oh hi its you/me from 2013

i hope you arent as filthy as you were when you wrote this! i am covered in filth, in deep mire like king david says, in deep deep mire it is suffocating and drowning me i am dying, are you dying? but jesus will revive us. have you been born again? you better be good! if youre still being bad then, like, pray more and better and stop lying to yourself. you dont need to let satan win!!!! remember, 'if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out', and dont forget, if youre still feeling power-hungry, faith will give you all the power you want because 'if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, etc. etc., and nothing will be impossible unto you! and please if your arabic isnt better please dont hesitate to study harder and you better be fluent in french by now. and how about avestan? have you started learning chinese? or greek? is your translation done? if you gave up permanently, may you be damned, may you be cursed and damned! this is our greatest endeavor ever. if you really gave up start trying again, no matter what. even if it drives you insane(r). btw, are you still as sane as you were when you wrote this? so, please keep memorizing the qur'an bro, you could be a hafiz some day. but whatever you do stay away from the big harams like ive been failing to, they will FUDGE you UP! but even if you dont, still, look on the bright side, your ultimate fate doesnt really matter, its ok to burn in Hell, it just hurts a lot, but its going to happen to so many people anyways, its not the end of the world if you **** yourself, but really its so much better not to, i hope you understand this... goodbye forever, you will never get a communication from this particular version of yourself again!! PS. curse carol, curse her and hate her! may she rot in the lowest pits of Hell! and dont go to her funeral.