A letter from Jan 03, 2025

Dear FutureMe, We are definitely at a strange spot starting this year. We're gonna try to leave behind lots of bad habits and behaviors. Focus on trying to not be as sensitive about the little things, as our "anxious" style (as much as I hate using that term" makes us do. Learn to take some things at face value because that's just what they are. Their text doesn't have a different tone, if they respond later than they usually do, they're simply busy. There is no need to over-analyze, just simply accept them for what they are and put your trust in those people you're over-analyzing first. We are also leaving our lack of motivation in 2024 as well. If you want to do something, simply do it. You already have the mindset to, prioritize doing those things over simply resting, as sometimes those experiences can make you feel more rested than just laying in bed. We're gonna say "hello" to prioritizing ourselves first. You don't owe anyone anything, if someone is putting you in a position to make decisions, don't let the first focus be what's best for them. Have the first focus be what's best for you. Unless someoe takes initiative to work towards something with you, take steps and make decisions on your own time. The only time you will owe someone anything, whether in a relationship or friendship, or any other type of situation is if they're taking initiative to show trust, love and/or respect to you. Keep your positive outlook, your willingness to be ready to do anything, and your perseverance to go through life and survive no matter what happens, because you've always been able to, and you're more than strong enough to always will. I have no clue what will be happening 6 months from now but some advice that never hurts is to simply take it easy. Do not stress over what you cannot control. Even though you want to be able to control it, you simply can't. I'm saying this because this is something that you usually don't like to accept, especially when you're in a happy point in life. Secondly, don't get distracted. You have goals that you truly wish to achieve. Don't give those up for some temporary fulfillment or changing them to fit someone else's life better. It is not your responsibility to fit into someone's life. This is something you've done a lot in the past, and something that needs to change as quick as possible. Finally, I'm gonna strangle you if you let her go because of something stupid again. You spent 9 months of no contact to get to the point that I'm currently at right now. You're friends at the moment, and if it doesn't work out for good reason, fair enough, but if you mess up over something dumb again, I promise I'm not gonna forgive you for it. You're a good man at heart, and she makes you strive to be even better, so be better for yourself and for her, and remember that if you both want it enough, it will work.