A letter from June 12th, 2018

Dear FutureMe, I am going into high school this year. I am quitting band and moving on to golf, so I can grow in it and get a scholarship. I weigh 206 pounds at age 14. Isn’t that disappointing!!! I am trying to get in shape, so I started the keto diet with my mother. Things are not going to well. But on the other hand, i started fostering dogs and cats as a hobby. I am saving up for whatever I will need in the future I guess. I am just worried I won’t be successful. I hope you are good and happy, because that is not exactly the case for me.... I stopped wearing my scoliosis brace because my dermatagraohic eurticaria has dramatically gotten worse. I also stopped taking my meds for it though, but I haven’t told anyone, and I won’t. Life is tough. I have a lot of people on my mind, specifically my friend Tiffany miller. She has anorexia, even though she is the most beautiful girl you will ever see. I am honestly kinda worried about her. She is ending streaks on Snapchat, and doesn’t text me often. He attitude towards her parents and I have changed, but not for the better. I am such a disappointment. My brother even nicknamed me “cupcake”. Why would I ever let myself get this way??? You probably don’t know how hard this is for me. I don’t even fit in my brace if I tried. I wear XXL and it is embarrassing!! The whole golf thing is going to help me get in shape, I just wish I never reached this weight. Before I go, I wanted to ask you a question... Did you ever get to talk to a kid named Devin Hanbery? I am just wondering, because I kinda liked him since 6th grade. But my best friend liked him in 8th grade, so I was too nervous to talk to him. Her name was Elizabeth Curtis. Anyways.... Marissa Macias was one of my closest friends in he 7th grade, but then in 8th grade, I realized that all she did was one-up me the entire year. “Im taller than you”” I’m skinnier”. I honestly don’t care about her anymore. She just needs attention, and I don’t want it to come from me. Oh, and did Collin naughton move back yet from Colorado? I have just been wondering how he has been I haven’t seen him since maybe 4th grade. I hope you are well and happy in finding out who you really are as a person. I love you deep down in my heart, and don’t forget that god doesn’t create lifes hardest battles for the toughest soldiers, he creates the toughest soldiers through life’s hardest battles. I wish you luck for the future, and my goal weight is 120. Oh, and one more thing, I’m sorry about Sugarbear. He died of cancer he was too 14 years old. I know you miss him, I miss him too I was the only one to go with my father to the vet. I said my last goodbye on April 17, 2018 at 10:02 pm. He had a good life and I don’t want you to feel guilty. That dog has been with us forever, and I guess it was just his time to go. I will never forget him though, at least I hope..... ok, my final words to you. I hope that you read this letter, and look back on life. But don’t look back to see the opportunities you might have missed, promise me that you will only have looked back to see how far you have gotten. I truly do love you, I wish you well.....,goodbye.