Hey there, Senior!

Hi, Senior Steph! Wow, that's certainly weird to write...and look at! Right now, it's the summer after your freshman year at Father Ryan. How have things been since now? I just have a few quicky questions for you... 1)Okay, your friends: Melody, George, Philip, Parker, Theresa, Maeve, Michelle, Drew, Gina, Delores, Liz, Amy, Erica, James (JamesJames James!!), Zacky, and oh so many more?! Still friends with all of them I pray?! 2) Extracurriculars: Still chilling with the Theater kids?! Been the star in a musical yet? How about sports? Tennis, yes? I hope so! How about photography club? I hope I get to that one. 3)Crushes/Boyfriends: Right now I have a crush on Parker. Has that gone anywhere? At ALL?! Or is he still an idiot? What about Philip and Theresa?!?! PLEASE tell me they finally got together!! I hope Melody has gotten a BF too, otherwise I may have to kill myself! Just kidding. :) 4)Books: Harry Potter, Maximum Ride, The Hunger Games, etc? I'm hoping my library has grown exponentially! 5)New House?! PLEASE?! Bigger, better, Grandma living with us and all? 6)Music: Paramore!!! Barenaked Ladies! Seen their concerts I hope? Got any new artists? What about my own music career? I hope I've gone somewhere with that! Okay, and now a few memories I think you should, well, remember... 1)I just got back from Atlanta, GA. Remember how much fun that was?! And how you didn't have to spend a CENT because Mommy and Daddy payed for everything?!Maybe you should go thank them again for that. Just a thought. 2)A Very Potter Musical. 'Nuff said. If you don't remember this, go on YouTube right now and FIND IT!! Oh and while you're at it, watch A Very Potter Sequel too. And remind Melody, Michelle, George, Drew and Delores about this too. They'll definitely enjoy it. ;) 3)Your friends. Don't forget any of them, alright?! Maybe look back through that yearbook, call a few up and just talk. Share a few memories from all those years that have gone by so fast, okay? 4)Your creative streak this year. Ever make it in the Gadfly? Well, if you don't remember the poems you wrote, I suggest going on Google Docs and checking them out. User name: einahpets.schwartz Password: unlocking spell+birthday ;) 5)ALL those trips to Brooklyn to visit Aunt Donna and Pop-Pop. Hope they're still well. But remember how fun those trips were? How self-less Aunt Donna and Pop-pop were, and how they let you get away with EVERYTHING?! Good times, huh? I hope I've done well in school so far. Passing all my classes, maybe going into some AP ones? Yeah, I doubt that. But then again, I've surprised myself before. So yeah. I wish you could respond, but then again, you know the answers and you are me so technically I know everything! Right...? I hope i still have this messed up logic XD ...Have I had anymore depression spells? Like, when Mommy gets angry and I start to think about suicide? Have I attempted suicide?! I hope I haven't! Actually, in case you don't remember, I only had one major depression spell this WHOLE YEAR that I recall. Those people you were lucky enough to meet this year have definitely made a difference in your life. Please, PLEASE don't forget them when you travel off into the big bad world of college! In fact, I ORDER you to go to school tomorrow and give them all GIANT HUGS!! Not a group hug, each and every one needs to get their own individual hug and you need to tell them how they've changed your life. Tell them about the depression, and suicidal thoughts. You've held it in long enough, haven't you? So, I think it's time, if you haven't already shared. Let out the tears, the truth, all that you've been hiding. Spill it, girl! Oh and by the way, no matter what, you ARE NOT FAT. I've thought that many a time this year, and in the past, but I hope I've grown out of that. you are perfect in your own crazy lovable way. Never let anyone tell you otherwise, okay? So Future Me, I certainly hope you get this and remember: Expect the Best, Be Prepared for the Worst, F** what Everyone Else Thinks, And ALWAYS Do Your Own Thing :) (yeah i stole that. but i like it) You're beautiful and I love you :D Love,Almost-Sophomore Steph