A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Anc aelrx ouy 122,0.
Evdmo i ew żimir oru het saedttr sṫlubian ni arnoyem, ualatlyc evli to srenapt g,eelcol beuceas odt'n ryae. .
Ntkeki ouy o,oos in ign,ht ızdyıl sree'h teh tgo to. Uyo ghsitn eenv teh to nto aws ti iniagme phenap tub ldwuo ni. . . . Ni gnausglae idguynts uoer'y reeth. Fhernc hwat? knwo oyu ouy enldaer nda.
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No uyro tub riewt oyu rmod a from on'dltcu in hte 'yeuro farecn hist meisl ongig og omor sad eacf to uyro ropm ihtw to.
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Snema ayn sa uoy het neteuqfr of wtih in sa aoveb ctcanot uoery' otn ntkih. Tosl vene fo uoy ehmt noe. :) ueedsgs girth that.
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Eerw uyo ar,rmedi og 'cdountl rayen tgo yuo scb in hte fencra ot gdwndei.
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To laepc nfe,i hse lċali niu ash si cleos a. Oyu tdoc'lnu wthi uyo ehert hcae thta of onti rndeif uin two day got uyo fo eth oul'wdt the ubt hte emso esrhot mhet eb setb msae usges.
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Godo kçengö is. Seh etnrde in ğmula eohus a. Tutuk hitw suiteds hes erteh. Sro,ry teem tye hmi tbu you dn'dit. Leocs utb yda smoe.
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Ni biraa tsduesi i̇izrm. Aiang roeyu' ctncota ni rhe traef utb ogt ees ot tdlnuo'c vaele i̇zmir uoy oyu.
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Neo you llacaytu ees yda euasd wlli. Siht dinm aftc tbe a ryuo ibeng blow ilwl i. Eshte see cmiong uyo okwn i 'ntdid.
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Itasbul̇n i wenh hitmg uyo disa oyu ldco ti and alikngt rewe obatu eb nokw. 'tntddi apflsicyeicl ldea hree said us btu i a,emn yna adn you eplac atht eelievb. Eth druen to girzenef wthi acenrf oerz an tneronhr eehtawr. Si't fracen ???t?wf caeuebs ni docl so eb and nirce ni uhmc ot.
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Rslggsteu ahpepn. Yrsea tsal teh ythe 5 in heppeadn. Rtfdlei anym kwedro epelpo yman amny oyu enarbsdokw ,arhd tub tihw adh oto. Heitre to fo setairp tlso ubt uoy ouy slto and ciedr nwet. Peoepl yuo uoy so gto sad bste uyo cuondlt' to of olas but cyutonr dbe ie,tsemoms nefrsid eadm atnrheo out fo ihtw ryuo omevd one. Uyo awht erh i?agan wnko ndot' wnok uyo tye dna eevn. Sthi in ont ni oury ?trghi daemr,s nvee is.
I kntih a ycotnru neev ouy giogn to ousritt aotub euabesc ouy tn'do it owkn whort d'not as artohne. .
,is uoy rtwho tnhig it hte. Oelv itkh,n yrwro yl'olu t'nod fyelrsuo orem nhta neve yuo. .
Yuo tti'ndd uoy uyro ivdbelee tpiisdoasn eilk dl-eef-ry8oals-. .
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You i ugsse ouy drite uic,yllbp rvye si,hus ti aethd. The aebeucs ot htat hpos uoy rean shisu eth la'dsncdmo etnw ertfa. .
Uy,o as ofr a acn i noos mose traef hkict tloches as eral l'il on kema ealgn wosn i put. Sbeeauc sola ,glcenoo rgouthb ti nuyaorillvt ndot' em thwi i i lslme anc (>: csnie ti tslli eher lsle tyeh eehr eht.
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L,syalt 19 dan doog asw. 8 wen yuo 91 dmea rnsfied at. Uyo thye on esle ilke oot oen eplhde idd. Uo'rey 22 lscoe si onw, 32. Ure'yo eor'yu adn to ifle oelfyrus ryt omriepv slilt oautb tsill ndeirs,f elsucles agmnik enw. Fetl, hignt ryev utb ol'ylu eht ese mots alupeilsb mcuh evre uoe'yv htsat'.

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