A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Can 02,12 uyo eraxl.
Ew aery tod'n noy,maer rteatds i l,elceog eth ̇izmir ayalctlu ni ielv bliatu̇ns ruo to tpsrnae ebscuea mvdeo. .
Hgn,it her'se ni oso,o ızdlıy you ot nkktie gto hte. Sghtin to uodlw in happne btu tno aws uoy it nmeagii neve eht. . . . Gndistuy ugglnseaa e'rouy in ehtre. Fnrhce uyo kwon dan hta?w lraneed ouy.
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Iwth ruyo ads rmop ot ilsme efca igogn r'uoye to teh og in drom lncut'od a necafr shit on oomr wirte but uyo ryuo ofmr.
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In uyo yna names iwht of ikhnt tqrefneu as ebova tcotacn sa re'uoy teh nto. Tsol of hmet enve one oyu. Atth ): eudsegs rhitg.
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Ont'cldu yuo ni drmreia, you ewer erany dnidgwe nfcaer bsc hte og to got.
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Hse alliċ aeclp a ash ot ie,fn elcos iun is. Fo t'wudol sherot the btse htiw owt uin egsus btu eahc denrfi got oesm yuo uyo emth heetr eb dya the teh hatt ntoi u'ntdcol ouy of amse.
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Oodg is kenögç. Erdnet mualğ a hes ehuso ni. Ustdeis teher hes ttkuu hwti. Tub rsy,ro ddt'in you eemt yet ihm. Yad ecols oesm ubt.
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Aaibr esstuid ni ̇mzrii. Odutcl'n tgo ni retaf aniga ubt tcotnca uoy ṙiimz eaevl o'ruey ouy ehr see to.
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Saued dya eno see will yuo tculyaal. Tbe lilw i a indm ibneg aftc bwol oury thsi. Moncig nowk see oyu i 'ndtdi teseh.
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When eb ewre ȧutbinsl aubto i asid ghmti it locd konw oyu glntkia oyu dna. Tath and edal peacl ieebvel sadi ttn'ddi yna heer ouy utb i us ilfaceylipcs emna,. Eth renzegif to eozr rornetnh acfren udrne twih theewra na. Ni ot ?f??wt? os and eb ni cdol bsuaece tsi' aefcrn cnire mhuc.
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Trlseggsu enpahp. 5 ni syare tsal neaepdhp thye eth. Nmya dr,ah dowrke utb too pepeol myna you had ltfider yanm htwi bdknsawore. Tenw you oslt peastir dcier you otsl nad ot ehteri utb of. Emvdo ubt saol so ynortcu oyu to with sda eno ppleoe bed oyur noearth of eamd unt'odlc ss,iemmeto best uoy uot uoy fnrisde gto of. Rhe tye nkwo uyo neev nkwo ouy nda gi?ana hwta dot'n. Yruo in this tno irthg? neev ni si ersad,m.
Ebeaucs wtohr to as aehontr uoy htink it evne ouatb cortynu i wonk 'tndo gingo 'dtno you a iustotr. .
Rwoht igtnh ,si ti uoy teh. Nkht,i todn' lefosryu reom yrwor uoy elvo vene anht u'loly. .
Libdveee isatndospi ouy keli ouy did'ntt ruyo adeleory8-s--fl. .
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Evyr ,sihus yuo geuss i it you headt clpuy,lbi eidtr. Atth ishus the no'dlmcsad tnew to ferta shpo seabuce het aner uoy. .
On tohselc anc sa for i sono lli' emos aelr wson sa ,uoy i akme gaeln a upt ftrea cthki. Em ntlaiulyorv i teh thye i nac nsice tslil hotgurb it whit ti t'dno ,nlgcoeo aslo lslem erhe slel ubeseca (:> rehe.
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Nda odog 19 was tyalls,. At 19 yuo new disnfre dame 8. Heyt lese ddi oto yuo eephld eno no eikl. Er'oyu onw, 22 is eslco 32. Ltsli nad rsylefuo tllis esfd,nri ot ewn y'eruo rty uroye' kmigan poeirmv lfie oubat clessule. Tingh btu cmhu ees el,ft msto eht pibauells veer atts'h oyu'ev vyer 'uolyl.

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