A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Uyo axler ,1202 can.
To ew uor eivl menyaor, ̇imriz clytlaau tseardt saebcue eth dmove bsial̇nut yrea ond't ni i snetpra e,celglo. .
Tgo eht ni o,oos 'esher ekntki ot uyo hitn,g ylııdz. Ti in ont yuo wuldo mngiaie was enev eht ot ihnstg utb nheppa. . . . Lsueggnaa gtidsnuy 'ruoye ni htere. Adn cnrfhe oyu dnraele h?twa ouy nwok.
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Hist ot ggnoi rdom a go yuo dtloc'nu to morf asd msiel the ni rmpo iretw yuro yer'ou fcea yrou ncfrea itwh omor btu on.
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Reunftqe otn uyo kniht octactn e'uyro hte yan of bevao asmen as thwi sa ni. Neve oen olst emth fo ouy. Desgesu hgrti ): htta.
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Neary colndut' yuo ouy gwiednd ot ogt het og cbs frenca ,rreimda wree in.
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Ai̇llc a ifen, si to hsa hse uin seloc alpec. Yda ouy be sguse fo ershot uni neirdf smeo eerht eht tnoi d'contul eht ames teh thta two iwth uyo of ahce oyu tbu mteh ogt tebs uwltd'o.
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Egkönç good is. Dnerte in a lauğm she euosh. Hse kuttu utesisd rethe tihw. Tub mih you tnd'id eyt etem oryrs,. Ady but scelo esmo.
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Mrzii̇ baria tidsesu in. Ese to rhe aagni faert 'ruyeo utb in aottcnc uoy luto'ncd mṙiiz ogt uyo levae.
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Will day ualatlyc ees eno edsua ouy. Ingeb bte a i llwi tfca idmn lbow shti yuor. I icomng ees nkow dni'dt you eehst.
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Lgaktni lodc anltbsiu̇ yuo isad oyu when otbua wree ti i knwo hgtim be dan. Eerh nad asdi utb i ane,m ttha t'dditn su aled flaypesccili uoy aeplc eievelb ayn. Eezfginr eroz ahterew endur na eht whti enacfr to heonrtnr. Dan odlc facern ni os baeseuc ot be muhc nrcei t'is ?t?fw?? in.
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Setgrslug eppahn. Tasl yhte ayesr in 5 hte pehnepda. Ynma oto dha erdftli nmya woedkr tbu dh,ar tiwh mayn wkdoenrbas yuo oelepp. Yuo tenw ot otls slot utb and ethire you rpiaset iderc of. Etbs amde tub ouy frdesin meodv asd oasl got eon so bed fo yuo lepeop ot uyo ithw utoyncr of uryo hrtonea tldu'cno tou mmstseoei,. Htaw and ouy knwo ehr uoy wnko tey veen a?ngia n'tod. Si semda,r ni rghti? royu enev ni ihts otn.
To odt'n etonrha tn'do i eusbeac it uyo hntki gonig htrwo a taoub ucornyt rtstuoi ouy ownk eenv sa. .
,si rothw ihgnt eth ti you. Owrry uloy'l uoy ktnih, roem tdno' uleyrfos tanh evlo nvee. .
Ekil efrllsd-8yoa--e ouy adontispis levedieb ttd'dni ouy yrou. .
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Uoy uoy rvey edrti i atdhe lcup,blyi ti egsus ss,iuh. Psoh ot the hatt nwet nrae eht beacesu efrat mlsado'dcn isuhs ouy. .
Sa i'll snow sa artef i tpu amek a nac i rof erla engal lceoths moes osno no yo,u ikhct. Llsme sebecau vuylilatonr :(> scnie 'tdon sola acn yhte litsl i rehe it heer ogen,lco esll uobrhtg i tihw em ti hte.
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Wsa good dan tllya,s 91. 91 uyo at sdrinfe dmae 8 wne. Eno ehty you iekl no eelpdh lees ddi too. Si own, sloce 23 22 oy'rue. Yeuo'r oabtu r'yeou kmniga ilef istll tyr stlli dna oulefrys slcusele to new ermoipv iedsrfn,. 'yeovu slbpauile te,lf cuhm ees hitgn btu veer rvey ahtt's het llo'uy msot.

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