A letter from December 29th, 2017

Dear FutureMe, Dear FutureMe, Writing this a year from now. Well, this year will come to an end, alam ko you had a roller coaster year. Marami kang natutunan, napagdaanan and such. A year ago, I've dreamt of a lot of things for this year, 2018. First, Make my practice teaching memorable, enjoyable and kahit nakakastress e okay lang. I hoped that dahil sa PT na to e mas mamahalin mo pa tong field na napili mo, pero okay lang. Kung nabwisit, nainis at kung may masama mang nangyari or uncomfortable ka sa mga kasama mo or lalong gumulo mga desisyon mo sa life, I want you to know na okay lang. Another thing is make your demo the best and make you believe yourself more. I know kaya ka nainspire din sa course mo na yan is because you've seen a lot of STs nun during their demos. I know you are really ready and you've work hard for that. I know na every time na may makikita kang dapat iimprove to your way of teaching, ginagawa mo. I'm so proud of you. Pero if ever your demo wasn't went well or kinabahan ka man or hindi nagparticipates students mo or umiyak ka man sa kanila kasi they don't care or di mo man nagawa ang best mo, tandaan mo, okay lang yan. You've work hars for the past 4 years of your college life, lagi ka mang anxious at loner noon, nagawa mo pa ring iconquer yun. Kahit may masama mang sinasabi yung iba sayo nun cause they felt that it is unfair. I know by this time, graduate ka na. Kahit wala mang with flying colors, na I know minsan mong pinangarap, congrats pa rin. Lodi ka. Pero kung hindi pa, okay lang yan. Bata ka pa, di nauubusan ng time para mag aral. I dreamt din na sana after graduation, or before pa mag graduation ay makahanap na ako ng trabaho lalo na sana kung related to teaching, I know natupad mo yun. Kahit saan mang private school yan, kahit di masyadong masaya kasama collegues mo jan or kahit nakakainis ang sistema at ang mga estudyante, alam kong kinaya mo at ineenjoy mo. Alam kong nag uumpisa nang magkaron ng malinaw na daan yung buhay mo pero if ever na nagfailed ka sa mga demos at sa mga interview at pag aaply mo, gaya ng dati, I just wanted you to know that you are smart and you have a lot of assets in you. Deserve mo ang mas malaking break. Mas maganda ang future na paparating. Dont stress yourself too much and wag sana mawala tiwala mo sa sarili mo. We both know na kaya mo yan. You are worthy, every piece of you. And ofcourse, alam kong ang tagal mo na sanang gustong gustong paghandaan yan pero di mo pa magawa gawa lahat dahil sa kadahilanang tinatamad kang magreview hahaha I know as of now, you are already a LPT. May LPT na yang name mo na kahit you feel ashame noon e proud na proud ka na ngayon. Alam ko deserve na deserve mo yan. I know you earned it with all your capabilities and belief in yourself. Dabest ka talaga pero if ever you did not make it, please, don't be too sad for that. Alam kong sumugal ka because gusto mong malaman kung kakayanin mo ba or kung hanggang saan ang kaya mo. I know you are very much willing to retake it dahil you still believe that you can. That God will provide. Ano mang mangyari, please do remember na okay lang yan. Part yan ng life natin. Well, as of now. Sana natagpuan mo na si 'thrill' ng buhay mo. Sana masaya ka sa kanya. Sana tinutulungan ka nya para maging better na tao. Pero kung wala pa man sya sa mga panahong to, wag kang mag alala or maiingit sa mga tao sa paligid mo or masyadong maashame na wala pa sya. Nagreready pa sya nang bongga para sayo. I hope na conquer mo na lahat ng ayaw mo. I hoped you became more comfortable with people. Mas naging sociable at mas lalong sumaya at natutong mahalin at pahalagahan pa ang buhay, pero if ever you are still the same person a year from now, I am still proud of you. You did well. Ikaw talaga yan. Kailangan molang mahalin yung sarili mo at kung sino ka man talaga kaya I'm so proud of you. This year is a tough one pero umpisa pa lang to. Kahit di man sana matupad lahat ng plinano mo, sana manatili kang masaya. Love, You, a year ago