Your Past Self

Dear FutureMe, Hey gurl. You've probably forgot you did this by now but hey, you found the link on that message board you used to visit (hopefully still visit)... towelpower.net (WhiteNoise, remember?). You dork! Remember overheardinnewyork.com? And opendiary.com? And theskinnywebsite.com? And perezhilton.com? Man... you were such a blogger/random site whore (maybe still are?). Well... right now the second term of your final semester of high school has just started. You failed your math mid-semester, just barely passed your physics mid-semester, are owning in calculus, and dropped chem. Remember Mr. Wills? God, he was a horrible teacher. Mr Simpson was WAY better. You missed him so much when you found out he left for NorKam. NorKam! Your audition for Calgary is in just over a week. You're pretty nervous because you're not sure University is the right place for you. You really want to go to New York and you really want some singing lessons because Idina Menzel is your idol and being on Broadway is your real dream. You're secretly thinking that you might take a year off, work and do ballet only at the Dance Gallery, then head on down to New York and attempt the agent/audition thing except you have no idea where to start and are sort of scared. Writing this email sort of started to freak you out because you've suddenly realized just how unprepared you are for life after high school. New York is really what you want to do but you're not entirely sure you can make it on your own. But you've always believed in yourself, no matter what others said. You've always followed your dreams and never let anyone else bring you down so don't be starting that now. I know you used to be unhappy with your body (and honestly you were sort of like 20lbs. overweight). I hope you've gotten that under control and have either A) got in shape to the body you want or B) learned to love yourself for who you are. Remember all your old friends? Shelby (Barkerville in the summer, did that ever happen?), Robert (was Prom okay? Did you stay friends or become something more or drift apart?), the Amanda's (how's Ferroh's baby? how's Hardie's nursing going? Is she still singing?), Mandi (cookies, rockband?), Julie (still crazy, depressed bitch?), Scott (is he making something of his brain?), Patrick (did he/is he becoming a doctor?), Mikayla (neighbours and yet you never hanged out... good job there!), the Meghan's. What about all the dance friends (Sarah, Chantal, Sheylse, Blair, Faylon, Megan, Naomi, Julia, Daniel, Michaela, and all the others... there were so many!)? Have you kept up? Is facebook keeping you all together or have you drifted apart. You should get on facebook (do you still go there?) and catch up on all the friends you haven't talked to in ages. If your plan came true you're probably in New York right now; hopefully on some Broadway show (is it Wicked? You loved Wicked! Do you still?) Your dreams were big back then and your plans a little shaky but you always believed in yourself and you should continue to. Hopefully you're doing what you always wanted or at least on your way. And hey, if whitenoise/towelpower is still around post this site to them and this email. Maybe the new members (if they still get new members!) will be able to do what you did with this site. Hopefully you get something out of this email future-self! And remember; follow your heart and your dreams! xoxox past-Courtney P.S. Did you remember to pay miles (from towelpower.net) for your leotard? Hope you did because you promised you would! (And the shipping itself cost something ridiculous, like over $40!) Oh, and did you ever get you driver's license you lazy, not-learning-to-parallel-park girl!