Hey, how are you holding up?

The last letter that was delivered from this platform arrived on your 25th birthday, or on March 30th, 2017. As you can imagine, that was a little while ago considering that today is June 15th, 2021, and so much has changed. Your 5th Wedding Anniversary is this year in July and your marriage has been rocky to say the least. K started calling you Mom last year, not your wedding day like she promised, but that was never for you to decide. Shortly after you received your last letter you found out you were pregnant with your first biological child - you found out on May 3rd, 2017 and gave birth to a beautiful and spunky little girl, S, on January 1st, 2018. You would find out you were pregnant again in August of 2019 and you gave birth to another lovely daughter, O, on April 27th, 2020. Of course, you know all this. Your family has grown, instead of being a wife, husband, and bonus daughter, your family became a family of 5 - you should be happy, but you feel empty. O is struggling with meeting milestones and the extra appointments and visits from OT and PT are starting to take their toll. Your friendship with N has come to a close. You sent her an apology, but I want to remind you that forgiveness is not a guarantee. That is a decision she needs to come to by herself and you cannot hold it against, not matter what she choses. Since your last letter, you have lost one dog and one cat, and gained one dog, two cats, and a snake. Your little bat dog had to be put down in January 2020 due to aggression and your black cat went outside and never came home (although we suspect he may still be alive, just in a different home, you know the story). You added another black cat and a calico, a snake, and a puppy. The puppy is breaking your heart. Your puppy ****** and ate a kitten, you found her lifeless body in your bedroom, her head torn away. Your husband is irate, to put it kindly, and you've began looking for a new home for her. She's only 7 months old - you are bummed. Speaking of your husband - he had an emotional affair that lasted over a year. You are still recovery and started marriage counseling earlier this year. There have been good time, but there has also been a lot of doubt. So, with all that said, here's what I want to leave you with. I hope the marriage counseling works - I pray that you can find happiness and security again in your relationship. If you cannot, I hope you have the courage to do what is right for you and this strained family dynamic. I am on the fence right now, but I hope by the time you receive this letter that your feet will be planted on solid ground, no matter which side you chose. I hope you find a good home for our puppy, that, or I hope you can work with her so her prey drive is manageable. I hope you continue to see improvement with O. But most importantly, I hope you know how important you are. Your kids love you so much and you deserve the best. Don't give up.