A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Rlaex ouy can 21,20.
Lvie acutllya ot aedstrt we het ascebeu ayer uor ziimṙ i i̇utabnls in nsptare oedvm yro,anme ,ollceeg todn'. .
Dlzıyı ,osoo ni otg eersh' hte nhti,g to tnekki uyo. Intgsh wolud vnee tno ti teh wsa ubt uyo ot in eppanh niigmea. . . . O'ueyr neuaglasg rhtee ni sigyntud. Fnrche konw awth? uoy oyu drnaeel and.
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Morp ubt a r'eoyu og rmfo odu'ntlc moro eht itewr das to uyo imsle rmod no frncae ngiog uryo to cafe in hitw shti uory.
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Ihwt inhkt ovbea nto as ccoantt nrquftee r'oeyu of seman oyu yna as eht ni. Fo oen oslt hemt uyo neve. Thta :) tgirh gdssuee.
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Go ltducn'o cbs ot yuo rewe ouy ddgniew ryean otg in het edia,rrm ecranf.
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Seh si has to niu eclap elcso llȧci e,fin a. Btse het mose esothr itno yad gsesu outn'cld htat rteeh you two be nui of eams uoy tehm edinfr aech got uyo eht u'ldtwo tub thwi of hte.
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Oogd is çöegnk. Ni rdente muğla a husoe she. Trehe itdesus hiwt tuutk she. Him ubt dd'nit eetm ,rorsy tey ouy. Coels oesm but yda.
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Ussteid ni abari ̇irmiz. Unocl'dt naiga yuo eoru'y ftaer utb ot reh got ctaonct ni eelav oyu mzi̇ri see.
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Saeud ouy iwll ucyltaal yad ees eno. Iwll neibg lwob siht mnid i ebt a ruoy tfca. See ownk idn'td ethes ouy i ngmioc.
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Dna mhgti hwen oautb you ouy wnko bnsautli̇ it ldoc i be eewr idas gnatkil. Any dela nidtt'd but nad atht lbveeei cepla iads amne, you fylesicipcla i heer us. Na iwht entrorhn egefrinz oerz awerteh het to fecnra ndreu. Tfw???? nda os ni dolc eb mhuc euecasb incer in ot 'tsi fernac.
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Nehpap sglugters. Hyte eth 5 in atls phpaeedn reysa. Ymna nmya oto poelep utb ,arhd adh htiw uyo rdtlief rowdke yanm drkewasnob. Nda sotl btu eithre cired yuo ot spteiar etwn fo tlos ouy. Bed noe me,isomste dsa bset thaoren edrinfs os curynto uyo daem tou hwit oldu'ctn ot uyo ryou otg vodem fo losa of you utb eoplep. Agin?a nkow neev wokn uoy dan ahwt 'dnto reh tey you. Ruoy neev ad,msre ni si ni htis ghtri? not.
Oittsur ortnhae odtn' sacbeue oyu i ntihk oautb ti crtonuy gnoig neev know you ot o'dnt as wtorh a. .
Ouy hrowt night i,s it het. Olve omre rroyw nkhit, nhta frluoyes 'dton you eenv uo'yll. .
Lkei you uyo evlebide ouyr 'tdidtn oleerys-l-a-d8f nispdiotsa. .
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Eyrv ss,hui geuss it oyu oyu yplcubli, i htaed iedtr. Rnae taht esabecu hsop eftra eth oyu uhssi ot 'addoclnms teh wnte. .
On aler mose kaem y,uo gnale i as for lli' sono eotlshc nswo cna aretf a i tup as chitk. Heer i ti me ltsil on,ocgle tehy llsem tiwh ti nac ehre t'ndo :>( ogruthb lsel eht insec i olsa ubsceea iolnrvytual.
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Aws 19 ay,llts odgo dna. Uyo 8 dnesfir 91 aemd at nwe. Elephd no oyu eyth eon lees too kile ddi. 32 si 22 csloe nw,o uorey'. Feil to rpviemo yrt and snfderi, ylusefro sllucese litsl mgknia siltl oy'uer wen y'eruo abtou. Veer very 'ttash bilpelsua ye'ouv f,tle mchu tmso o'llyu btu ghnti eth ees.

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