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Dear FutureMe, hey, sweetie! how are you by now? I have spent all day crying. Do you remember today? You could cry because too many things but instead of that you have been crying because your bosses are acting like assholes again. I´m trying to tell me that this is just a job, one of the jobs I will have but I can´t stop feeling so miserable. Maybe it´s the flu and my recent hard work and extrahours. Do you have any news about a new job? These crazy bosses are so mad, so insane and so inmoral... they spend their days making everyone miserable. I feel like I have no illusion and no innocence any more. Like I will have problems with authority for the rest of my life (this is my first work experience). When friends hear my stories about work they tend to say that that´s pure mobbing. Not with myself, a lot of colleages are in my situation. A lot of dimissions and angry. I keep looking for another job and waiting for Human Resources to relocate me but nothing yet. Keep on looking and with good hope if you havent found anything. These shit has been for 4 years now! This has to stop. One of the problems with this is that this mobbing thing makes me feel like I dont deserve anything good. I guess it sounds like nonsense but it´s there. In my unconsciousness. Right there. My best friend said that he had the same problem in his previous job and the most difficult thing was not to believe that they are right when they treat you like shit. Not to believe that you are shit, not to believe that you deserve them and even become that. He said that if everyone had this experience a lot of people would try to change this society and this company/economic system which permits these things: putting money before people and therefore letting inmoral bosses and behaviours happen. Today I really feel like I have no intelligence, everything that went wrong is my fault even those things that do not have anything to do with me, that I cant find another job because I look the contrary of proffesional and I can´t do anything by myself. And paranoid. But my sister says that if that it´s the case, why haven´t they fired me yet? So, good luck. Remember that it is not your fault and, most important, that THIS IS JUST A JOB. It is not your life, it is just a job of one of the jobs you will have. This is not to make a better world, only to make some people richier and for you to have money to live by yourself and travel. I wish I worked for a good thing for the world, but this work is not good nor bad. It simply doesn´t matter! So remember that sooner or later you will not be there and they´ll be out of your way and your mind forever. Remember, what they say, things they do, they should not affect you so bad because you should dont give a fuck about it. Why should you? Why? Are they important in your life somehow? I mean, they are only circunstancial, they are in your life temporarily. And they should thank you for the good and hard work you have made. Besos, Me.