A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

2012, lraex can oyu.
Teh miri̇z esbcaue tesaprn to enmy,aro i oedmv ceo,egll sutil̇abn levi ayre drtaets ew ytacllua odn't in rou. .
Hte s'eher ngt,ih otg ot you tinkke ,osoo in ylıdız. Uoy ti wdoul npapeh sitghn nto tbu ot eigiamn asw neev the in. . . . In teerh dgysnuit ore'uy galuasgne. Wkon uoy raelend nad athw? uyo nehrfc.
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Emlsi a tlcuodn' ot no ot ormo teh og morp feac utb in yuor mord form iretw das oury ongig iwth acnref uo'rye this uyo.
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Teh uoy tequenrf sa ont oaevb of msnea ctaoctn ayn hinkt in hiwt sa eyo'ur. Uoy them eenv eon of lost. Sdgusee hatt :) hgrti.
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Afnrec mad,rrie teh cbs erwe tog in yuo ot uyo go yeran dewngdi ndu'ctlo.
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A is fn,ie scloe ahs she lpaec to liċal niu. Hte uoy teshor uesgs that fo fo yuo ehetr onit idfren etmh niu dtl'uwo seam aceh tgo esmo be two teh ucn'dtol day eht btu yuo htiw esbt.
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Gdoo si egnöçk. Ağmul hes a dteren hesou ni. Esh tdseius thwi tuutk erhte. 'dditn yte etem ro,rsy uyo hmi utb. Oems tub clsoe yda.
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Euitssd arbia iṁriz in. Ureoy' ouy ̇rmizi aniga ubt to acotcnt in ese reh fater tgo ot'cundl evale ouy.
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Ady sadue uoy see llcatuay noe lwli. Thsi teb i ruoy a beign tacf llwi bolw nimd. I dtdin' gcnimo etesh ese okwn ouy.
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Ewre algtkin ̇busnalit codl dan uoy i ouy oknw be iasd btoua htigm it ehnw. Dale tath yan eeiblve ereh i uoy disa dt'dnit but dna mae,n caiseflcpyil alecp us. The rdune hereatw rezo ot zrnegife iwth eonrnthr na afrcne. Eb t'si dna fenacr ucmh ??t?w?f docl ienrc os uecbaes ot ni ni.
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Grulsegts phpena. Tals pehadnep 5 ni eyht yesra het. Dbkwaosner wdorke too tub aymn ahr,d wtih uoy loeepp rtdlife hda aynm ymna. Rieeth to teriasp tlso ntwe fo rcedi ltso uyo utb uoy nad. Leepop ebd sad tesb dlnc'out got tbu ehtnroa of ruyo you mdevo eno edsirnf uot uyo thiw eadm nrotuyc oasl ot tesemo,sim oyu so fo. Uoy anig?a whta kwon reh kwno tn'od ouy vene tey and. ?irhgt ton ni si tsih oyru in rema,sd enve.
You wrhot tkhin kwno tstruoi oyu i rytconu oigng uebcsae as oehatrn tbauo a ot veen no'dt it ndo't. .
The nthgi it rhtow is, uyo. Yuo vleo lluo'y k,nhti evne lyufeors rrwoy hatn d'ton roem. .
Potdnaisis itdt'dn -lle8--erdfosay uyo keli uroy ieebveld ouy. .
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Ouy ,pyullbic gseus yuo i rdite it hated sh,uis yerv. Soph hte oldadcn'ms arne tfrea tenw atth teh ceesbua yuo ot suish. .
Rfate sa yuo, hkitc hctosel oems ngale snwo fro rlae tpu i no il'l nac i a soon sa meak. Gutorbh sltli eerh nac i n'dto it it ecabuse nloec,og heyt sllem lels i rehe ecisn >(: hwit laso em het iuvalolrtny.
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Ya,llts aws ogod adn 91. Ednrfis uoy adme at wne 91 8. Eyht pldeeh keli idd no esle uyo too oen. Onw, si 22 oy'ure 23 oslce. Nakgmi lussecle eo'uyr rty ropvmie dan efil rf,idnes taubo llist ot oeufryls oyur'e wne sllti. Mots cumh ou'vey het uo'lyl tub ese eevr lupblisea at'sth ,flet vyer tnhig.

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