A letter from November 5th, 2019

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, hi!!! its me, hope you're doing well. are you still into shows? art? did you get out of ur house? how is amias?do u have a gf? or friends even lmao when did u quit maccas? do u have a normal job? have you ever sold art? are u on meds?

Epilogue

over 1 year later

hi fifteen year old me!!! i’m 21 now . i’m doing much better than you were. being a teenager is so hard but you’ll get through it :)

i’m not...

Yrou rea yuo wkro aercre stlil tn!!totgoi!a peoh ot teask pourd speuru ni of me e!!itm art ngryti up and into ryaell yuo somt i oitn wossh eonyr,ma a of era. .
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Seielrad to ndee nd’idt fo tge i nda uto dtind’ omhe i i. Evha ouy myiafl aergt a. Etmh novgli ot rea are adn uyo prptivueso nad and eavh ykcul they anrcgi. .
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Prat ofr rteiw het tib aherstd hsat’t hte si tish to me. Os os im’ oyrrs. Hects ni llet vahgin upml hte uoy arhott and htthugo ot at a ihst of my seth’er. Masia waay peasds. Eh rohmaaocpyiytd tpihcrehorpy dah. Tincodnio a s’it ethar. Teh i dgoo in idse he os t’ndo tkihn newh eh wsa ftel ipna lyno as’tht. Ta iunwdp aywa eht a psniags of ifanupl saaim of scta ot ’ndto dt’no fcrolayotmb vaeh lierepigv tlso khtin hitwotu dfesferu rteih oehm btu ognl dtahe i. He on sedohw gissn. And opsdsuep aiorcl eodabebbeao to uoy see erwe go tsfleiva and ot a. Teehr efatr saw syda royu ti t21s iryadtbh. Keow to pu eth rloof no uoy him ngibe daed. He the egilespn rflyboocmta tngih yruo bofeer no chtes aws. Inkth he usdden tkcata a i herat dah. Tonionicd sih the he vhea if gdeerrsspo sffduere in aveh it odluc usodhl awy. He utb ’dtnid tnhik i. Adn ewnt btlyaofocrm elvod eh. You welhi oury fro tiequ wnot’ ayok eb lrwod ti dan bokre a. ’luyol dcraes aevh oyu most tath elfe eth veer. A antw egt enw even yuo otn’d hutogh to ouy cta. Wlli lwil tbu a anaobnd adn yuo taht stiknte lliw a lliw aryst veol itetngg adn ni oen eh reh efde uyo cat nyde llfa erh whti saps. Rhe you pkee nema rhe dna ilwl ettoed. Ever mots esh esewstte ttiken the ovnlgi and si. Ti wlil hse wlli dentos’ nad emak but saaim epalecr it nihgtno sieera veer. Illw vlei to kame nto ti in hse rfae soeipslb. .
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Rea rriefildgn deicext eltl ma to nda i doclu eerv od haev bit uyo tyhe hte kas tesb uyo a tish rfo :) i r!fge!din!l!ir. Yuo ways eb iwll ihknt a drlwo in poen elvo oclud etatr uoy pu ddin’t yuo aetrted ehyt owehl dan ewn fo. Oyu aehpipr oshw msee off nduoar wlli oytepr woh ryeoneev nda wetir llte umch how ouy and elvo eyht ouy uoy uoy they and hcum lliw mhet. Osyulefr ese iwll oyu rfo ti. For ma i xdeiect you os. .
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Heav a of !meth!! !fdnsri!!e i olst ayut!c!l!al wfe.
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Adn saacmc in trtas ouy iuqt 0221 igokwnr in 2220 rddgeefianl at. Rof ihgnt a is ouy it tager uchs. And dan terga a adn reurlycnt tnha no anym noindectf to tooatt tohlcse gte a my nremaag embeco yuo erev eplpoe os aeritnpcpe ynam you rmoe im’ beemoc bmcoee a so olco wya etme uyo !!e!b dan ldcuo 2ic enkw. Neevr utb hda ev’i otnsirepptoiu ldos vie’ tra. You … tbu gvingi ayaw gtnihs lnivgo feer up edn for. Ot is on you :,) psesrriu hcwih laybbopr.
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Addh leta ear isumta tge no i’m oyu to sgideando pecsusedt in ahve whit ylhigh !msde dna 2102. Kesma it essen. Rsue wuold ’mi ouy grseedia. .
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Adn i owrk i os vhea at am i igrtinw heva o!g!! to sresotcum.
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I mi nda loev fo yuo udpro oyu. 3< tgnsih cminog ear greta :).