Zach Hicks, pizzzaaahhh!

I hope the future Zach Hicks has his head less stuck up his ass. No, I am not kidding. you are acting like a complete asshole lately. you should be happy i am taking the time to write this letter right now. fucking douchebag. alright. i'll be nice. even tho i wish i could kick you repeatly in the balls. but you know i would never do that. In case you forgot. I told you yesturday, a year ago today that I never want to speak or have any desire to communicate with you again. as i am writing this I wonder if we ever made up. but i wonder if you are still with Trisha? has Dennis been shipped out or does he have a date to be shipped out? what is Vanessa doing? Did kyle find another 12 year old girl to fuck? are Josh and Audrey still 'happily' married. Did Doug lose weight? Did Dustin move out of his parents house? are you still working at the Tire Hut? Did I ever tell you that I wrote this letter? Will this letter ever actually make it to your eyes? and if you are reading this and we still arn't talking... i need you to do one thing for me. i need you to contact me and i need you to send me a message via anyway possible just say "I got it." but don't expect anything back. I can be a real bitch and hold a grudge so.. you never know. I'll let you in on a little story. Jae and I were sitting talking a few days ago about your relationship with Trisha. How life changes during these times of going up and how it is expected that you make mistakes grow from them and become a more wise individual. and he laid it out in a kind of werid way that i thought i should tell you.. right now. today in 2009. just to remind you i am righting this from 2009. anyways. right now. you are in the forrest and I can see you in that forrest exploring and finding new adventures while all of us are yelling for you to get the fuck out of the forrest cause you never know when a bear will come eat you and someday you'll come out of the forrest a better person. Everyone has to take the time to be in the forrest and look around and explore but sometimes it is difficult for the people around to you watch the bear come closer and closer. in case you forgot. i told you yesturday, a year ago today that i never want to speak to you again. as i am writing this i wonder if we ever made up. i can picturing me calling you to tell you to check your email cause i never forget when i do shit like this. but i wonder if you are still with Trisha? has Dennis been shipped out or does he have a date to be shipped out? what is Vanessa doing? Did kyle find another 12 year old girl to fuck. are Josh and Audrey still 'happily' married. Did Doug lose weight? Did Dustin move out of his parents house? are you still working at the Tire Hut? Did I ever tell you that I wrote this letter? Will this letter ever actually make it to your eyes? and if you are reading this. i need you to do one thing for me. i need you to pick up the mobile device that you are now using. and i need you to send me a message via anyway possible just saying "I got it." especially if we still arn't talking. but don't expect anything back. I can be a real bitch and hold a grudge so.. you never know. the forrest is a fun place to be. but you cant live there forever. and, idk if i'll be there when you come out of this proverbial forrest. During that talk we also made guesses on the dates that you guys would break up: August 14th, Jan. 12th, March 10th. I wonder if i won on any of them. you are a wonderful person zach. you care about the people in your life with every fiber of your being. i know you do. i know it hurt you to tell me about your relationship with her and you could of handled it a lot better than you did. but that was in the past. i'm not jealous of Trisha. I never have been. never will be. cause personally i know that i am better than her. and no matter how much you say that i am judging someone that i have never met before. i have no desire to meet her. i'm sure she is a good person. i would expect nothing less from you. but she is a slut and that is what i am sticking with. maybe a year from now you both have proved me wrong. but i just dont think i am wrong on this one. anyways. I wish that you could see how hurt I am from the opposite end of the spectrum. the night before we went out to dinner (you know the dinner you told me about trisha) i made a list of reasons why you and i would be perfect together. Never intending for you to know about it i wrote it in my journal hoping that someday i was able to look back on those reasons and realize that the reasons that we got together were the reasons that we stayed together. granted we both know that this didn't happen. but i thought that i would share this piece of my journal and my heart with you, today, because as much of an asshole i think you are right now. you derserve to know how i feel, as of 2009. my entry: (6/21/09) I was listening to: here is gone and counting crows by the goo goo dolls Zach Hicks: (I think, I might love this guy) reasons: he is funny, like really funny. I can trust him, he will always be there to protect me he would be a good father, he loves coaching that baseball team him and i would go on wonderful adventures, even if it was just for a joy ride. he is sexy time. he would never hurt me. did i mention he was tall, dark (not really) and handsome. he is content just chilln' on the couch with me, and he softs me. he is mom approved, and has met my family. he has an amazing memory, and he is good at math. sometimes, he touches the small of my back. i like that. he understands my unique personality. it's pretty unique. -----(next page)----- ten things i want to tell Zach if we get married... someday. #1. your farts are nasty. go to the bathroom. #2. You look sexy with a beard and glasses #3. That red car is a P.O.S (I hope you got rid of that thing) #4. I've loved you since day one (do you still have that card?) #5. Your hugs are the most comforting thing in the world. #6. You are the only person in my life (besides my mother) who has always been there for me, thick and thin. #7. Shiny Penis #8. Go to college (god.damn.it) #9. please never stop being my best friend.ever. #10. I'll love you, forever. i dont know if i will ever forgive you for breaking my heart. last night you said things that cannot be taken back weither you want them to be taken back or not. alicia: "We last spoke on the phone back in june you have had the decensy to return my phone calls since. friday you texted me and said that we need to talk sometime.. it's Tuesday.. i'm thinking that you just dont give a fuck... is this some sort of game where i am suppose to sit around waiting for you to pick up... idk how to play... we don't normally play games zach. what kinda friendship is this?" zach: "i'm not playing fucking games. ive had a busy fucking week, my best friend just left, and im tired from work. Get off my balls. When im home by myself, without her, and can dedicate ample attention and time that the discussion deserves, i'll call you, until then, calm the fuck down." alicia:" Fuck off. dont even fucking bother. dont ever talk to me like that. i'm not sure if getting your dick wet is making you text me like this. dont ever call or text me again." Zach: "youre rediculous" alicia: "you recieved the response you deserved dont ever call or text me again. your a drunkn' asshole. The End." zach: "Go fuck yourself; you say such stupid shit sometimes. You've been disrespectful to me since this whole thing went down. Now I know it wasn't the easiest thing, but when you say stupid shit it makes it worse. Im a druken asshole? Doesnt make sense, im sober right now. and you keep making a point about how the sex has changed me blah blah blah, you act as if i am some shallow fuck dating her only for sex. I like her, so this jealousy bull shit needs to end. youre even disrespecting her and you've never met her. i just dont know what to say. i wanted to do what i could to let this die down and keep being friends, bur every bull shit text message drives me farther and farther away. i've been nothing but nice to you these past four years regardless of circumstances. Obviously you cannot reciprocate that, so go to college, do some growing up, then contact me. " I'm sure you remember what I said from there. today, July 15th/July 16th now. I miss you. I don't know if I can have you in my life knowing that you are fucking the shit out of someone. As I sit at home every night and literally cry. Don't look at it as a sign of desperation I've had dates since you've told me you were seeing Trisha. but i dont love these guys. I went on one date and I literally compared the guy to you the entire night. now, don't get all hot and horny on me. it was a pretty bad date. =]- hee hee. I don't regret the things that i have said or sent to you. They were all things that i was feeling at the time. however, i wish i would of a lot of it sooner. because of this situation, i don't know if we will ever be able to have a shot at a relationship. I'm not going to lie you hurt me pretty badly. I'll recover, but always know that i could be the one that got away.