A letter from December 12th, 2013

Dear Des (25 year old version) Before you start reading this I'd like to wish you a happy birthday. This is my special gift to you. How much do you bet this will never get to you? how are you? I'm good if you were wondering. There's only 13 more days till Christmas, and its your first Christmas that you've had an 100% best friend. I'm so happy me and Makayla have been friends for this long. I hope your still best friends now. Are you? Your planning on going to college together you know? Did you? If you guys aren't friends, get off your *** and fix that ****. NOW! I don't care how "upset" you are. Fix it, she's been the greatest best friend ever. If she doesn't wanna be friends again, don't you dare give up. She's the biggest blessing in your life. I just turned 15 (a year I've been looking forward to in forever!) 3 days ago!! You've just turned 25. I honestly doubted this would make it to you. It was just something I thought I'd try. I want you to keep taking pictures, and if you've stopped you should try again. You really loved it, singing too. I hope that by the time you read this, you're still doing the things you love because you truly enjoy it. You have given so much dedication and energy into these things, so I wish that it all worked out for you in the end. I hope your happy doing whatever you do. I guess you'll stand by whatever you do, because even if you are not who I imagine now, I'll support you, because maybe who i'm imagining is someone else, and you are- well your not someone else, your me. If you're reading this now, I hope you're doing just fine. Right at this moment I'm trying to un-disable my I-pod and I'm listening to Rough Water by Travie Mcoy/ Jason Mraz. Right now, you have a lot of questions in mind. You still haven't got the proper closure that you wanted and you're still hoping that you will get it someday. By the time you read this, I hope your mind's already at peace. I hope you've learnt to let go of all the negative things that you once thought were good for you. Right now, you're still having a hard time accepting all the sudden changes that happened in the last couple of weeks. I know that time heals everything, and I hope that by the time you read this, time has already done the healing. After reading this letter, please take a moment to reflect and see how far you've gone. Maybe you're rolling your eyes, or laughing like a hyena, I don't know. But remember this: 10 years ago when you wrote this whole thing, these words meant a lot to you. I hope you have everything you want. I hope your happy. Ps- Remember to love yourself <3