A letter from Aug 16, 2024

Beloved Abi, Hi! Im the Abi from the future. You‘re receiving this letter 1 year from now. First things first, i love you and i will still love you whatever or whichever you decide to be. I hope you‘re doing fine with all these struggles that you keep to yourself. I know its hard for the past years. I know there are times when you don’t want to live anymore. I totally understand it. And it’s okay, cry about it like you always do then hold your ground and fight like it’s your last day on earth. You will survive this, for sure. I know it because you are a person with a big heart and kind soul. One day you’ll realise that life is not that bad. I hope whoever you choose to love will reciprocate everything that you do for them. If not then it’s okay Abi. Love will find you in many ways. A heartbreak is not the end. You can’t force someone to love you. If they don’t want to stay in your life then open the door for them. When a door closes, a window opens remember that. I understand that it’s hard to let go of someone you pour your heart into. I know it’s hard to hear these things but sooner or later, you’ll realise all of it. I hope you’re deustch is progressing. Take your time to learn, its not a competition who’ll be able to learn a language fast. It’s about integrating and understanding. We all have different timeline. You‘ll be okay, you’ll get there eventually. In deustch man sagt “auf jedem Fall ”. Time will come that you’ll be surprised that you survived all these things. You’re 24, you’re still in the phase of learning, getting your heart break by someone’s son, learning new experiences and opportunities. It’s okay to be lost and lost again and be lost more in a country you don’t know about. Let me guess, you’re still lost aren’t you? You still don’t know what to do with your life and most probably you’re still figuring things out. Abi, i‘ll say it again, it’s fine. You don’t have to rush. Believe me one day you’ll be happy that you took your time. Don’t forget to love yourself more. In the coming years you’ll discover a lot more about yourself and you‘ll be shock about it. And yes, you‘ll gain a lot of what life has to offer. You‘ll meet many people around the globe and you‘ll be happy. I’m so excited what the future holds for you. Be kind to yourself, its the most precious thing you have. I know it’s fragile and a little bit broken but it’s yours. So please take care of it, take care of yourself, yes. Lastly, know that many people believe in what you can do so whatever path you choose to take, you have my full support. This is not a farewell but a see you soon. Best regards from your favourite and crazy self, Abi.