How's my life?

Dear FutureMe, Hello there. How much have I changed in the time lapse? Right now, I'm planning on being married to a very wonderful and kind man. Yes, I know, I'm only 17. But I didn't say married right now, now did I? So Am I married? I know it has been something I have dreamt of since I was a girl. You know the dreams, to be swept away by a charming and lovely man who appreciates me for everything I am. TO love me and protect me and be a believer and follower of God, just as I believe in God. How is my life? Do I have any childen? At the moment, I'm worried about my health. Can I laugh about that now, or can I even have children? I promised to both love myself, my husband, and God if I am unable for health reasons to have children. Have I kept that promise? Have I taken a drink of alcohol, despite my promise to him? What of my teeth? What has happened? Did I give in and let them break my jaw, and do bone graphs and all the ridiculous things the doctors said that they wanted? Where am I living? What kind of things do I enjoy? As a high school student, I truly believe that whatever I endeavor, I will be successful and Happy. DId I marry Jacob? If not what happened to that? Right now we're arguing over words. His words hurt me, and my words hurt him. We are at a point where neither of us want to concede. How did that turn out? Have there been bigger fights since then? I mean, right now we're fighting, but I still love him with all of my small-ish heart. Yea, he's being a jerk, but I will get over that. How did things turn out between us, and our moms. They probably still hate each other, don't they? Right now, my father and I aren't speaking. I don't expect him to change. Yes, I will forgive him for being an abusive alcoholic and a very selfish and damaging person. But has he changed? IS he alive, or has he died from aids or alcohol poisoning? Not much would surprise me. I love him because I have to, and I wish that he had a desire to be in my life, but I will and can make it without him. Did he get invited to my high school graduation? Did he walk me down the aisle at my wedding? What of my family? How did my little sister turn out? My own mom predicted at 18 she would be dancing on tables.. IS she married.(of course not) So does she have everything she ever wanted.(of course not) How is her attitude? I expect she still only loves herself more than anyone else.. Has she changed.( Oh Lord, I pray so!) What of myself? Am i still socially retarded? Or do I have great friends to talk to and love me for who I am? Right now, I'm severely lacking in the friend department. They all quit on me. They all do things I don't approve of,or believe in. Not that I'm better than them, but it does make it impossible to make conversation, much less hang out. Well I'm sure there's a lot I forgot, but I'm sure the questions I did ask will promt more. SO to the future me, I hope that I still am living for God, and that I am happily either married or engaged. Love me