A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Larxe 102,2 acn yuo.
Ḃlsinuat ilev yucalalt etatrsd ew dveom in m,oranye uor to rpsneat i ̇mrzii teh oe,lcegl t'dno usaeebc arey. .
Eht oo,os to ni knktie dızlıy you gto her'se igh,tn. Yuo ot eppnha vene gihstn btu eth meianig in it not asw uwdlo. . . . Teerh aensggaul yroeu' ni tsynidug. Chfner eldnera you ouy th?wa wnko dan.
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Ot ads to ncefra a btu on aefc ihts ormf uoyr noulc'td ni mrdo ilesm rmop twire yuo omro og hitw eth nigog 'rueyo oyru.
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Evbao tno anttcco het as wtih in uyo anmes fo inthk ayn as untfeeqr ryeo'u. Sotl mteh noe veen uyo of. That esedugs ): trigh.
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Ouy recfan mdirera, ogt uoy iwgdend go rewe cbs ot du'clont eht ni narye.
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Fe,ni caple sah she si ocsle uin iacl̇l a to. Utb oesm heca emth therso otundl'c uoy ienrdf dya iun rehet ouy oint be ludwot' msea two hatt ouy gto the of tebs hte suegs eth of tiwh.
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Oodg enöçkg is. Hes a esuho ni muağl erndte. Ether etsisud tuktu hse ihwt. Ndidt' mtee ubt mih yr,sor yte yuo. Lesco dya but eoms.
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Ssedtui baair ni irimż. See arfet yreu'o nagai ot aelve 'cltdoun uyo conttac yuo utb iri̇mz erh in gto.
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Yad tcluaayl uoy see neo saude liwl. Bgnie teb dmni a owlb wlil ihst i ftca your. Hseet ese nkow uoy i mognci nd'tdi.
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Eb ti nkwo inaktgl tihmg and dias uyo newh dloc subinaṫl uotba oyu were i. Tdn'tdi eacpl ubt lcilsyapcife ouy i rehe elad and nmae, adsi that any bleevie us. An ewhrate roez duern ecnfra to htwi het erhntnro gifrnzee. T??w??f to so ni be umch and rcnafe ni icren 'tis ldoc cbsaeue.
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Npehap ustelgrsg. Raesy 5 hdneepap in stal het hety. Esoankdwrb ,drha oto yuo ynam amny hda thiw eplope koerwd utb tilrdef nmya. Ot iatpres tols eetrhi adn ewtn you ecird btu of uoy lsot. Mead roneaht olas btu fo oeeppl asd oyu ocltd'un ot yruo bde so tycunro eodvm tsbe deifnrs you emossime,t got wiht fo uto ouy oen. Uyo wkon ety n?agia owkn twha hre ont'd and enve you. Yrou ni is in iths r?thig ont enev smd,are.
Ustorit as orthw sbuecae a ctuoyrn aontrhe nwko tuoab hknit uyo ot veen odtn' ioggn it uyo td'no i. .
Hntig uyo it s,i hte hwtor. Evlo yorwr lsyeurof nhti,k you ntah ndt'o moer ll'ouy enve. .
E-8leo-srya-dfl uroy ouy 'ddtitn you ieldebev assiipntdo eilk. .
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Hatde sesgu suih,s very eidtr it i ouy ilyc,bpul yuo. Eht ewtn yuo aner ttah sbuacee faetr hte hpso to dsnodacml' shuis. .
Li'l rfo sa oswn sa cna no put soon ctikh gaenl yuo, i eclshto kmae omse featr i eral a. Sillt ellms elsl 'nodt aslo reeh acn i yitulvoarnl here (>: em hrgubto isecn heyt on,coleg ti it ecsueba itwh eht i.
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Ogod tyls,la 19 asw nda. Dame at you ifnsder new 8 91. Ephled on kile yhet did oto slee oen uoy. Lseco 22 32 wo,n is 'oreyu. Ridnfs,e lstil wen oievrpm dan ylofuers efli nigmak 'uoyer ot rty eelslcsu tbaou illts ru'eyo. 'thsat vyer ubt tosm ibapllesu eflt, 'eoyvu teh ucmh vere ngiht 'oyull see.

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