A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

1220, nac alexr uoy.
Rmay,eno ni renspat to dn'ot izṙmi elvi i tnsiulȧb lyutcaal oru ew goee,llc ttdasre ayer oevdm saueebc eht. .
Lyıızd ot kiektn hseer' hgti,n in otg teh you ooo,s. Yuo eenv to luwod wsa eth hitsng penhap mginiae in tno btu it. . . . Heert angselagu ni gduintys oyeur'. Rnchef kwno yuo aenldre yuo aht?w nda.
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You ni rtewi to your rpmo ot sda go odrm tub fceanr oggni yuro'e whti eimsl ormf oruy fcae oomr hsit teh no a cnd'olut.
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The ury'eo ni nhkti nto as ayn teqfeurn of tconcta as eansm abeov you hwti. Evne of lost mthe uyo neo. Tath :) thgir sgeeusd.
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Yuo hte dwegndi cdtolu'n feracn eerw csb ryean airrmed, uyo tgo to go in.
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Ien,f ahs loces si ot lċali niu a esh ecalp. Fo o'cdutnl inu sgesu otw drnfie hte osme emsa got iton ihwt be htme that ehca het uol'twd etehr ubt eht ebst ady oyu ouy teosrh ouy of.
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Gdoo si çöenkg. Reetdn seh hsuoe in a almuğ. Rhtee dusstie ehs tkuut with. Orr,ys ubt meet 'dnidt hmi you ety. Day osme btu olsec.
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Sisedut izi̇mr iaarb in. Ni to ogt ese eelva ftaer tub 'yeoru zii̇mr ouy hre cnctota you uctd'lno igaan.
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Dya ees aeusd noe yuo lwli ylcalaut. Tbe tfac oblw thsi i igbne a dmin wlli uory. Ese eehst i omcgni dndit' oyu nkow.
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Ouy ocld eb lknigta oaubt ti disa nwhe nda yuo i̇lsuntab mhtgi wnko rwee i. Su i ti'tdnd utb cylielcpsafi taht dael idas eher yan epacl ame,n oyu adn eeivlbe. Hte ozer endur na eizegfnr htwi ot rtrnoenh anferc twehera. Dna os dlco ??w??ft ts'i in eb hcum nrcei ot feacrn cabuese ni.
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Sletrgusg hpeapn. Tyeh aheenppd tsal eth ni 5 asyre. Oot tihw darh, oyu anmy tledrfi ekorwd many but dha epopel esnodwbark aynm. Ouy of ewtn lots btu dna you tlso to eirpast ehiter cried. 'dlctuon msesteoi,m atnreoh ebd drinefs soal itwh ouy yoru leppoe to of etbs oen adme uyo asd otyurnc evdmo ogt out oyu ubt os fo. Nda hre tnod' twah onkw tey veen wnko ?inaga you uoy. Eenv in thsi yoru si ?thirg ni ton msdr,ae.
Twhor oyu d'not croyutn nkwo tbaou ggoni suaeceb a to ehortan ntod' sa it vene yuo kithn ursoitt i. .
Itghn yuo eht is, it tohrw. Atnh 'yolul nihkt, oemr eolv rroyw uyo nto'd olyrfseu eenv. .
Eieevdbl ed-ll--oae8syrf tnt'idd oasitipsnd kiel your yuo yuo. .
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Oyu ehadt susge i uyo rtied ryev hs,sui yplc,ubil ti. Eftar shuis opsh eht hte eecsaub tenw nera nsdolmca'd ot uyo tath. .
Uy,o sa fro onos no hktci as engla a lli' utp maek acn i trfae osme etcsloh wons aerl i. Acn i sola >(: me ihtw arlnuyoltiv rboguth teh llsit gnleo,oc eerh becaseu i icnes ehyt rehe it not'd ti mslel elsl.
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And dgoo aws ,aylslt 19. Rsefdni ta oyu 19 wen 8 meda. Oto lkei eesl eyth did on neo uoy elhepd. N,ow 23 is ceslo 22 yuer'o. Nda ytr iltls roey'u nkmiag orueslfy ilef wne ilslt n,isfedr oivepmr butao to sleslecu 'yoreu. Ta'hst lubslipae ntghi erve ese ubt mtos ltfe, mcuh rvey oyl'ul 'eouvy the.

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