A letter from May 8th, 2015

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are good and all, how is everything going on right where you are? are you-me-us still living in Syria,Homs? i mean you're about to be 28 and lots of changes might have happened.. are you happy ? is life treating you right? are you a doctor yet? have you graduated ? you should have ( i hope) are you working? do you like medicine? cause from where i am.. am not really that into it .. am having a big problem studyin all of this shit.. i hope this will be fixed soon... am a third year med student now .. just thinking how everything would be by the time you will be reading this .. how is mom and dad you should tell them that you love them more often go now and kiss them hard and hug them for a while how is moshref? did he get married?i hope. lujain? she's been having problems with her husband ousama, did they get along? i wish so. had she had any kids? XOXO if yes,go bring them some gifts and tell them that you and i love them ❤ how is husam? is it better between you two guys? maybe not but let's hope for the best. now tothe hardest part how is nermeen? are you-me in love ? is ma2moun still in your life? i think i like him am afraid i love him :( am afraid that i might fall for him and then just lose him... i do really feel like pushibg him away, it would be easier! so much easier! suffering for couple of weeks ,instead of years. don't you think? god, i can't resist it.. wanting to be with him i already picture my self spending days and days with him hanging out together when he's so far away :( he's a smart, a sweethearted,a very sensetive and a super hamdsome guy. i hope he won't turn out to be an asshole. me and him we're talking for hours everyday . i love talking to him, i've known him for a month now, and it's been great .. part 1 XD