A letter from December 4th, 2018

Hi, if you still use the same lame email (which will surprise me) then hi... if you don't remember this then I don't blame you. this is a letter to you from me... well you but from the past from year 2018 to be exact. when you get this you're supposed to turn 20 (or 21) and when I wrote this I was 13. I have a few questions! First off, how have you been? when I wrote this I had a deep depression and anxiety combination, so I hope you're over all this and gotten help or at least gotten used to it. I am sure I'm pansexual (am I still?) but still questioning my gender, have you figured it out yet? have you found the perfect friends with who you can be yourself? and have you found that special someone who supports you? do you still live in your childhood home (where i live currently) or have you moved? are you still a doormat or nah (I hope the later)? have you finally shown the world how amazing of a person you are? I hope you aren't insecure anymore and have grown from that little person hiding inside to a really independent and beautiful human being. I hope you've done something in your life and live happily. i hope you've been through a few heartbreaks and many disappointment's because that's healthy. do you still draw? I hope you do and maybe even made some progress and use it for good (like on your job) on daily basis. I hope feel needed and loved not just like an extra person who would better fit six feet (3 meters) underground. I hope you and Micki have an healthy relationship and that she's doing well, because even if I never say it out loud i'd cut of my heat for her. I hope mom and dad are healthy and doing good. I hope you don't anymore feel like you need to fit in, because you're an amazing individual. I'll probably come up with even more things I want to tell you after I hit 'send' but oh well I can always write you another letter. still I really hope you're good, Love you. from past you (2018)