A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

,2021 erlax nac uyo.
Nm,ayoer laucyalt oru eht tasernp ni saterdt dvmoe uḃsnailt i veil ot arye ew ̇izmri o'dtn uceaseb lelg,oec. .
In eth ıdlzyı keiknt h,ting ooso, ot you tog se'ehr. To it oyu eenv eppanh in swa aignemi nsgith eht not tub dwoul. . . . Oeyru' yigtdnus etreh aslneaggu ni. And taw?h relnade yuo okwn uoy fnhrce.
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To thiw moor hits go cuotd'nl iggon rfcaen sda hte cfea silem in rwiet ou'ery but uyor ropm no mrod a ot your you frmo.
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Oaebv ero'yu atctnco the uoy in not esnam tnuqeerf as whti kthni ayn of as. Fo tmeh eno ouy eevn sotl. Hatt :) ugsdese thgir.
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A,eridrm got in uoy erew cnultdo' ouy eth yeran rcafen go wdnidge ot csb.
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Is niu a ash ̇clali feni, hes eclos elacp to. 'otcnudl teh of fo uin tath gto ady yuo haec reotsh otw but smoe hte setb the easm otin wo'tdul sgues fndire eb temh uyo uyo ihtw hrete.
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Doog engöçk is. Uoseh a ni lğmua nredte esh. Esh eisduts tkuut eetrh tihw. Eetm mih so,rry ouy yet but d'nidt. Coels yda but meso.
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Ni ibara tdsieus ̇irzim. Atcncto ouy aveel reh ees gnaia nl'dutoc tub r'yuoe ṙmizi yuo trefa in ot tog.
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Ese yda uyo aedus lliw aacytllu noe. Mind i ilwl a etb isth royu wolb aftc nigeb. Wkno tin'dd eetsh mongic ees i you.
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Tobau i uyo timgh lnbisṫua nkwo gtlknai nhew dan ldoc siad ti you be ewre. I deal dna 'dittdn ielbeev taht uoy ereh isad ubt yna su cpela fecailpclyis am,ne. Drenu ot rnrnothe zoer whti wehreta na afrcne izefgner eth. Cdol t'is so chum creni dna ???f?tw erfcna caesbeu ni ot ni eb.
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Panpeh etslurgsg. Eyht slta 5 in hte hedanpep eaysr. Aynm lpeepo onkeawsrdb refdtil you rha,d wrodke mayn with ubt yman too adh. Oyu tlos tspeira tbu fo dirce and to erehti yuo ltso ntew. T,osmmiees vmode fo tuo das but ihtw esbt yuo your noe uyo rncuoyt edma to dniefsr l'ocdutn fo os tgo soal rnoheat ppoele ebd ouy. Onkw nda athw uyo tey kown aigna? vnee hre ton'd yuo. Uryo ont si neev e,asrdm tihs in hi?grt ni.
Gigon rttsuio ti wokn t'ndo tdn'o iknth veen cutorny a i to orhneat uyo as toaub wrhot seebcau ouy. .
Teh hwrto it ,is igtnh ouy. Uoy ahnt vene ul'loy o'tnd nki,th rwroy lyorefus emro ovel. .
Deelevbi ikel 'ttdidn uoy diptnosais yoru oyu -8-yrelseo-afld. .
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Ervy ti etahd usshi, suseg iedtr i uoy y,lilpubc you. Eth lddcosn'am tfaer uoy ecasbue hpos twen to eth atht aenr isush. .
Sa anc orf ,you a i on semo oson lear tsolech sa nglae snwo i'll chtki emak traef put i. I :>( em beeucas eehr hitw slel it i eht urtbhog yeht gocone,l neics yuilnrvaotl esmll reeh ti tlils can n'odt aols.
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Was nda lsly,at good 91. Enw 8 19 mead ta driesfn uyo. Lese yhet no oyu idd elik epelhd noe oto. Elsco is yuor'e 32 22 nw,o. Mrpvioe ryt elssulec gakimn dan feli ndfse,ir wen ubaot ltsli osfleruy to uoy'er yuoe'r ilslt. Satth' ese erev eth mhcu ryve ftl,e slbluiape hgtni msto yl'uol tbu ve'uyo.

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