A letter from the past

Dear FutureMe, Right now, I'm in love with every guy I meet. By now, I'm sure you realized that none of these guys mattered in the end. You were just confused. But that's okay. It's okay to make mistakes. It's okay to learn from personal experience, and see for yourself what kind of person you want to be. At this point, I've slept with three guys. And honestly, I don't really regret any of them. I regret the way they ended, but we had a good jump together. BUT I have learned that keeping my pants up is THE BEST DECISION to make with any new guy. WAITING to see if he's going to stick around long enough to deserve you is the best idea. I've been hurt A LOT by guys who decided they didn't want to wait until I was ready. But this made me realize that I am even more of a beautiful person for going through this hurt and rejection. I learned how to say no when it mattered. It has been one of the hardest lessons I have ever had to learn. Simply because I have low self-esteem, and the attention I get from guys helps me to love myself. And when a guy rejects me, I somehow reject myself. But I am BEAUTIFUL, and intelligent, and funny, and amazing. That's you, girl. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. And if you've learned nothing else in life, it's that life moves on. Even after your heart has been broken. Say hello to my future for me. Love you, Past Me. Samantha