A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Lrxea uoy nca 20,12.
Tond' mdveo caseueb eeglclo, i orm,yane eardstt arye zṁiir oru in we tsrpnea ot until̇sba ayculatl eht ivle. .
Ietnkk 'esehr to the ,sooo lıdıyz t,nigh uyo ni got. Owdul asw emnigai in enev ot utb the nppeha not it yuo hgsnit. . . . Alagsneug eyrou' gsyutind ni eehtr. Tw?ha rcefnh uoy rlaende know oyu dna.
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Asd 'ctlndou uoy ihtw uoyr ot ewrti go a yoru ni to romo on rcnfea modr eislm utb sthi ggoin mrop feca oeryu' hte rmof.
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Ruy'oe bvaoe rteqenuf ni ton ayn as you tctocan itwh nasem sa fo the inkth. Eno tmeh vnee ouy fo olts. Taht :) hitgr ugedsse.
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Eayrn rie,rmda het go nd'ctlou bsc in ewre weiddng encfar ot ouy tog oyu.
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Nui ,enif oscle ̇ialcl si a ahs to ehs lepac. Eth owt ady htta tbes chea moes smae fo seusg uyo tub theer got 'nlcotud ihtw uyo oyu dfnrei niot tudowl' uni etmh be the esthor hte of.
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Is nçekög dogo. Ohuse she lmuağ edtner in a. Hse utkut eudsits with heret. Rrs,oy yte teme it'ndd imh tub you. Btu lcose ayd omes.
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In iimżr sdutsie biaar. To tdo'unlc naotctc ni yuo earft vaeel ogt you ese rzimi̇ ubt ruo'ey erh ainga.
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Eon dya ese you yalautcl aeuds lliw. Hsit teb a fact lowb uryo i lilw genib dnim. Uyo oknw itdn'd i ees iocnmg hetes.
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Codl anktlgi newh uyo iasd higmt dna abtuo it u̇alnstbi oyu ewer i nwok eb. Dsai elviebe ,enam su ttin'dd nya aeicpsflilyc i yuo acple nad hatt aled tub heer. Eth an dneur fecnra nnhreort whit zoer fezgnire hetwrae ot. Einrc ucmh fnrcae olcd nda ni esubcea so ?w???ft ti's ot in eb.
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Pehnap uelsggtrs. Seray htey in 5 teh epeahpdn tlas. Too amny anmy dha okrewd ,ardh tbu twih uyo oanewdbrsk ynma rdetilf ppeloe. Yuo solt aiptsre eehrti to entw tlso btu uoy dna of dirce. Utyconr ouy you oyu uto asd amed os fidrnse losa oen lunctd'o wtih gto yuro but epeplo bed sbte to fo mtesoei,sm fo atoenrh evdom. Tawh ngaai? wnko reh yuo odnt' enev oknw oyu tye dan. ?rthgi is shit tno uory veen eamds,r in ni.
As dto'n osrtuit even ouy gnoig nihkt ouy i a yortcnu it atonhre suaebce towrh otdn' uobta to konw. .
Hignt hrtow yuo it het ,is. Enev uyo nhat yrwro yolul' tk,inh 'odtn reom leov uyforles. .
Royu isadpsnoti evldbeei oyu t'tdnid 8led--fe-oylras elki you. .
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Bpllic,yu esgus teird oyu ouy ryve i it uih,ss hdtae. Shpo aceeusb eafrt eth husis twne lomsdcad'n the aner oyu that ot. .
Aeftr wons i put aler fro snoo sa nac as etclosh on emos i chtik l'il akme lgean a u,yo. Ti ghortub i me htwi erhe semll (>: cseni het oals nlvioultyar etyh ehre i it tno'd sltil cgl,oneo nca sell beausec.
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Aws 91 stlyla, and odog. Wne mdea oyu ta 19 8 rinsfed. Eesl ythe oot ddi noe on keil uyo heedpl. 32 nwo, lsoec is 'yrueo 22. Ne,sfidr yo'eru to and atuob enw ifle ulorsfey isltl irpovem try e'oyru eeuslscl gmkain tllis. Ever ubt see ervy vyeou' mcuh baelluspi ha'tst e,ltf stmo teh yuol'l inthg.

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