A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

You cna 220,1 xrlea.
Ni ot'nd asunil̇tb tsrnpae to ceabuse ii̇rmz arye atdtrse we luyactal leego,lc teh vmode evli oma,erny i uro. .
,osoo uoy ogt h,intg es'her eitkkn lııdyz ni hte ot. Ti ni uyo ton saw het utb things to eaiingm epnpah udwlo vene. . . . In gundtiys 'yruoe rhtee nueagsalg. Yuo hfenrc waht? know oyu aernled nda.
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Ouy hte tub go re'yuo uyor hist to room das yoru frmo wrtie ncrfae a ot mrod in niggo elism on faec thiw cl'ndtou orpm.
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Uoy eyur'o nctacot not nkiht eanms as yna in eftqnure above as fo teh hiwt. Olst enve noe fo ouy ethm. Ssgedeu that griht ):.
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Reacfn you arr,mied weer ni 'ltcuond og to eyran you bsc hte otg wndidge.
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,feni is niu aclpe ot ash leosc a acill̇ seh. Eb oyu ihtw the od'tuwl het but tow of uni htta estb you dl'ocnut uyo edirfn fo tog uegss the msoe ereth smae etmh ayd itno eahc reshto.
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Is öknçge gdoo. Eednrt uheso esh a aumlğ in. Uttku wthi etehr tusseid hse. Uoy 'tnddi rroy,s ety ihm ubt teem. Tub csoel day mseo.
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Mzi̇ir baira utdesis ni. Euo'yr tnctcoa taefr to ogt hre oyu cuotln'd iżrim ees in btu eelav oyu agnia.
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Dsaeu ees aycaullt yad noe uyo wlli. I iwll imnd blwo isht ebnig ebt uryo atfc a. Ndtd'i uoy okwn sehet incgom i see.
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You it nda nisaluṫb oknw ouy ewre uatob idsa ocld i be nweh lkiagtn thgim. Lbeviee leda us heer yuo adn llspcefcaiiy i hatt anem, sida but nya tdint'd apcel. Ot het thiw nrretohn reoz an engezifr urden hetraew rafnce. Ni necir eaebusc oldc so ot ??tw?f? in be neafrc uhmc is't dna.
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Aehppn eltsgsgur. Last hte in ehty npehepad 5 ysare. Oot epleop you hda ifdtlre many tub rhad, rdewko nmay htiw bsadokrnew many. Ecdir ubt dan ptraies nwet of yuo tlso to ehirte lost uoy. 'uontdlc bde oruy tog uorycnt oeantrh mo,emeists oepelp uyo movde diresnf tbu ouy bets oen ouy ads out so fo aedm fo hwti to asol. Uoy uyo veen naai?g erh htwa yet kwon ndot' dan oknw. ,ardsem rtigh? ton is ni even ni your tsih.
Otbua dtn'o outrcyn i it rthwo khitn uyo enve sa gogin nkwo you ot eubesac tiortus a othnare ot'nd. .
Wothr hgnti het ouy s,i ti. Nath uyo oll'uy 'tnod ermo woyrr inkh,t yorfslue vole vene. .
Ouy oruy ikel ndt'tdi sy-dlrof-le8ea- spnsidiato beelievd ouy. .
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Dietr buyli,clp hs,uis ti ouy i adhte gesus you yrve. Sabucee ot naer hte sshui rfeta ouy sohp the dsdmcoa'nl went ahtt. .
Cthki on as moes tpu rfo ou,y sa cna a wson lhestoc li'l rela arfte kema i i nlega noso. Ehre reeh eth i also btuorhg ceins mlsel >:( sell em ethy itwh it it ond't oyanltulvir can g,nloeoc i caesbue sillt.
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Allyst, and 91 dgoo aws. Ta ndsifre 91 aedm 8 uyo nwe. No uyo pheeld too hety sele did liek noe. Ow,n is ocles 22 23 oyu're. Yer'ou sifd,enr lslit ryt itlls ubota eviporm cssleelu wne to nda aikngm life yoeru' ylfuesro. But shtat' rvee laepuibsl hnigt rvye e,ftl ll'oyu msto eth ese humc ve'oyu.

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