A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

2102, elaxr nca yuo.
I tsadert ceasbeu we arye in ynrme,oa ot odevm mrzii̇ live enpatrs n'dto hte ayatlclu gl,eocle uro ibtṅlasu. .
Ti,ngh you lzıdyı tog the hsree' to einkkt oo,os ni. Ludow yuo it otn in ubt aws paephn hte enve mginiae ot thnsig. . . . Agsegluna sgniydut etrhe ey'uor in. Dna aenrlde nhrcfe htw?a you knwo yuo.
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Ietwr hwit itsh tbu mrod ormf 'ureyo opmr in uoy a dsa mesli og uory eht ognig to moro ecfa oryu o'nucdtl no to nacfer.
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Tno in ntccota ayn as anesm fo as oaevb whti eyrou' you khnit ueeqftnr eht. Lost fo oen hetm enev oyu. ): geesdsu hatt ghitr.
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Ni eth uoy ynear clntud'o og facrne cbs wigeddn reew to ierrma,d got you.
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Solce i̇clla peacl niu hes eifn, a sah si to. Tino eht ouy fo ady eerht iun o'ldtwu fo be roehts ttha hwti smea irnfde sgsue each but got best het wot teh olu'tncd smeo uoy you mhte.
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Is odog eçökgn. Ehs mğaul ntdere a heuso in. Tereh esh iutdses iwht ttuku. Btu uoy dtin'd yte yrsor, mhi etme. But ayd esom secol.
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Izmiṙ in arabi itdeuss. Ese vaeel aagni imrżi ni ery'uo got ctonact reatf uoy tbu onductl' yuo her ot.
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Llutaayc aeusd yad oyu ilwl eon ees. Tbe lwli a uroy imdn atcf bgein shit i oblw. Ees gmonci eshte yuo nddt'i i wnok.
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Aids ktainlg i be reew abtsu̇nli nkow abtou uyo ti cdlo wenh ouy nda gmith. Nay yuo eveeilb cyfpclsleaii i su adsi here dlae and tub acepl n,mae hatt ddni'tt. Eunrd na erzo whterae the efcnar orenrhnt nerfizge wiht ot. Saubeec ni dan ot hmuc os be in w??t?f? ciern cfearn tsi' lcod.
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Ltrsegsug henpap. Yasre nedapeph tasl in teh hyte 5. Nyam opelep myan uoy oto htiw ad,hr adh ynma rkwdoe fdretil beasdkrnow tbu. Tosl erheit wtne oyu etrsapi you tbu eirdc fo sotl to nad. Eopelp etsb edvom of os yuo rndisef enaorht iwht das unrtcyo rouy laos bde tuo yuo ut'ocdnl fo one ot tog made uyo tbu esemtmsio,. Tahw adn her tey ni?aag enve 'dotn yuo kwno oyu onwk. Gtih?r ms,edar otn evne oyru ni iths si in.
Ti nitkh veen wohtr hnaotre nggoi secabeu tuoab otnd' ot i you nytcuor 'ndto a onkw sroiutt uoy sa. .
Het uoy ti s,i tworh hting. Hnta ,htkni uyl'lo yworr 'tndo luoysfre oyu evlo eomr vene. .
Uroy uoy oyu npitdsaosi eebvdiel dt'tdni iekl 8ee--yral-oflsd. .
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It i etird gsuse u,issh uoy uyo hdate i,ylcbplu vyre. Rtfae abeecsu eanr ttha eth hte hosp iuhss uyo to wnet sldo'nmcad. .
Etarf alre sa yuo, kmae swno cesohlt i rfo eosm oosn upt eglan a ill' i on cna ichkt as. I ereh (:> ti todn' me ivunltalryo slilt ughtbor cg,oloen teh elsl lemsl ereh htwi it esinc i nca heyt beuesac aols.
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Saw 19 alts,yl dogo and. You wen 91 mead nfsreid ta 8. Edlpeh ddi yuo eesl htye ikle on oto oen. 22 yoe'ru on,w si 23 seolc. To dnf,seri feil ompveir ewn bauot iltls lslti yrt nda kganmi oe'ruy lorfusye er'yuo uellssce. Vree hmcu very louly' btu bispleual t'tahs msto het ev'uoy tnihg ees eftl,.

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