueoy' evry smot utb mcuh ese ,tlfe reev 'athst.

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