i wrote this four months ago...<3 emily

dear dave, i hope this email finds you well. today is march 18th, 2007 and it is 1:06 am. i am sending you a timecapsule email that will be, hopefully, sent to you on july 18th, 2007. oh yeah, and this is emily, btw. i do not know where you are now or what you are doing, or where i am. all i know is what just happened. you broke up with me. the reason i am sending this to you is because i want to remind you, really how much of an amazing person you are. because although we broke up, you did it in a way that made the pain wash away as quickly as it came. you did not do it because u dont like me, you did it so that there isnt pressure for us to do physical stuff. at first, i didnt understand, because before tonight, i have never been in a relationship with a guy that didnt involve pure love that was only friendship. and you explained this all to me through deep crying sobs on my part. you were patient, understanding and sorrowful. i can never express this orally, but you will never really know how much it meant to me that you did not just leave me there lying wounded. you explained to me how, and why, as far as you knew. you fixed me. you are trully, completely, an amazing person. just being your friend is as good, maybe even better, than being your girlfriend. i have known pain because of you, no doubt, but what i have known more is myself. you helped me discover who i really was. and i thank you a million times over for being the wonderful guy you are that made me feel loved, special, and like i could change the world. i wanted to send this in case we fall out of touch. because i never want that to happen. if for some reason, we havent spoken in a while, please, call me. (847 651 2686) talk to me. if i did something and we arent friends anymore, call me anyway. you promised we would be friends, but u also said that you cant keep a promise without hurting someone else. if for any reason we are not on good terms, call me, and read me this. remind me. i may have forgotten, or chosen to be blind. but find me, and fix us again. another reason i wanted to send this is to make sure you know. that you know that you are amazing. that you are compassionate, loving, caring, and a really good listener. that you are the single person i can talk to for four hours on the phone and not get bored with. if you are feeling down on yourself right now ,remember how much you have helped me and other people. remember how you are devoted to art, life, drama, and music, and remember that by putting your whole soul into those things and everything else you produce extraordinary things. we are all honored and proud to know you. i am crying as i write this, not in pain, but in gratitude to God that he crossed my path with yours. i am so happy right now, even though we just broke up. do you know how extremely just freaking AMAZING that makes you? you can make me feel good about our future as friends, even though we just ended a really important chapter in our story. i just want you to remember what a great impact youve had on my life and others. you deserve to know that you make a difference in the lives of EVERYONE you know. and i could never say this to your face without crying. and i want it to come out not stuffy. lol. i apologize for the length of this email. but the best way i know to express myself is through paper, or a fascimilie of it. and no amount of space in the world could give me enough room to write why exactly i love you, the most i ever could without wanting to sleep with you. or maybe were together? i dont know. as long as we still talk. that is all i want. i want to be your friend. those were the 6 words you said to me that made me feel like i could roundhouse kick chuck norris. that is A BIG DEAL. =] (if you dont remember, we just stayed up till 1 in the morning reading each other chuck norris facts) were going to the mall next week. i cant wait to meet your friends and i hope they like me. i really want to meet emilie. maybe your with her now? although i feel a slight twinge when i say that, i know that you never stopped liking me, and that she is an amazing girl. i havent even met her and i know that. if you are with someone else, best of luck. if you are gay...JUST KIDDING. oh yes. if i ever do drugs, drink, or date zach, i give you permission to burn my lips off/tie me to a tree and airsoft at me. we just talked about this. =] again, i truly apologize for the length of this email. but it feels good to tell you things i cant tell you now because i cant express them verbally. i hope this email makes you happy and not bored. i love you. i love you. you dont know how much. you mean so much to me as a friend. please dont loose me. if you have, come find me. i may not know it, right at the moment your reading this, but i do need a friend like you in my life. you make me feel like im the pretty girl in the middle of the dance floor, twirling around looking beautiful and everyone smiling as she spins...til she falls down. then everyone laughs along with her.