heyaaaaa :)

heya, bet you never remember writing this. but ... you did so :) readddd ... right now while im writing this is a couple of days after.. that work party ... currys xmas dwn arun view.. gd night after the party ;) god bet you'll cringe at that haaa :P its also college! nearly there ... got about 5 months to go! thank god for that lol then its the un well planned gap year!.. plan was to work from may till jan/feb to get money.. to go on a 3 month volunteer project.. god i wonder how it goes !! .. you'll know :) reflect on it ... look at the pics .. knowing me i'd av made an album!! by now (the plan) if all went well.. i should be a new clinical psychologist?? is that what happened? i hope so .. always had that aspiration !! do you enjoy it though?? cuz if not a doctorate an a degree will for sure get a job in something else in that sorta line!! i know ill never wanna do anything else.....revise it if its not what you want! life is only once please fufill it! omg how about the whole i hate relationships thing? hope thats changed .. im old now!! not gettin any younger ;) hopefully either got a husband .. or one in the makin by now!! kids? .. i know i always wanted to start a family at 21 but.. the 'plan' wouldnt hav worked with that.. but dont leave it to late if theres not one already.. you ALWAYS wanted to be a younger mum no matter what! and you always wanted 3 remember.. a boy first an then either two girls or a boy an a girl!! haa bet that didnt go to plan.. those bits never do aye :P just so you remember you at 17 .. life is good .. maybe not what ud think is good now.. but at the time u do :) jojo's got a baby on the way!! wonder how that pans out? ohh an we fallen out AGAIN. think this may be the last time? what elsee ... hmmmm ... well neils still bloody goin for it!!!!! grrrrr ... 3 years down the line!! but the police are working on it... wonder what happens to him? or if ill ever know?? wishing i was 18 .. bet you wish u were 18 again 2 lol its the palava of the whole I.D issue :P i can drive but no car :( scrimpin an savin for a new one ... god i hate my currys job although it brings in new fitties ;) hate relationships .. push everyone away that gets 2 close.. surely that must hav changed .. psychology .. must hav made u revise ur own probs? right now it goes... jojo, matt pullen, austin, matt crittall, ross, jay, rob, steve, chris bailey, lukey, chris best. >>> an still goin ;) .. why not? wonder what is now?! haaa well its 3 days till xmas.. you got mum tht lambrogini drivin experience.. the hand painted wine glasses, digital photo frame, book, made a photo album of different pics of each other..an stockin pressies of course :) hope that albums been updated as the years gone by.. if not do it as a suprise for her ay? dad? .. been about 2years now .. wonder if i'l be talkin to him yet? .. he was an arse .. but remember u only get 1 dad .. if that ones a crap one .. like urs .. so what! make sure i dont see him before he goes. if its already happened .. make sure u visit the grave. please for the old you. well best leave you now.. bet you got loads to do! hope this brings a smile :) wonder what ill be thinkin while readin it!? well only one way to find out .......