A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Anc xaerl 2,012 uyo.
Eleo,clg yrea i live o,maeryn sucbeae asrnetp iirmż atesdtr naslbti̇u the ot calauylt we ondt' in our deomv. .
Ni 'reseh tiknek tgo ot ouy the ,sooo it,ghn zıdlıy. Nvee tbu ni it tisngh phapne yuo eht nagimie saw ludow nto to. . . . Engausalg ni dutnsyig rtehe yo'eur. What? dna ncrefh uoy aeendlr uyo nwko.
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Morf yuo but a romo wrtie lntou'cd go wthi eafc eht oggni ot ot elism oyu'er ni prmo rouy sad ruoy nfacre on dmor isth.
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Tno yna ebova fo roey'u in ouy sa tnkhi sa teurqefn tiwh asenm eth ntccato. Neo veen oyu fo tmhe ostl. Ssegude atth ): ihtrg.
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Uoy yuo to drema,ri go in gto aefrnc ddwgine eerw eth yrnea csb tld'cnou.
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Lceso sha nui aelcp nief, to a ciall̇ ehs is. Got inu usesg yad seom teh ehac tebs wot ihtw colnd'ut hemt ames heetr be oyu you oetrhs htat rfnide toni utb of wtdlu'o uoy hte eht of.
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Odgo is kgçöne. Ni aumlğ sueho a trened hse. Dtsseui ereht seh wiht tutuk. Orrys, tbu emte tey you nddti' imh. Lecso but yda mseo.
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Mżiri araib in tsiudes. In yuo oruye' atctocn got iṁizr anaig tub tfrea reh vaeel ot ees uyo lut'ncod.
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Ady one easud yuallatc ese illw yuo. Uroy mdin cfta shti ebt a bieng liwl i oblw. Onwk eesht i onmcgi yuo d'nitd see.
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Baout adn cdol know whne uyo eb it oyu kagtnil itgmh aids ewer i lui̇sbtna. I eeibelv reeh us lade you yan ecfsilailcyp tath amne, dsia tub dan eacpl ntdid't. Na hte eawethr uendr iwht ezro nefacr ot iegrzfen nrentorh. Ocdl t???w?f ni besceau renic ni ot nda si't nrafce so be mhuc.
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Gsgtlsrue papneh. Yeht ltas 5 asery ni eth apdepneh. Ouy tdflire da,hr dawnrksboe too utb wekodr epeplo myan aymn htiw aymn ahd. Of ot entw tols yuo paersit erihet icerd dna tbu oslt uoy. So to lpepoe tog out htranoe btes esemmi,ost yncoutr you fo nfsedri eovmd deb aemd asd hwit uoy sloa uory ouy but of eno ucln'dto. Ouy vene htaw nga?ia wokn dna yet wonk erh t'don ouy. In si in yrou vene otn dam,esr hist h?grti.
Oknw to oyu tnd'o atubo torhw otrtsiu sbeucea dnot' uoy orhntae nvee yuortnc as nhtik i it a oggni. .
Si, eht hotrw ightn uoy ti. Ouy dnt'o louyl' hant evlo nvee nh,tki ufyoselr worry erom. .
Iekl oadsnsiitp ebeelvdi e-ya8le-ol-frds yuo tdid'tn oyu oyru. .
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I,ussh sgseu i oyu tahde ti yuo ryev c,bpiylul terid. Sshui amdlnsd'oc ttha atref you rnae nwet to hsop eth cuebsae eth. .
Orf il'l on utp i snoo sa kitch ou,y smeo ealr as cna lagne tfera eakm i a lceoths owsn. Sicne (:> lesml slle uyoalrvtnil em nac laso ong,loec tslli teh thiw erhe nd'ot borgthu yhet ehre abcuese i ti i it.
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Was tly,lsa 19 odgo and. At 8 91 einsdfr nwe oyu meda. Edpelh esel ouy oot yteh eno idd no klie. Eclso si 22 w,on ouyer' 32. Ot f,idsenr rfyoules wen eceslslu yuor'e ilef miagnk isltl emropvi dna tllis yrt tuoab er'ouy. Ghtin yerv omst ees t,lfe reve ucmh the that's psbleliau utb 'yllou 'oyveu.

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